Never Making Sense

Everyone Knows I'm in Over My Head

2006-04-22T19:14:00.000-07:00

^ I just really like this song and was just listening to it on my myspace. Everything isn't really over my head. I actually feel pretty on top of things at the moment. If you haven't noticed I seriously don't know where I am going with this blog.

I just talked to Becca on the phone cause she told me she had some neews, but wouldn't tell me what it was. So I called her. Turns out she met someone on myspace... why does everything have to do with myspace?... and that this person goes to her school. Then he asked her to prom. That was what I got out of that story. Good thing we have a family get together nect Sunday for Beefy's confirmation. Maybe they will pick on her. Wait, I lied... they will still pick on me.

Now I will tell you a funny story. It may be semi embarassing, but I can handle it. So we had a lock in for our youth group last night and I had just gotten done with a game on Thursday and a game on Friday. I was so tired and no one understood. They called me a party pooper when I went to bed at 2:00am. I told them they didn't know what they were talking about because I doubt they could stay up late after just finishing a soccer game where you average running 7 miles per game and then I had to shag balls where I ran some more! Anyways, I slept on these two beanbags in the middle of the lobby. I used my brothers pants for a pillow, but remembered to mention that I may drool on them during the night. He said I could use them anyway and I went to bed. In the morning I gave the pants back and said, "Here, Andrew, I drooled on them..." He laughed and we went home. He slept until 5:00pm and after he woke up we went to dinner. I was telling my parents about how I used his pants for a pillow and then I looked down and saw he was wearing pants that relly resembled my pillow pants. I asked, " Are those the pants I slept on?" He's like, "Yeah..." I was like, "You know I wasn't kidding when I said I drooled on them..." and I started laughing. Then he's like, " I realize that now." Haha... dool pants.

This story is just really crazy. In our soccer game on Thursday I jumped up to block this ball from going in the goal and it NAILED my knee (luckily not tha bad one). I yelled "OWWW!!!" really loud for a while and kept playing. At half time I looked at it and there was this distinct soccer ball pattern on my knee. It made me laugh, so it didn't hurt as bad.

I have some other news that might interest some of you. I will let you know that some is sad, but I will end on a happy note.

Anna's cousin had this boyfriend that she had been going out with for like 3 months and both of them had never been in a relationship for that long. All the time Anna would comment on how happy her cousin was with him. Her boyfriend died on Monday in a car accident. Things like this really bring reality into my life on how I could seriously die at any minute. I feel so bad for Anna's cousin, but Anna went to stay with her this weekend. I guess she is having a really rough time after the funeral. I continue to pray for everyone touched by his death.

So, I know that this is not quite as bad as the last paragraph, but I had another MRI a few weeks ago. This one was two and a half hours long and they are trying to catch anything possible thing that may still be wrong with any part of my leg. I still have some stuff, that isn't supposed to be in my bone marrow, in my bone marrow. They think they found a tumor or something. I have to go back to the UW doctors so they can test me for cancer again. I don't know if I want to even tell you how I feel about this. I don't want anyone to feel sorry for me. Nothing will be wrong anyways, there never is.

This last part of news is the good part, so be happy now. So for the past two years my locker has been in between Anna's and AJ's. We have always gotten along really well, but lately AJ and I have hung out a lot. Last Wednesday he got my locker combination from Anna and put a rose and a card in it asking me out. It was so cute! So, now I have a boyfriend and that is why Becca will technically not get picked on as much as she would have thought. I'm pretty ok with it though... I've lived with it this long I don't know what I would do if they stopped teasing me.

Right now I really want to watch a movie, and Becca said she was going to come over and watch one with me, but I think she was lying. That is what I am going to go do now Remember the Titans is calling my name.

SUMMER"S ALMOST HERE!!!

So Tomorrow Officially Decides My Fate

2006-04-04T19:01:00.000-07:00

^ I don't know if you have heard about the particular predicament that our town is in right now, but the main thing is this: We are supposedly $1.7million in debt as a school system. Why this is and why we all the sudden need $1.7million is beyond my comprehension (don't say anything about that). The school board proposed a referendum to fix the budget problem which would ultimately only come down to about $53 tax increase for a standard Baraboo home. Earlier, when we first found out about this one of my friends headed this rally to scare the school board by turning in open enrollment forms to show how many people would leave the school if this referendum didn't pass.
I didn't turn in my forms.
If the school is going down, I'm going down with it. They threaten to cut most sports I am in (aka soccer which is team funded anyways) and all AP classes and some various teaching positions including one band teacher. This would mean for me that they would take our band (Symphony) and put it together with first hour band (not so good). They are also cutting a choir teacher meaning ours would have to take on more classes and possibly drop the audition treble choir I am in. In short, I am screwed... excuse my language.
All this if they don't pass a referendum? I'm not even going to start to blame people because that will get us no where. I'm just concerned. Right now, at 9:19, the majority said "no" for passing the $7.5million referendum. And rightly so I suppose. The poor thing on the part of the supporters and the people establishing the referendum is that they never actually said how they would use this money they would get. My dad put this together by saying it would be like," A giant saying he will lose weight, and then his supporters putting plates of food in front of him".
If it doesn't pass, I will have a lot of my friends leave me. I will most likely cry, or come close. Meg will move to Sauk along with everyone else who is hardcore and really believe they need AP classes and sports they aren't even involved in to be happy. If you are concerned about college and lack of AP classes, my brother got accepted into MSOE (a hard school to get into) without any AP classes. My theory is that if you are motivated enough and really strive to get into college, you will work hard enough to get in without the help of the AP classes, although they may give you an extra edge.
Anna and Marley didn't hand in their transfers either. They are all I need. AJ handed in his papers, but I told him he can't go. I guess I am not looking in the positive light of this all, but seeing the votes come in right now there is not much hope.
Along with the budget problem, there was also a referendum going around asking to get the troops out of Iraq NOW. Sadly, this is coming in with positive votes. What can this referendum do, really? Not much. It may show the disapproval, but it doesn'y accomplish anything. All that this does is prove to everyone we're fighting against that we are weak and can't stand opposing forces and disapproval. Oh man. I see people getting heated about that one. Whatever!

There will be a lot of angry people tomorrow. I'm pretty sure the referendum just officially failed.

Today we had a soccer game and only lost 2-0 as compared to the whopping 10-0 last week. Bad news= my other leg hurts in the exact same place the gimp one hurt when it all started. I can't believe it, if I tore that muscle I will cry seriously. Maybe it's genetics. My brother said they should just throw me in a wheelchair and then my problems would be solved. Ha. Funny guy, that Andrew.

From what you are hearing right now it would seem that I am in another one of those "I hate the world" moods I tend to get into a lot. I'm actually NOT! Some things are making me a little upset, but everything will work out fine. I have taken on this care-free attitude which really works out alright. I'm happy in most senses. Uncertain about how many things will turn out, but I have a lot of hope.

I do feel a little out of the loop in ways. Nico knew Becca was coming over to my house before I did. That doesn't seem right to me. Becca knew Luke was going to be at camp before I did. I didn't really know how to feel about that. Camp was fun though. I was talking to Esa about how I didn't know if I was going to be hired as a volunteer this year because I got my papers in late, but she reassured me that she has connections with Matthew and can force hime into almost anything. The last time I saw her this weekend she was telling Nick and Adam (two counselors) how good of a girl I am. Haha. She is a good lady. I appreciate her food more and more every time I go up there.

Ok, this is me being exhausted from typing... Let me leave you with a song. This one comes from out Pops selection for Treble choir.

How Sweet It Is (To Be Loved by You)
by James Taylor
album: Gorilla (1975)
How sweet it is to be loved by you
How sweet it is to be loved by you
I needed the shelter of someone's arms, there you were
I needed someone to understand my ups and downs,
there you were
With sweet love and devotion
Deeply touching my emotion
I want to stop (stop) and thank you baby
I want to stop (stop) and thank you baby
How sweet it is to be loved by you
How sweet it is to be loved by you
I close my eyes at night
Wondering where would I be without you in my life
Everything I did was just a bore
Everywhere I went it seems I'd been there before
But you brighten up for me all of my days
With a love so sweet in so many ways
I want to stop (stop)and thank you baby
I just want to stop (stop) and thank you baby
How sweet it is to be loved by you
How sweet it is to be loved by you
You were better to me than I was to myself
For me, there's you and there ain't nobody else
I want to stop (stop) and thank you baby
I just want to stop (stop) and thank you baby
How sweet it is to be loved by you
How sweet it is to be loved by you
How sweet it is to be loved by you
(It's like jelly baby)
How sweet it is to be loved by you
(Just like honey to the bee baby)
How sweet it is to be loved by you
How sweet it is to be loved by you

Ok, and maybe another...

Wind Beneath My Wings
by Bette Midler
album: Beaches [original soundtrack] (1989)
Oh, oh, oh, oh
It must have been cold there in my shadow
To never have sunlight on your face
You were content to let me shine, that's your way
You always walked a step behind
So, I was the one with all the glory
While you were the one with all the strain
A beautiful face without a name for so long
A beautiful smile to hide the pain
Did you ever know that you're my hero
And everything I would like to be
I can fly higher than an eagle
For you are the wind beneath my wings
It might have appeared to go unnoticed
But I've got it all here in my heart
I want you to know, I know the truth, of course I know you
I would be nothing without you
Did you ever know that you're my hero
You're everything I wish I could be
I could fly higher than an eagle
For you are the wind beneath my wings
Did I ever tell you you're my hero
You're everything, everything I wish I could be
Oh, and I, I could fly higher than an eagle
For you are the wind beneath my wings
Cause you are the wind beneath my wings
Oh, the wind beneath my wings
You, you, you, you are the wind beneath my wings
Fly, fly, fly away, you let me fly so high
Oh, you, you, you, the wind beneath my wings
Oh, you, you, you, the wind beneath my wings
Fly, fly, so high in the sky
So high, I almost touch the stars
Thank you, thank you, thank God for you
The wind beneath my wings

** that one is for Liz** haha

Rivers, Clocks, and Ferris Wheels

2006-03-24T10:31:00.000-08:00

There you have it. I hope this proves my point of the ferris wheel thing instead of making me look like even more of a fool.
So, where did I leave off? Oh at "The Color Purple". During that show I sat behind a really tall person and had to sit up a lot... But, the show in itself was very good. This is the musical that Oprah Winfrey was involved in.
That night we got home (to the hotel) and watched some show on Mormons. That was a little weird. The next morning Alyssa, Anna, and I went to the Toay show at NBC studios. Although we didn't get on TV, we still decided it was worth it going. We were going to be tired even if we didn't have to wake up at 5:15am. When we got back to the hotel we got right on the bus and drove to Battery Park. Don't ask me why it is named that because I asked and Kyle Mara gave me some retarded answer. Then we sat in line to get on the ferry to go to the Statue of Liberty. That thing is amazing. We spent most of the day between there and Ellis Island. Some people got left behind on Ellis Island including my mom, but we waited. Haha. After this we went to the hotel to get ready for the next show,"The Producers".
Saint Patricks Day in New York is crazy. There was this parade that started a few hours after we left NBS and was just ending as we went past 5th Street on the way to dinner at Planet Hollywood. The food in New York wasn't as good as previously expected, but the thought of it being from New York made us happy enough to eat it. "The Producers" was definitely the better of the two shows. It was so funny and now I can't wait to see the movie.
The next day we went on this breakfast cruise through the Hudson Bay/ East River which was really fun. We did David piery's hair and made it look like a girl. That day we went shopping in Rockefeller Center. That was a good time. Well, now Liz wants to play so I'm going to go take a shower. I had practice this morning from 9-11:00. My coach has me playing sweeper, a position I have never played before. She always has me playing! Man! I feel needed! Alright... Have a great day! Love!

!sara

P.S. Funny story. One of the TVs in our bus broke and the only way to fix it was to hit it really hard. Guess who was the one sitting right under that TV. My mom. So she would stand up when it went off and just hit it for like 5 minutes... really hard. She got the nickname "Uppercut" by Pat and Erik. Now they always ask me how "Uppercut" is. It's funny because she can beat up any of them and they know it.

New York Minute

2006-03-21T19:25:00.000-08:00

Everything has been going so fast lately. I had the three busiest days of my life before tour, and now I will tell you why and then end up telling you all about New York because it is amazing.

So. I joined soccer. My doctor said it might help my leg and I ave never been terrible, but my self conciousness always puts a damper on things I like. I have now found that I don't suck at soccer and may be one of the better girls on our JV team. Maybe a sport could work out for me.

Soccer tryouts started the Monday before we went to New York. We left on Wednesday so I had to miss three days of practice. The first day of practice started at 4:00. After soccer ended at 6:00 I had to literally race home to get my whole luggage packed for tour because I had to hand my bag in that night at 6:30. At 6:30 we had rehearsal for our tour music. Man was my leg sore... Second day of practice pretty much went the same way except that night I had to write a paper and pack my carry-on.

Wednesday couldn't have gone any slower. I had two major tests that day before we left which sucked, but "It's all good... I'm going to New York!" That saying became the excuse for everything we did. For example: I didn't do my hair the morning we left and I walked into school and asked Sam "What do you think of my hair? Cause I didn't do anything to it this morning. But I'm ok with it. You know why? Cause I'm going to New York in a few hours!"

The bus ride there took a full 24 hours because we had to make stops and ended up being stuck in traffic for 4 hours in Chicago. I cound't really get much sleep the night on the bus. I woke up at 4:30 and looked out the window and feaked out. We were driving on the right hand lane right over a wide river. I looked out and saw only water and a few islands and assumed we were just driving on water because I couldn't see a guard rail. I then told Meg and a few others on the back of the bus, but this soon made it's way to the front so Mr. Lang could make fun of me everytime we went over water.

When we got to New York the sights were overwhelming. I saw this circular object in the distance that resembled a ferris wheel and said "That would be such a sweet ferris wheel to go on!" Turns out my ferris wheel was a clock. I'm trying to download a pic of this clock to show you what an honest mistake it was, but Mr. Lang founf out about it anyways and everytime we went past a clock he would announce "Oh, Stigen! There's another ferris wheel!"

So, I made the trip funny. What can I say?

We were running really late getting there because of the traffic and ended up also having to wait for our room because they canceled Mag, Alyssa, Anna, and I's room. That night we went t Mars 2112 and were pretty much mauled by aliens. That was a little weird, but fun. It was kinda like Disney in New York. After dinner we walked around Time Square. That place is gorgeous. I could spend days just in that area. We went to see "The Color Purple" that night, but most of us fell asleep at least once.

Speaking of falling asleep... I must. I'll continue soon. Love!

BAND GEEKS!

2006-03-21T19:07:00.000-08:00

MORE NEW YORK!

2006-03-20T18:48:00.000-08:00

Wait... What?

2006-03-09T14:23:00.000-08:00

^ We are going to NEW YORK! Yeah, next week this time I will be enjoying the east coast air, however the quality of that air might be compared to Baraboo is the question. Alyssa ordered t-shirts that say "BAND GEEK" in huge letters on the front and we all have retarded names on the back. I have the most trouble thinking of nicknames for shirts and stuff, so I resort to asking others what I should use. I thought of things related to playing flute, because that in itself is not the most respected instrument, but to no avail. The shirt came in and it is amazing "Wait... What?" is hilarious. It's sad becaus everyone knows what it is talking about (I say that all the time). All of my groups are going to be amazing. I was put on the bus with all the seniors and it is going to be fun in itself. In my room I have Anna, Meg, and Alyssa. In the group my mom is chaperoning is Owen, Derick, Jon Baker, Anna, and I.
Other than that my life has settled down nicely. I got really mad because when I was really upset for such a long time we were also doing the mental health unit in health class. In this unit we talked about depression and everything and so I was semi tossing the idea around in the back of my mind... but I knew I didn't have it. My mom saw me being upset as ike a joke and would always make fun of it. I swore then that I wouldn't tell her anything again. She then though I was annorexic or something, also a mental thing. Whatever... I lost weight since I got hurt. What of it?
I'm playing soccer. I don't know how that will work out, but at least I will try. My mom feels bad now because she made me get that cortisone injection, but it is reacting negatively now and may be the reason for my problems. I don't blame her, but I do wish I didn't have to go through it. I guess soccer may help. Who knows?!
So, this is my life. I hope this weekend is fun. I'm supposed to hang out with Marley and Alyssa and Anna for Marley's birthday one day, hang out with another one of my friends another day hopefuly and pack at some point. YAY! I'm HAPPY!
Ok... Survey...
Do I talk weird? Like my "ar" words ex.) car or hard

Have a great day!

PS Track started on Monday. I wanted to kill someone. Alright, now that you know. BYE!

"Those two look a lot alike..."

2006-03-02T18:38:00.000-08:00

^ So, after watching the 1990's version of Beauty and the Beast, as compared to the musical, this afternoon, Anna, Meg, Andrew and I were watching a "Friends" re-run. There were two girls who looked exactly the same and were apparently twins, but I didn't realize that until I said "Those two look a lot alike." I guess my comment wouldn't have been that bad if I had said "They look like twins" or something. Not catching the connection of twins was the main mistake. I guess they are going to tell everyone that I am ridiculous now. Whatever... most knew that.

We are getting shirts that say "Band Geek" on them for our New York trip which is in 1 week and 6 days. On the back of them we are supposed to put some stupid name that is somewhat relative to yourself. I have the most trouble coming up with things like this. I thought of Tootie Flutie but Meg was already Flute Loops and we can't have the same food related analogy. Why not? I am not sure... Most likely because she lacks the imagination to come up with something new. I was still thinking when Andi Krunfuz (I know I slaughtered the spelling of that) says "How about 'Wait... What?'" The sad thing is I am really like that. When I don't know what is going on I usually say exactly that.

Oh... I never told you about solo ensemble. I was yet again dissapointed with a second place on my class A solo. I hear it is good for a sophomore, but since I have been playing this calss since 7th grade, got a first the first year, and haven't done that well since is disturbing. That and working so long for something to be judged poorly is sickening. Really I will blame this on the judging. Even my flute teacher said I should have gotten at least a first. I will also express how much I dislike solo ensemble becuase I am all against judging people and yet I go to this thing to be judged on how well I play. It is upsetting.
Oh yeah, we got a first in Wood Wind Ensemble, but aren't going to state.

This weekend is the Baraboo High School's Presentation of Beauty and the Beast. Although I was jipped out of a spot on cast (yes, I am convinced that was rigged too) Mr Lang put Anna and me head of hair and makeup. I was also asked to be in pit, but tried out for the actual musical instead and ended up not getting to play at all. Makeup is fun though. We get out own room and I get t socialize with a bunch of cool people... We feel pretty useless and less important though, which I guess would be expected. It's sad, we even wait for everyone to eat before we do. Is this just a mind set or are we actually looked at like this? I'm not sure... But I like it anyways.

So yesterday Anna broke her locker. We sat there for like 15 minutes trying to fix it, so we just latched the top and bottom latches and walked away with the actual lock part sticking out. This morning it was still being retarded and we were all trying to get it to close and she was putting all her weight on it when all the sudden Freel comes up. Freel is the senior who everyone loves because he didn't pass last year. He was one of my brother's friends but now hangs around Anna and I. On of the jokes we make about him is that he is fat, which is not a lie. When he saw Anna couldn't get her locker closed the guy just kicked it and it closed. When opened again we saw that he actually bent a part of the hinge, but that was easily fixed. It was scary cause Aj and I thought Anna was going to have to get a new locker. I would die. He would die. We all would die together.

Ok that is my life for now. I hope it makes sense...
Love!

Falling Out
by Relient K
album: Two Left's Don't Make A Right ... But Three Do (2003)

I'm falling out of grace with the world
they say I've lost my midas touch
what turned to gold now turns to rust
I'm falling out of line with all the stars
that flood my dreams with their guitars and magazines
face down, this carpet tastes like coffee grounds
ground into my face now
and every angle's covered with just another.
I'm falling out of style with the current way things are
the things that make conforming hard
I'm falling out of control and you just can't stop me now
I'll fight as long as time allows.
Face down, this carpet tastes like coffee grounds
ground into my face now
and every angle's covered with just another, bandaid
I'm out here way beyond
a shadow of a doubt
and I know I'm never falling out(falling out)
of favor with you
I'm out here way beyond
a shadow of a doubt
and I know I'm never falling out(falling out)
of favor with you.
I wont think twice or even three times
about taking a gamble with you
cause with my life you have been so kind
I take all my comfort from you
Face down, this carpet tastes like coffee grounds
ground into my face now
and every angle's covered with just another, bandaid
I'm out here way beyond
a shadow of a doubt
and I know I'm never falling out(falling out)
of favor with you
I'm out here way beyond
a shadow of a doubt
and I know I'm never falling out(falling out falling out)
of favor with you.

Technically It's Friday

2006-02-23T19:06:00.000-08:00

^ Conversation with Anna. We had a short week this week; Tomorrow we have off. Yesterday we were sitting in choir and she turns to me and says, " Technically today is Thursday!" It was Wednesday. "No Anna... Technically today is Wednesday, but it may feel like Thursday." It was funny. Maybe not when you read it, but it was for real.

Today the costumes came for musical. The boxes came during treble choir and all of us were so excited. It was like it was Christmas or something. We tried to get G to let us open them for a while and finally she let us. We started cutting open box after box. It seriously was like Christmas. Funny. Did I tell you that I get to do makeup with Anna for the production? It is going to be HARDCORE! Yay.
Let's see... What else is new. Oh, something else musical. Solo Ensemble is on Saturday. I am real nervous. My solo is at 8:08 so if you have nothing to do, OTHER THAN SLEEP, come on out and watch me. Or don't.

I HATE FFA WEEK! It starts out by blasting country music over the loud speakers and wearing a bunhc of Carhart and John Deere perrifenalia and dressing up like a cowboy. Then it ends with the spectacluar "Drive your TRACTOR to school day!" Oh man... You know how I talked about upper being packed and having to walk from lower? Well ALL the tractors took up upper. It sucked. There were a few things that made this week fun. 1) the usual "hick row" in the pacrking lot where all the trucks are parked on nromal days wer already occupied by normal cars by the time they got there this morning 2) Tom Bird wore a huge orange foam hat. Seriously it was huge. 3) a kid I used to be close friends with came up and asked me why I wans't wearing Carhart. The reply to that is "I'm not a cowboy."

After school today I took Meg to Culvers and we hung out for a while. Then we went to her house and watched "Rent" which is amazing. The music is beautiful. In fact, I think I will wrap this up with a song from there. It is the most known known song from the musical I believe but it is great. Have a great weekend. Horray no school tomorrow!
LOVE!

Seasons of Love
album: Rent [2005 Movie Soundtrack] (2005)

Five hundred twenty five thousand
six hundred minutes
Five hundred twenty five thousand
moments so dear
Five hundred twenty five thousand
six hundred minutes
How do you measure, measure a year
In daylight, in sunsets, in midnights,
in cups of coffee, In inches, in miles
in laughter in strife,
In Five hundred twenty five thousand
six hundred minutes
How do you measure a year in the life
[Chorus:]
How about Love
how about love
how about love
measure in love
seasons of love
seasons of love
Five hundred twenty five thousand
six hundred minutes
Five hundred twenty five thousand
journeys to plan
Five hundred twenty five thousand
six hundred minutes
how do you measure the life of a woman
or a man
In truth that she learned
or in times that he cried
In the bridges he burned
or the way that she died
Its time now to sing out
though the story never ends
lets celebrate remember a year
in the life of friends
[Chorus]

Emo Oranges

2006-02-21T17:43:00.000-08:00

OK, so I forgot to put this in my other post. Jared sent me this website and it is hilarious. Becca will most likely die from laughing.

*EMO ORANGES!*
http://emoorangesmovie.ytmnd.com/

p.s. when it says "fin" it is over.

And... if you happen to be a myspace n00b and like to sit on your computer and watch funny movies... This one is for you.

*Myspace Movie*
http://www.wimp.com/myspace/

Alright there ya go.

Why Don't I Get To Jump Off Anything?

2006-02-21T15:22:00.000-08:00

^So, I was talking to Becca and she was telling me about how she got to jump out of her bedroom window into a pile of snow under it. I was really jealous. But then my parents got home from up north this weekend and told me they were jumping off the roof of the cottage. Grrr... I miss out yet again. Whatever.

I hate it when I feel the need to blog but I have nothing to say. Oh I remember what I was going to tell... I RAN A MILE TODAY! Sure, it was a 13 minutes mile going at 4.2 mph, but it still made me feel like I was getting better which hasn't been determined yet. Then I came upstairs and my mom was like "Do I need to give you a talk?" "About what?" "About becoming anorexic..." I was like "Do you have a 'talk' about becoming anorexic?" and she said no. But I told her to tell me anyways, I just like to see what my mom comes up with sometimes. Then I told her that if I did become anorexic (which I never would... I <3 food) it would be a mental disorder, for this is what we learn in health. Then she told me that if I had a nemtal disorder she wouldn't do anything about it and she doesn't believe in them. No wonder she told me to get over being depressed. Then I told her I'm never telling her anything again. I win.

Ok, so that last paragraph didn't make much sense... But if you understand and/or are not thinking I am anorexic I have proved my point... In a weird sort of way.

Blue and Gold was last weekend. It was really fun. On Saturday Anna called my house at like 8:00 in the morning telling me I needed to be over at her house. So I woke up at around 10 and took my time getting my stuff ready. I stayed at her house all day with Marley and Alyssa. It was a *blast* <---- I am not saying that is a sound effect, those "*" just look like blasts of some sort... A bunch of people came over to Anna's around 6:30 and we ate a bunch of food and went to the dance around 9:00. I didn't go into any ditches on the way there or back. YAY! After the dance we went to my house and had a Princess Diaries marathon aka fell asleep within an hour.

The next day I spent the whole day paying for my procrastination and working on a career project due the next day.

This weekend is Solo Ensemble. Oh boy... Class "A" solos make me nervous. It has been years sine I got a first on a class "A". It kinda makes me wonder how I got firsts way back when but can't get them not... when I am better. Hmmm...

Ok, so my friend AdamIgl wrote something about Catholics on his blog. All of the sudden a whole bunch of Catholic like bishops or something came on and started bashing him. And I went to check out their blogs and they were all like really religious and there was one guy who told all his Catholic friends to go look at Adam's site and comment. So then there is this "St. Michael" guy (however he gets that he is St. Michael is beyond me) who comes and starts going on and on. It is insane. If you want to check it out his blog is http://guardtheway.blogspot.com/. It is a few down and has a bunch of comments on it. The real thing that bothered me was how people who didn't even know him felt the need to comment. I didn't understand. I have no idea if they know him or are just looking for something to rally up there forces and comment on. Adam, do you have an explanation?

Wow, this blog makes almost no sense. Oh! Becca! In health we are learning about mental disorders and OCD came up. My teacher even said that everyone is obsessive compulsive about something, but it is only a disorder if the thing interfeers with your normal everyday life. So yeah... We're OC-the D. Ha! I just thought you would want to know. Love!

Alright, I will try to get you pictures soon from the dance. And maybe make some sense next time I attempt blogging.

The Day in Pictures.

2006-02-13T18:58:00.000-08:00

^ You know in the paper how they always have those "Week in Pictures" thing and usually show some emotional picture of something. Well, I will show to you my normal day in pictures instead. Enjoy... For you are seeing my life here...

6:40am... I wake up and walk to the shower. In doing so I usually trip over my cat who always waits outside my door

Then I get ready for school.. Don't I look great? Cause really... that is how I look everyday. I'm kidding... in case you don't know.

After I get ready, I drive to school in my Geo and hope for a parking spot in Upper. If that is the case, I walk into school and straight to locker #1208. If not, I run... Isn't my locker amazing... Haha.

That is my locker, between AJ and Anna. It is fun times. If you can't tell. And yes, Anna is a pirate.

Math.... balasjnajdksdsjk... That is all I have to say.

Band/ choir. Ths ONLY highlights of my day. Yeah, it was pirate day today in case you haven't noticed the theme.
The occasional lunch at Culver's.

And then there's always a little drama. The picture doesn't really portray "drama" but I think it looks like we are in some sort of Broadway Musical which includes some drama.

And then there is Symphony Band. This picture doesn't really give you a good explanation of band either, but that is Pat Collins who plays bassoon and sits right next to me. Today I gave him a Twix for Valentine's Day and in return he gave me one of his reeds... How thoughtful...

After school random friends of mine come and hang out at my locker. Even if Anna or I aren't there, they still are. Creepy... No... Just a little? Ok, yeah.... A little creepy.

And after all this we may go hang out at some school function, like this hockey game. That is actually a picture of AJ, yeah... That same guy who lives right next to the locker (Anna and I's).

So, that is a day in my life. Fun, I must say. Do me a favor. Look up 2 Cor. 4:8-9. It is the most beautiful passage ever.

<3!>

Radically Irradicable.

2006-02-11T13:00:00.000-08:00

^Essentially meaning I am in another pensive mood.

I will first give you an update on what is going on with everything aka my leg. On thursday I had another doctors appointment in Madison. This guy cranks on my leg like there is nothing wrong with it. He thinks there may be arthritis in my knee, which is ultimately where the most pain is right now. He ordered an x-ray which showed two peculiar spots on the top and bottom of my knee. He sent me to get another MRI which I actually got in for on Friday. They should have those results by Monday. We are then going to give them to my promary doctor to see what she says, and if I actually need to go back to my Madison doctor or schedule some more intense approach with some other doctor else where. AKA some sort of surgery. The Madison doctor wants me to get another full MRI of my entire leg to get me back in to see the UW doctor, but he doesn't care about me... so I don't think I will go back. My hope is caving...

That night I cried a lot. I just want an answer. That and we are learning the mental healt unit in health class and just happened to be on the Depression chapter. Even if I was depressed though my parents wouldn't allow it. So, I have to try and convince myself that there is nothing wrong with either my head or my leg. My mom thought threatening to take me to the Children's Hospital in Milwaukee would make me think that my situation wasn't a bad as it is... Which I already know. You know that I know that there are a lot more worse cases of everything out there and I already feel bad for feeling sorry for myself. AHhh... Then she gave me some Vicadin and told me it would help me get some sleep, which I haven't really gotten for a very very long time. Pain and stress don't allow it.

Monday I called my brother second hour to see if he could drop off something for a project that my friend forgot at her house. He talked to her for a while, but she gave the phone back saying that his back hurt really bad. My mom was subbing that day, so he was home alone. I picked up the phone and started talking to him and he said, "I can't sit, I can't stand, and i can't sleep. Right now I am laying in the fetal position on the living room floor." That worried me because it sounded like he was going to cry. I asked him what he was going to do and he said, "I don't know... Go to the hospital or something." So I was worried all day. I had PT that afternoon right after school so I drove home really fast to see if he was ok. They were taking him to the ER right then, and since I was going to the hospital for PT i just went with them. He was there for a few hours, and after a few tests they found out that he has kidney stones. Yikes. Our family's health... I tell ya...

Here's the thing...
Yesterday we were sitting in math, going over radicals and stuff. My teacher made some joke to the extent of, " You have to get the radical answer, because it is right." It was supposed to be a joke, so we laughed and then he felt the need to explain anyways and gave the example of how people in the army who are fighting a war and have to kill people have to find it right in their consience that what they are doing is right. Something about being radical blahblahblah... But then I started thinking, because I hate thinking of only math... If people of some groups, mainly Democrats in general, think that war and killing is so wrong, then how can they be pro-choice. How can they justify killing one way, but not another. It is just another form. I actually don't want a big uprising against this with Nico and Jared against Schleef and Shinnick. I am just stating that it doesn't make sense. Once again... Hypocritical.

Alright. I just found an awesome lyrics site that had this song that was looking for on it. I like this song a lot and dont' take any of the words personally... I just like it.

Seven Years
by Saosin
album: Translating The Name

Taking on seven years
the holy ghost had left alone
Test my arms, kick like crazy
I've been trying way too long
only push the way off to fight you
Now I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm not sure
Getting off my chest
the story ends
I would find a way without...
Tell him his eyes see too clear
I would find a way without you
Tell him his eyes see too clear

That mistake was gold
I know that without you
is something that I could never do
That was why staple the eyes and
seven dates for me to sell machines
and tear on
Seven years you assured me
that I'd be fine if I complied
only push the way off to fight you
Now I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm not sure
Getting off my chest
the story ends
I would find a way without...
Tell him his eyes see too clear
I would find a way without you
Tell him his eyes see too clear
That mistake was gold
I know that without you
is something that I could never do
That was why staple the eyes and
seven dates for me to sell machines
and tear on
Don't treat me, I'm to blame (Sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry)
Don't treat me like I ever accused you

~Scara

Happy 100!

2006-02-10T16:02:00.000-08:00

^ Coincidentally, it was also the 100th day of school on Werdnesday. Imagine. So, if you aren't the quickest (and I'm not going to say that is bad) this would be my 100th post. Yay. The 100th time I have written something out of frustratoin or concern. Well, I thought what better to commemorate than to take a whole bunch of songs and put them together. Wouldn't that be cool? Well... I'm doing it anyways. Thanks for reading all this time!

White Houses - Vanessa Carlton
My first time, hard to explain
Rush of blood, oh, and a little bit of pain
On a cloudy day, it's more common than you think
He's my first mistake

Great Romances of the 20th Century- Taking Back Sunday
This won’t mean a thing come tomorrow
and that’s exactly how I’ll make it seem
Cause I'm still not sleeping,thinking I’ve crawled home from worse than this
So please, please (please)
I’m running out of sympathy (I'm running out of sympathy!)
and I never said I’d take this
I never said I'd take this lying down

Caring is Creepy- Ths Shins
I think i'll go home and mull this over
Before i cram it down my throat
At long last it's crashed, the colossal mass
Has broken up into bits in my moat.

Careful-Guster
And you walked out when I asked you to stay
As usual you will get your way
You closed the door and shuffled down to the street
Where you wring your hands
and drag your feet
Where the words can't find you
To crawl inside you
I'm ringing all the warning bells
Careful or you'll hurt yourself
Others lie, lie, lie, they adore you
I'll be the one to tell you
Careful or you'll hurt yourself
Gonna try, try, try till the morning comes
But you can't hide standing under these stars
They know everything, they know where you are
You're in your head, you're all turned around with it
And they're shining down their light to bring you back again

You're Beautiful-James Blunt
You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
I saw you face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
'Cause I'll never be with you.
You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
There must be an angel with a smile on her face,
When she thought up that I should be with you.
But it's time to face the truth,
I will never be with you.

I Feel So-Boxcar Racer
Sometimes
I wish I was brave
I wish I was stronger
I wish I could feel no pain
I wish I was young
I wish I would tryI wish I was honest
I wish I was you not I

'CauseI feel so mad
I feel so angry
I feel so callous
So lost, confused again
I feel so cheap
So used, unfaithful
Let's start over
Let's start over

For the Moments I Feel Faint- Relient K
Am I at the point of no improvement?
What of the death I still dwell in?
I try to excel, but I feel no movement.
Can I be free of this unreleasable sin?

[Chorus:]Never underestimate my Jesus.
You're telling me that there's no hope.
I'm telling you your wrong.
Never underestimate my Jesus
When the world around you crumbles
He will be strong,
He will be strong

I thought that was going to be a lot more fun and creative... But I kinda lost my motivation. What is 100 worth anyways? It's just another number. Now I will get back to my life in the next post.

~Sara

Hypocritical, Analytical, and Critical... And most likely all those others "-icals" words.

2006-02-08T19:33:00.000-08:00

#99... Yeah, right now you are reading the 99th post that has been posted on this blog, not counting my old one.

^ This is trying to describe my school. Seriously... I am fed up with all the complaining that goes on all the time. We are ALL just trying to make it through, so we should just stop going on and on about how everything is going wrong and we are so busy and failing classes. I know that i complain too, a lot. But, really... if you are failing a class... that is controlable. Most things I complain about are not... sadly. Wow... I never thought about it that way.

Ok, so main thing going on in my life right now. I have another doctors appointment tomorrow. I'm really scared. Talk of surgery... Really I just want answers. I want someone to tell me that it is not in my head. That I am not crazy. But what if... Am I crazy?

That is probably why I have been so quiet. That and I really just can't stand people sometimes. Really... they drive me absolutely insane. WIth the whole "ical" words... People get so upset. They are so quick to judge. They know people judge them, and they strive to do what makes them look best, but when they screw up... Man... Really, it is all this circle of people trying to look better than other people. We are all vain. Except for those people who are convinced that they ARE in fact better than the rest. Then they already have enough problems to deal with.

Ok, I'm going to go and do something where I can think out my words before I write a bunch of randomness. Now you are convinced, as am I, that I am truely crazy. Whatever. I'm not trying to act like something other than it for other people's sake.
Love!

Pray for me please.

I will stay with you.

2006-02-04T11:21:00.000-08:00

So, I have two stories to tell you. You know, those stories that happen only in my life that may not be that funny at the time but end up to be somewhat hilarious/ a major life lesson to all of us who read this blog. The first one happened a few weeks ago, and the second happened last night. To keep you on the edge of your seat, and actually reading the most crucial parts of this story, I will try to keep it simple and not go into much detail. I know that in some people's blogs they have some point to their stories but I usually stop reading by the time they get to them because of all the detail. Even I am guilty of this at times... Like now.

**Note:This entry may contain graphic scenes, mystery, humor, near death situations, and a little anger, so if you, being the reader, feel uncapable of read this after the forenote... DON'T. It may not be suitable for children of all ages. **

On a snowy January day not too long ago, treble chior assembled at their 2nd hour rehearsal. It was only the second week of practices, but I had come to the knowledge that during this time of the year all the girls did during this particular hour was practice their solos, or duets and such for the upcoming solo ensemble. Since I had come into chior in second semester only, I hadn't picked out a solo to sing, therefore I had nothing to do all hour. While wandering around I stumbled upon a freshmen girl in distress, who didn't know how to play a certain part of her flute solo. She still had to do something before she started practicing, but knowing that I happened to be in Symphony band, she asked if I could help her count some rythmns or something when she needed it. I didn't quite hear her at first, maybe out of surprise that someone was asking my help in their solo... seeing as I'm only a sophomore myself, butI felt confident that I could teach this young flutist as I have been taught by my beloved flute teacher, Mrs. Bird. I quickly replied in my excited voice, "Sure, just come find me when you are ready!" Around 20 minutes later in that same hour I was conversing with my dear friend, Meg, who had happened to beat me in our chair tests last year by a mear 1/2 point. This little freshmean flutist comes through the door where we are standing and says, "Oh Sara! Can you help-- Wait! Better yet! Meg! Can you help me with some of my solo?" I stood there with my mouth wide open trying to comprehend this thing that just came out of this inconsiderate freshman snob. Now I know why they coined the term "Stupid Freshmen". That's all I have to say about that.

It was a freezing night with wind blowing from all directions and snow/sleet/rain coming down all around. I looked outside the caffeteria windows to see how much snow we were consuming and if I had to leave the dance early as to be able to return home without getting into a major car accident. Seeing that I would just have to be driving about 7 blocks away, yet uphill, I decided my "fun" could last a little longer. At around 10:30 Anna and I decided that we were trying to make more fun out of this dance than it actually was, so we left and went to my house to watch a movie. I was joking around when I said, "What if I couldn't get up this hill[going up to my house]?" But I knew how to handle it and we didn't slide at all. When we arrived home, we sat down and put in Lemeny Snicket's "A Series of Unfortunate Events" and pretty much fell asleep. At around 12:30 Anna decided she should go home because she had to work at 10:00 this morning, so I got my keys and we went out and got in my car. The in town roads weren't bad at all. The salt was everywhere so really I had nothing to worry about. You could see the apparent divider between city limits and non city. You could see the snow covering the road... but I guess I forgot that it hadn't been snow the whole time. I came up to that first turn out there in the snowy country roads and was driving pretty slow for a 35mph zone, but when I turned my wheel my car didn't really want to go quite that much. I went sliding in the wrong direction right towords this steep ditch. I braked and turned my wheel the other way to try to correct myself, but this steep cliff-like embankement just kept getting closer. I started freaking out and Anna was obviously a little scared... What was I supposed to do? My car was sliding into the ditch and I was braking and I seriously saw that I was going to be head first into the side of the road. I was out past curfew also, so if I fell into this embankment, I would surely be in a little trouble if not more than I ever have been in my life. In one last feeble attempt to stop this certain fate from becoming a reality, I stomped hard on the brake and held it there. My car came to a slow stop and I froze on the edge of the road. I sat there for a while and then started the "Ohmygoshohmygoshohmygosh!!!" thing. I grabbed my phone and went through my contacts to find my house number because I was numb. Anna was sitting there saying, "DO you want me to get out... Do you want me to get out?" Three rings on my phone and my mom answers. She pretty much answers by saying, "Your dad's on his way." I rattle off the whole story and see this upperclassmen drive pasrt from my school very slowly. My car was off completely and my hazords were on, but he didn't stop anyway. Loser. So when Anna was out of my car she took a look around and found that I was exagerating how far off the road I actually was. I was really just barely off the road and we found that I would most likely be able to back myself out of it. I hung up the phone and drove. Yeah, we made it out of that one. Anna says, "At least we have a good story....." but I think the next one is even better.
I made it through Fox Hill, even down that really steep hill without slipping at all. I made it past that stop sign which is also really hard to maneuver. I was on my way to a safe drive to Anna's, considering what had happened. The next turn was a left hand turn coming off of a highway going into Wynsong. I was taking it really, really, painstakingly slow, but when I turned left... my car turned right. I went straight into the ditch this time, but this one wasn't half as steep as the previous. Now I do admit that a profanity may, or may not have come out of my mouth at this point. Only the few have heard me say something like that. I threw the Geo into reverse thinking that it would be exactly like the other ditch I slid into, but this time it decided to just sit there and spin it's tires like an idiot. I was confused... had no idea what to do next. I picked up my phone again as Anna got out of the car. I don't know why she kept thinking that getting out would help. I put down my phone and looked at her. She was standing at the front of the car ready to push. Seeing this, I tried again at the reverse thing as she pushed and we actually got the car out from it's captor. I got Anna home and made it into her driveway with much success. As I was going home I went 15mph tops. Oh man... I was scared. Haven't shook that much for a while. I guess that if there was a snow/sleet/rain mix you should drive even a little slower than slow. Wow.

Yeah... Those are my stories. I'm supposed to go to some dance b-day party tonight. She is hiring out a dj and everything for her 16th. Wow... things like that make my fun 16th birthday seem pitiful. My b-day was great though. I hardly even know this girl that well, I think it is better to have a few friends over that you know rather than a bunch just to surround you with people. I think I feel a song coming on!

Artist:
John Legend
Album:
John Legend
Title:
Stay With You

We've been together for a while now
We're growing stronger everyday now
It feels so good and there's no doubt
I will stay with you as each morning brings sunrise
And the flowers bloom in springtime
All my love you can rely
And I'll stay with you

Oh I'll stay with you through the earth and the downs
Oh I'll stay with you when no one else is around
And when the dark clouds arise
I will stay by your side
I know we'll be alright
I will stay with you

Though relationships can get old
They had a tendency to grow cold
We have something like miracle
Yeah, I'll stay with you

Oh I'll stay with you through the earth and the downs
Oh I'll stay with you when no one else is around
And when the dark clouds arise
I will stay by your side
I know we'll be alright
I will stay with you

And there will be heartaches and pains, yes it will
But through it all, we will remain
In this life, we all know
Friends may come, they may go
Through the years I know
I will stay
And in the end I know that we'll find
Love so beautiful and divine
We'll be lovers for the lifetime, yeah
And I'll stay with youI will stay with you

Oh I'll stay with you through the earth and the downs
Oh I'll stay with you when no one else is around
And when the dark clouds arise
I will stay by your side
I know we'll be alright
I will stay with you
Everything will be fine
And I will stay with you
Through the end of time
I will stay with you

This is a song Anna put on a cd she burned for me. I think it its a good one to put today since she kept me calm even when I was pretty much crying the first time I went in. I hope she'll go driving with me again. Of course she will... We're bffs!

Lahve!

Yeah... I did pray more than like ever on the way home... God kept me safe. I love him. That song can be for Him and Anna.

S^3+E= Really Bad At Pool...

2006-01-29T11:10:00.000-08:00

^ Yeah... Weird conversation, but funny at least. Sorry guys, I had to have something funny to write in my title because Brad seems to live off of funny blog titles. Anyways... Yesterday was the greatest day that I have had in a very very long time. Even my mom said that this was the first time she has seen me happy in a long time. Earlier this week I was talking to Blake and he was saying something about a casual dance they were having at Lakeside this weekend. He said Becca was going to go and they wanted me to come along too. I didn't really want to go at first because I have been so down I don't really have anything to contribute to any conversation at all. But, things came together and I supposed that I should go because 1) I love Blake and Evan and would drive there every day if I could 2) I NEEDED to get out of Baraboo 3) I wanted to see what a real dance was like outside of slutty Baraboo. Dances here are just a big excuse to rub up against eachother. So, it was simple. I would go to this dance. As the week went along I noticed I really really wanted to go to Lake Mills. I was looking forward to it bunches.
On Friday I we got our report cards. I was so unbelieveably nervous. I probably killed about five people because i was so edgy. I went to homeroom with I love. I wish we could get a grade for that class. Wait, I would fail because Turner hates us. Anyways... I got my report card and saw a bunch of 80% and stuff. I have made a goal for myself to at least make honor role every quarter of every semester throughout high school. This wouldn't be such an outrageous goal if it wasn't for those ridiculous AP and junior classes. SO, I was nervous. I went right to my locker and got out my calculator to average my gardes to check if I, in fact, made honor role. I did. Really exciting. Yeah, I even got an 81% on my APGOV exam... whatdoyaknow! I was actually really excited about that.
I hate sitting around my house with only my parents and brother here. So, I called Anna to see what she was doing. I knew she would be like "Yeah, come on over!" and I would be like "Yay!".... which was pretty much the exact conversation we had. When I went over there Marley and Alyssa were already there making Blue and Gold invitations. They are beautiful by the way. There was a dance at Baraboo on Friday... It was really retarted. Gross people were everywhere. You know, all those druggies who get in fights among their own druggy clan. Morons. Some of them got into it there and were kicked out. Then they stood by the doors where everyone went out. But, no one went out. I refused to. I thought I would get mugged or something like that. Carp called the police and I had Dylan Rastall escort me to my car. Only in Baraboo I tell ya.
I convinced my madre to take me to Madison early on Saturday to look for a Blue and Gold dress. I love dress shopping. There is almost nothing that makes me happier... ok, there are a few... Like if Becca would have come down earlier to go with me... But it was a good time anyways. I found this gorgeous dress that was more expensive than I wanted to spend on a dress, but I really felt like getting something that made me really happy. It is blue and strapless and has this sweet flary bottom half with some crazy pattern on in. I found a picture of it on the internet but I don't know if I want to ruin the surprise of it and show you all.
After all this shopping, my mom and I made our way to the real party at the Samanas' house. After my mom and Aunt Kim left we went downstairs and Becca and I enjoyed our own private concert put on by Evan and Blake. It was pretty amazing I would have to say. I actually got to see Evan play the drums instead of just air drumming all the time. Either way it is amusing. We played pool. And I sucked. Really. I have never been that bad at pool ever. Even Andrew would have been ashamed of me. I beat Bec the first game, but that was only because she hit the 8 in. Evan and I were on a team, hence the title, against Becca and Blake. I think I missed the balls I was aiming at completely about 3 times. Terrible. I call a rematch at my house.
After that game we went to the old ice cream place that I used to go to when I was in Lakeside tournaments, It is no longer an ice cream parlor, but a sub place and pizza and stuff. We all had subs and I ate very slow as usual. Sad, Evan finished 12 inches of sub before I had finished my 6. Ha... It's official, I am THE slowest eater anyone will ever meet. I found that I do not live in the smallest town where everyone knows everyone compared to Lake Mills. I think that everyone knew everyone in that restaurant.
After we ate we went to the school. I always liked that school. I feel like I belong there. I should go there. Haha... The dance in itself was really fun too. All the kids that go theer kept saying that it wasn't that great, but it proved to be not quite as graphic as Baraboo, so I was happy. They actually played GOOD music too. That was one of the best parts. That and it is actually held in their gym as compared to the caffeteria, which I was not joking about. Yeah... It was all around one of the best nights of my life. I love Evan and Blake. We need to hang out more often.
So, this is me now... I prove to be getting better. Up Motion. SONGS!!!!

Yes... I even put in my Relient K cd's last night. I remember how much I like them.

Artist:
Relient K
Album:
Anatomy Of The Tongue In Cheek
Title:
Pressing On

I think we're going somewhere.

We're on to something good here.

Out of mind, out of state.

Trying to keep my head on straight.

I think we're going somewhere.

We're on to something good here.

There's only one thing left to do.

Drop all I have and go with you.

[Chorus:]Somewhere back there I left my worries all behind.

My problems fell out of the back of my mind.

We're going and I'm never knowing (never knowing) where we're going.

To go back to where I was would just be wrong.

I'm pressing on.

Pressing on, all my distress is going, going, gone. (pressing on, pressing on)

And I won't sit back, and take this anymore.
'Cause I'm done with that, I've got one foot out the door.

And to go back where I was would just be wrongI'm pressing on.

I think we're going somewhere.

We're on to something good here.Out of mind, out of state.

Trying to keep my head on straight.

I think we're going somewhere.

We're on to something good here.

Adversity, we get around it.

Searched for joy, in you I found it.

You look down on me, but you don't look down on me at all.

You smile and laugh, and I feel the love you have for me.

I think we're going somewhere.

We're on to something good here, and we're gonna make it after all.

Artist:
Augustana
Album:
All The Stars And Boulevards
Title:
Boston
in the light of the sun, is there anyone? oh it has begun...
oh dear you look so lost, eyes are red and tears are shed,this world you must've crossed...
you said...

you don't know me, you don't even care,
you don't know me, you don't wear my chains...

essential and appealed, carry all your thoughts across
an open field,
when flowers gaze at you...they're not the only ones who cry
when they see you

you said...you don't know me, you don't even care,
you don't know me, you don't wear my chains...

she said I think I'll go to Boston...
I think I'll start a new life,
I think I'll start it over, where no one knows my name,
I'll get out of California, I'm tired of the weather,
I think I'll get a lover and fly em out to Spain...
I think I'll go to Boston, I think that I'm just tired
I think I need a new tow, to leave this all behind...
I think I need a sunrise, I'm tired of the sunset,
I hear it's nice in the Summer, some snow would be nice...
Boston...
where no one knows my name...

Ok, that is enough for now.

Love!

" In my life? I'm pretty much breaking down... But I should start the up motion soon."

2006-01-22T15:18:00.000-08:00

^ This is something I just said to Becca in relation to the current events in my life. She said she had never heard anyone reffer to anything in that sense, so there it is... The Up Motion. This is my goal now. I know that I have been very vague to most people lately. I suppose that is the way it goes when someone really just needs to re-find themselves. I decided I am going to be honest and come clean with everything on my mind. Not so much to have you analyse me or anything, but so that the Up Motion can seriously come into effect. I have become to adjust to that fact that although I can tell a bunch of people what is going on in my life, the real help would be me accepting things and moving on. So, here is the past months of my life summed up. Let's start in the beginning.
There was this guy named Adam and his wife Eve and this snake... aka the Devil himself... and they lived in this great garden until, well I'm sure you know the story. And that isn't quite as far back as I need to go other than to reitterate the fact that I am a sinner like the rest of everyone.
***I have learned to vibrato my whistling... How insane is that...***
We really need to start... hmmm where to start... OK... I just sat here for like 5 minutes and I think I found the place I need to begin. So, last year... wait, I can't so this. I will tell you the jist of what I am feeling and maybe go into a little detail of why, but other than that I have a lot more to work out in my mind before I spill my guts to everyone, although I have spilled so much guts in the past I'm surprised I have enough to live...
So, needless to say, I've been kinda lost and confused. *cough... think of camp song from 2 years ago now... cough* I'm not too sure of what the root of this confusion is, but I think that feeling like I need to explain something that I have no idea what the answer it plays a major role in this feeling. Like, it's the feeling of sitting in class and being completely lost about what the teacher is talking about because you didn't read the chapter the night before, and although you don't have your hand up to answer his question he calls on you anyways; leaving you dumbfounded and feeling stupid for lack of intelligence. Wow, I like that analogy a lot. I broke up with my boyfriend a couple of weeks ago now. Although this shouldn't be such an earth shattering event, he is also a good friend of mine and had like me for a long time. I have told him why I broke up with him, although the answer may not have been what he was looking for, and yet I feel like I owe him some better explanation, although what I told him is the best I can give even to myself. Then there are those people who have no idea what is going on, but come up to me out of no where and demad a reason for why I broke up with him. This I cannot and will not stand for. I don't have to prove my reasons to anyone. And now I feel as though our friendship is riding the fence. I think he feels that there is something wrong with me and he keeps talking about it. This makes me sad because I have changed... That's what people do. I don't think that who I have become is that terrible... Is it?
That is all I will say about that...
Luckily this shouldn't be a problem anymore, and so my solution should be easier to achieve, but school was HARD last semester. I was in Standard Written English (the junior english class), Accelerated Algebra 2 (which actually sounds evil), and ApUSGov (which I will come back to later). I am a good student. I will not lie, although it may sound a little cocky... I need to tell myself that. Math is insane... I am not a big fan of math in general but continuously prove to be better at it than many... unfortunately. I just need to be shown why something happens and math doesn't do that for me. No... I am not begging for proofs... they suck. English is something that I accel at. Obviously, since I passed out of the normal sophomore exam last year.I suppose that was just a lot of stress because I was expected to be a better student than the average student because I was in a class with a bunch of upperclassmen. Now ApUSGov was seriously just an eye opener for me. I know Shinnick will agree with me because I have said stuff like that to him in the past, but really this world is slowly (or not) immoralizing. I say if people talk so poorly about our government they should be shipped somewhere where they would see what happens if you talk against the government and end up dead. Really, you just have to accept things. You cannot put all of the pressure of everything bad going on in your life on the shoulders of a few men in an important building. I started crying in that class one day because we were in a congressional simulation and they wanted to pass bills legalizing gay marraige, banning the teaching of intelligent design in public school systems, and some thing about stem cell research (that we only passed in committee because he said he would make a revision that he would only use umbilical chords and then didn't when it came back out on the floor during the vote... that upset me). Yikes...
Yep, my leg does still upset me all the time. I still do seriously feel terrible when people who are actually active and good at sports hurt themselves, but I also feel like this shouldn't be happening to me anymore. It has ben exactly 10 months since we found that my leg shouldn't really be hurting this much. I have seen people tear muscles and recover in this time. I have seen people sprain ankles and break bones and yet they are better. I know I may be feeling sorry for myself, but it is really frustrating. I have seen enough doctors between then and now that I would be happy to never see one again. I have been told there is nothing wrong or there is nothing we can do about the thing we can't see so much that I go into those doctors knowing they will all tell me the same thing. "Go to physical therapy" or "Let me run some tests and get back to you". They must be running the freaking wrong tests! Dear Shinnick, I admire you because not only do you stand up for what you believe in, but you are stronger in your faith and can know what I am going through and possibly give me better answers than physical therapy or pain killers. Tyler Shinnick is someone I work with at camp. He played basketball and I hear is a great player, but he messed up his leg really bad and had surgery last week. That is why I feel bad for complaining.
Ok, so those are the three major points. Tomorrow is a new semester. No SWE or APGOV. I cleaned my rom today to really signify that I am getting a new start. I hope I haven't offended anyone by anything I said. This is just me being honest in a neutral way. You know I could be a lot more mean and a lot more vague... But where would that get us?
Love!
~Sara

Title:
Anchor of Hope
Written By:
Matthew (I'm pretty sure)

Said the one in the dark to the One in the light,

"Wonder what I was doing out in the night.

See the waves are too high, and the winds are too strong.

Wondering what else could go wrong."

"Child, I know you are tired," said the One in the light,

"But I haven't left you there lost in the night.

And all through your life,

Through the storms and the tides,

I'll be right there by your side."

(Chorus)

Thunder's chrashing,

Lighting's flashing,

Waves are splashing,

My Anhor holds.

Winds are blowing,

the tides are towing,

But I am knowing

My Ancore holds.

You bought my life and you saved my soul.

You're my Anchor of Hope.

Now I'm out of the dark,

Lord you've lifted the veil.

I'm trusting my Savior and I'm ready to sail.

With Jesus, my Hope, I see my future is sure.

I know my Anchor's secure.

Thunder's crashing,

Lightning's flashing,

Waves are crashing,

My Anchor holds.

Winds are blowing,

The tides are towing,

But I am knowing

My Anchor holds.

You bought my life and you saved my soul.

You're my anchor of hope.

Ooooooo.....

I just typed out the wrong song... Yeah.. I typed that whole thing out... Bummer.

Title:
Hearts on Fire
Written by:
Matthew (I believe)

I was lost and confused.

I could not understand.

I needed someone's guidance.

I needed someone's hand.

I was headed for disaster and my hope was growing weaker.

I was hiding in the darkness, yet looking for a seeker.

I was in too deep.

And that's when you found me.

I saw love amazing.

You set my heart a blazing.

Jesus, burn inside...

My heart's on fire and nothing can hide it.

The love of my Savior is burning inside it.

Jesus, I love you, and you're my desire.

You set my heart on fire.

You looked down at the crowd,

While hanging on the cross.

You came to save your loved ones.

And this is what it cost.

The thorns were on your brow and the nails were driven deeper.

I was watching from the crowd and laughing at you, Savior,

But you saw me there,

And that's when you saved me.

I saw love amazing.

You set my heart a blazing.

Jesus, burn inside...

My heart's on fire and nothing can hide it.

The love of my Savior is burning inside it.

Jesus, I love you, and you're my desire.

You set my heart on fire...

You showed love amazing.

You set my heart a blazing.

Jesus, burn inside...

My heart.

I'm pretty sure that is how they go. Correct me if I'm wrong.

Since songs seem to help... (?)

2006-01-19T20:36:00.000-08:00

Artist:
Vanessa Carlton
Album:
Unknown
Title:
White Houses

Crashed on the floor when I moved in
This bungalow alone with some strange new friends
Stay up too late, and I'm too thin
We promise each other it's til the end
Now we're spinning empty bottles
It's the five of us
With pretty eyed boys girls die to trust
I can't resist the day
No, I can't resist the day

Jenny screams out and it's no pose
'Cause when she dances she goes and goes
Beer through the nose on an inside joke
I'm so excited, I haven't spoken
And she's so pretty, and she's so sure
Maybe I'm more clever than a girl like her
The summer's all in bloom
The summer is ending soon

It's alright and it's nice not to be so alone
But I hold on to your secrets in white houses

Maybe I'm a little bit over my head
I come undone at the things he said
And he's so funny in his bright red shirt
We were all in love and we all got hurt
I sneak into his car's black leather seat
The smell of gasoline in the summer heat
Boy, we're going way too fast
It's all too sweet to last

It's alright
And I put myself in his hands
But I hold on to your secrets in white houses
Love, or something ignites in my veins
And I pray it never fades in white houses

My first time, hard to explain
Rush of blood, oh, and a little bit of pain
On a cloudy day, it's more common than you think
He's my first mistake

Maybe you were all faster than me
We gave each other up so easily
These silly little wounds will never mend
I feel so far from where I've been
So I go, and I will not be back here again
I'm gone as the day is fading on white houses
I lie, put my injuries all in the dust
In my heart is the five of us In white houses

And you, maybe you'll remember me
What I gave is yours to keep
In white houses [x3]

Artist:
Death Cab For Cutie
Album:
Plans
Title:
Someday You Will Be Loved

I once knew a girl
In the years of my youth
With eyes like the summer
All beauty and truth
In the morning I fled
Left a note and it read
Someday you will be loved.

I cannot pretend that I felt any regret
Cause each broken heart will eventually mend
As the blood runs red down the needle and thread
Someday you will be loved

You'll be loved you'll be loved
Like you never have known
The memories of me
Will seem more like bad dreams
Just a series of blurs
Like I never occurred
Someday you will be loved

You may feel alone when you're falling asleep
And everytime tears float down your cheeks
But I know your heart belongs to someone you've yet to meet

Someday you will be loved
You'll be loved you'll be loved
Like you never have known
The memories of me
Will seem more like bad dreams
Just a series of blurs
Like I never occurred

Someday you will be loved
You'll be loved you'll be loved
Like you never have known
The memories of me
Will seem more like bad dreams
Just a series of blurs
Like I never occurred
Someday you will be loved
Someday you will be loved

...Whatever...

The Catcher in the Rye

2006-01-16T19:34:00.000-08:00

^ I love my brother, I just have to point that out right now. I was talking to him about how we tell eachother everything and disagree with stuff our parents say together and we are pretty much some of the closest friends I have ever seen. I was telling him about how I feel so unbelieveably lost in the world and how, although things I say are funny, I seriously get really frustrated when people don't understand what I'm talking about. I was also going on to say how i try to help so many people but just can't seem to help myself in any way. That night he had just gotten in trouble for letting my parents watch Office Space and they thought it was terrible and obscene. After telling him all this I asked him what to do of course, for this is yet another one of my weak points. Not being able to live my own life without asking others opinions. He told me plain and simple... Watch Fight Club. But, since my parents were home and that movie is horribly vulgar, he recommended reading The Catcher in the Rye. He told me he was going to buy a new copy and I could read that one. I love how instead of getting upset he does something to make it better, or appear to be. He never gets mad unless someone hurts him or me. Very protective. After this conversation, Becky (his potential girlfriend, we suspect) and him and I watched 10 Things I Hate About You, the closest to Fight Club we can get, I suppose.
Today I got home and walked into my bathroom only to see a new copy of The Catcher in the Rye wrapped in a little ribbon sitting on my sink. I first thought... "This book has been red-tagged" -Seinfeld.... Then I thought wow... He is great.
So, some would find it weird that I love my brother and get along with him so well, but now you know. Not just because he got me this book, but because he knows what it is like and instead of trying to analyse or question me, he listens and gives me things to relate to. At least he is not like my mom who went out and bought me "The Boy Called 'It'" about this boy who is abused really bad. Then she goes on to say "Your life isn't that bad... See?"
Sure, it isn't that bad. I know that. That is why I always say that I feel so awful and so self-centered and because it's like the world won't go on if I don't get myself out of this feeling. But it will... I just wish someone would understand.
My life is great, don't get me wrong. I feel like I am going nowhere, but should be doing so much more. Then I get myself down... It is a terrible cycle to get caught up in... Take it from me.
I'm not going to ask you to try to fix me, but I seriously want to ask for you to pray for me. I don't know how to be myself again, and things worry me too much. My leg hurts like heck, and the only person who can really help is God.
~Sara

"I was really excited about the way he turned right.."

2006-01-08T15:04:00.000-08:00

^We were sitting there watching this horse competition today and the guy who won said this and I couldn't help but burst out laughing. What is he talking about!
SO, half of my last post was written today, I just wanted to let you know... actually like all of the last post except for the first paragraph was written today. I just wanted to clarify.
So, the sun sets...

And the clouds roll into my mind again...

You Made Friendship Bracelets For Yourself?

2006-01-02T18:53:00.000-08:00

^Yesterday we took Becca to my grandparents house so her dad and Beefycould pick her up. We, out of boredom, started to look at Beefs newly made bracelets. I turned and was focusing on my uncles conversation when all the sudden I hear, "You made friendship bracelets for yourself!" and Becca is sitting there laughing... Then I laughed and my mom yelled at us for being mean... Because Beefy has no friends.
Yesterday (the real one) my mom was talking to my Nana and she was saying how she should be able to get them home in time for Beef's graduation/confirmation party. Andrew and I look at eachother and just start laughing. He burst out, "Cause no one will come!" We are really mean, I agree...

I hate it when my life seems to be going in circles. When all I do seems to be hurting myself or someone else. I hate feeling this way because it makes me feel selfish. I hate rambling to people because I know what it is like to have to try and solve other people's problems. But I can't stop. I am numb, but have finally stopped shaking. And now I remember that my mom saw the website of this page and may read it at anytime. I doubt it though.

I really just needed to blog, but i have nothing to say now. By the way, I started this post a while ago. That's why it says yesterday twice, they are really like a week apart.

Artist:
Led Zeppelin
Album:
Bbc Sessions
Title:
Stairway To Heaven

There's a lady who's sure
All that glitters is gold
And she's buying a stairway to heaven.
When she gets there she knows
If the stores are all closed
With a word she can get what she came for.
Ooh, ooh, and she's buying a stairway to heaven.
There's a sign on the wall
But she wants to be sure
'cause you know sometimes words have two meanings.
In a tree by the brook
There's a songbird who sings,
Sometimes all of our thoughts are misgiven.
Ooh, it makes me wonder,
Ooh, it makes me wonder.
There's a feeling i get
When i look to the west,
And my spirit is crying for leaving.
In my thoughts i have seen
Rings of smoke through the trees,
And the voices of those who standing looking.
Ooh, it makes me wonder,
Ooh, it really makes me wonder.
And it's whispered that soon, if we all call the tune
Then the piper will lead us to reason.
And a new day will dawn or those who stand long
And the forests will echo with laughter.
If there's a bustle in your hedgerow, don't be alarmed now,
It's just a spring clean for the may queen.
Yes, there are two paths you can go by
But in the long run
There's still time to change the road you're on.
And it makes me wonder.
Your head is humming and it won't go
In case you don't know,
The piper's calling you to join him,
Dear lady, can you hear the wind blow,
And did you know
Your stairway lies on the whispering wind.
And as we wind on down the road
Our shadows taller than our soul.
There walks a lady we all know
Who shines white light and wants to show
How ev'rything still turns to gold.
And if you listen very hard
The tune will come to you at last.
When all are one and one is all
To be a rock and not to roll.
And she's buying a stairway to heaven.

Artist:
Green Day
Album:
Nimrod
Title:
Good Riddance (Time Of Your Life)

Another turning point, a fork stuck in the road
Time grabs you by the wrist, directs you where to go
So make the best of this test, and don't ask why
It's not a question, but a lesson learned in time
It's something unpredictable, but in the end is right
I hope you had the time of your life
So take the photographs, and still frames in your mind
Hang it on a shelf in good health and good time
Tattoos of memories and dead skin on trial
For what it´s worth, it was worth all the while
It´s something unpredictable, but in the end is right
I hope you had the time of your life.
It´s something unpredictable, but in the end is right
I hope you had the time of your life.
It´s something unpredictable, but in the end is right
I hope you had the time of your life

~Lahve~

Sound Effects, NOT Adjectives

2005-12-27T13:08:00.000-08:00

^ Seriously... I talk crazy and fast. Sometimes my brain can't keep up and I just use random hand gestures or sound effects. I wish you could type out sound effects...
I have been going on MySpace a lot. I vow to never become a n00b. So, while on MySpace... garrr why am I talking about it? Anyways, I typed out this whole "About me" thing... I should paste it here...

About me:
{I have a nubby arm, so I hate toast}
{ I WILL be a pirate's friend!}
{ I live in the biggest Hick Town ever... I mean "Drive your tractor to school day"? Come on...}{ I laugh to myself about nothing an average of 275 times/day, every day.}
{I used to chew all my food on the right side of my mouth, regardless of how uncomfortable it became... Because it was the right side}
{ I refuse to become a MySpace n00b}
{ I love music, sometimes I am convinced it is my only talent, but I'm alright with that.}
{ I am at war over a piccolo spot in my symphonic band}
{ I talk a lot, and am relatively good at english because of it}
{ My friends are my favorite things on the earth}
{ Sometimes... I seriously want to just go to heaven}
{ I have found I can use the excuse of "Being a redhead" to my advantage almost all the time}{My family is insane, but I love it}
{ Some say I am insane... But, I'm OK with that}
{ Think of me however you want... It takes much more than what you think to get me upset}
{ I LOVE movies... enough said}
{ I sit in my basement with my brother and we laugh at Seinfeld by ourselves}
{ My brother hangs out with my friends and I, and sometimes we simultaneously get up and leave wherever we are and go home and watch Elf}
{ I like telling the world of how random I am}
{ I refuse to conform and paint my nails all one color... There is a minimum of 10 colors all the time}
{ I ATE LIVER FOR THE FIRST TIME LAST NIGHT AND I DIDN'T EVEN REALIZE IT... Disgusting}
{ I am one of the most confusing people I know... I have rufused to help people cause I can't even figure out my life, much less theirs... But I will try}
{ I just saw a bird try and land on a piece of tall grass and end up being flung into the ground}{ Is tuna bad for you?}
{ I think I should make an autobiography of my life. Although it isn't all that interesting... I live like it is, and everything turns out to be better and more funny than in reality. Try reading my blog. www.dosomethingrightforonce.blogspot.com}
{ I'll swing from a streetlight and will sing ohh...}
{Chuck Noris is going to roundhouse kick you in the face}
{ I love it when people leave comments for me... So feel free!}
{ I don't really have a nubby arm}

Yes, those are the random things that go through my head at unbelieveably fast rates at every waking minute of the day. And you wonder why I laugh randomly sometimes.

Sound effect right now...
blllluuuppppbupbupbup .That bunch of "l"s are a tongue roll... So, some of you may not be able to accomplish your sound effect potential. It takes skills to tongue roll. But then again, I am not a guy, so they are one up on me. I am convinced that guys are better at sound effects than girls because while we were out playing house and real world stuff, they were busy blowing spaceships out of the air and crazy things like that.

Ok, now that all that crazy talk is out of the way. I had a dentist appointment at 8:00 this morning and didn't wake up until like 15 minutes before I had to be there. Bummer... Then I had that MRI for my wrist. I am up to 3 of those in one year! Jealous? I know you are... I wish my leg got better. Now, it has moved into my knee. "It" being what I will start calling the pain. But yeah, my knee cap is in the wrong spot...? I guess that, in tearing a muscle in my quad a ended up tearing my miniscus on the inside of my knee too. Uhh... I just really want it to stop. Now they are sending me back to physical therapy, which for further reference with be called "PT". This is the same PT that proved to be ineffective the last 12 times I went. Bummer...

My uncles ripped on me quite a bit about me having a boyfriend. But, I suppose that is the price I'm willing to take. Hehe. I tried to turn it on Becca who has broken up and gotten back together with this guy like 5 times, but they were relentless. Whatevs...

I got that fact sheet done for my debate, but since it turned out to be me (yes only me... the other girl on my team didn't say anything other than some random crap about a poem) against the two best debators for the Democratic side of things, I was doomed to fail from the begining. When I got the review back, though, it said that one of the main reasons I ended up losing was because my voice was deffensive? However that works... I'm alright with it though. My bill passed in congress allowing the teaching of intelligent design in public schools. Ok, this may have to do with the fact the my boyfriend and the other "independent" decided to vote Republican instead. But, I think I made a point.

This is THE most POINTLESS blog I have written in a while. But, good news! Becca might come over tomorrow!
~Scara

I Miss ANNA!

"Reach out and find your own cancerous lump! I found mine... Have you found yours?"

2005-12-20T14:40:00.000-08:00

^Well, bad news is that I have a lump that is unexplainable as of now on my wrist. No, there is no bump like it on the other wrist, and it doesn't actually hurt. It's like an inch long and really hard... I can move it... The funny story of this is that I was showing it to my friend and she was like, "Oooo... I have one of those in my finger (which I have also had before, but they go away in time)." Then she goes on to say the quote... It was so funny. She sounded like some Maurey or some show like that. Reach out and touch that cancerous lump inside of you. Ha. So, now when I go in for my orthopedic appointment for my leg on Thursday, I will also have this checked out. Just another thing to linger in the back of my mind. I just don't want to have to be tested for cancer twice in a month...

Yesterday a kid in my SWE class (which is all juniors) had a rubber band wrapped around his thumb for so long that it turned blue. Mrs. B. was like, "That's how that circumsize animals..." I sat there for a second and was like ...," Wait... why would you circumsize an animal!?" She was like,"Cause they are Jewish... I don't know!" So I alughed cause she meant castrate... This is actually a kind of gross story... But, it is funny and it is how my life goes.
I didn't have to kill anyone today as I planned I may have to. I said that if I didn't do well on my Bio test I would have to hurt someone. But, of course, on the hardest test of the year, I got a 96%.

Sometimes I feel like I walk around with the expression of the people in the hallway that seem like they have no idea what is going on. Seriously, today I was walking in this part of the hall that has three halls combining with a stairway and people go in there and don't see other people coming and almost run into eachother, but don't. They come close... Stand there for a few seconds... Look around in utter confusion... And walk around eachother. It is really really hilarious...But, sometimes I really just feel like that...

Do you care if I don't know what to say?... Don't you hate it when you want to say something but just can't... I do. I can't stand it. You feel like you are letting someone down. Don't you hate it when people say things that you need to reply to but just don't know why you don't say it but you don't. Even if it is what you want to say, you still can't get your point across. You don't want to give the wrong impression or something like that. I can't stand it. Even if you agree with them fully and completely you just can't do it! Why?!?

I have my debate for APUSGOV on Thursday. CRAP! I still have to do my fact sheet! AHHH! Well, I will give you the nitty gritty on the debat soon, but I have to get on that fact sheet. Wish me so much luck for standing up for myself. I will need it.

The stress is beginning to build up on me now. I just have to stay calm... I don't even know! BLAHHH!!!! I hope you understand why I am going crazy... I hope you will still be my friend... I'll be ok in the end. Give me Christmas!

"You know you are bad at Donkey Kong when your girlfriend can beat you..."

2005-12-17T11:41:00.000-08:00

^Haha... This is Nico talking about me. So, I decided that altough I am not playing any sports this winter, I still have an unbeliebeably busy schedule. Homework is insane! All the time. I guess that is what I get for taking a junior year in one semester. I, of course, still know how to have a great time with things. Last Saturday Anna came over and we made a pizza and watched 3 episodes of Seinfeld. This was supposed to be her birthday party... But it was just her and I. That day it had snowed a bunch, but it wasn't packing snow so we couldn't build a snowman. We thought of a new idea. Go sledding. As most of you know, my town is pretty much made up of hills, so it isn't hard to just go outside, set down the sled, and go. But that night we took sledding to a new height. The biggest hill in Baraboo is right next to our house. Oak Street. We were walking out of my house and my parents were just like, "Don't go down Oak!" Whatever... We went right up that hill and raced down both sides of the sidewalk. It was awesome. Now, since it was like 9:30 at night, we decided that it was not that fun sledding and then running into the road and stopping on impact, although one of the side streets were very nice to just run down. So, we walk back to my house and get in my car and go over to the middle school hill. All the sudden a bunch of our friends show up and we were sledding until like 11:00. What a life. This would only happen in this city.

We had a snow day on Wednesday. We all went over to the Middle School hill and sledded all day. This would only happen here.

Yesterday The Profits came to our school and did a concert for us. They have a song on their CD called 6. Look it up if you want to... But the school wanted to confiscate alll of them because it contains a 3 letter word that starts with the word "s" in it a bunch of times. It was hilarious. At the concert we stood right up by the stage and in front of the drummer. This guy is crazy. Liz and I held up our hands in the shape of a heart when he looked at us once just for the fun of it and he laughed. He laughed randomly like all the time! It kinda reminded me of myself. Nico bought me to Profits cd... It is amazing. You should buy it.

I found out that Nico, Tom, Chris, and I should become a beatboxing group. Altough I am a girl, I can keep the beat going pretty well and sing as low as a guy.

I had another breakdown on Wednesday night. I don't even really know why this time. But I cried for like an hour and now my mom kinda knows that I am somewhat depressed. Then the next day I went to my APGOV class and cried there too. We are doing this congressional simulation where we have to create a bill and be on two different committes and pass the bills in committee and then take them to the session. Well, I was put on the ethics committee, which was a highly Democratic majority, mainly consisting of my good friends Liz, and Meg. At one point they were talking about Gay Marriage and how they should have equal rights as the rest of us. Now, knowing me and how much I talk and the rest of the Republicans who don't, I was put up there and ended up being the only one trying to defend what I thought was right. Seeing one of the guys who used to be in my class at St. John's and all of my friends shooting me down was rough. Then at one point, from trying to keep myself from cyring, I laughed... Because what went through my head was funny. Then my friends yelled directly at me. Do you know what it feels like to be the only one trying to stand up for what she believes in and being completely bombarded by everyone including your friends? It hurts. So, I cried. It becomes my resolution sometimes. Laughing doesn't work all the time, as you can see from the last couple sentences.

Well, now I must be off. I don't have much to do. Decorate our tree maybe. Nico was grounded because he stayed at my house too long on Wednesday and didn't tell his mom. Hmm... Whatever. We have pep band tonight! w00t!

Passage of the day... Ehpesians 5:2
...and live a life of love, just as Christ loved us and gave himself up for us as a fragrant offering and sacrifice to God.
Love... What a thing...

Song...

Artist:
Postal Service, The
Album:
Give Up
Title:
Brand New Colony

i'll be the grapes fermented, bottled and
served with the table set in my finest suit
like a perfect gentleman
i'll be the fire escape that's bolted to the
ancient brick where you will sit and
contemplate your day

i'll be the waterwings that save you if you
start drowning in an open tab when your
judgement's on the brink
i'll be the phonograph that plays your favorite
albums back as your lying there drifting off
to sleep...
i'll be the platform shoes and undo what
heredity's done to you: you won't have to
strain to look into my eyes
i'll be your winter coat buttoned and zipped
straight to the throat with the collar up so
you won't catch cold

i want to take you far away from the cynics in this
town and kiss you on the mouth
we'll cut our bodies free from the tethers of
this scene, start a brand new colony
where everything will change, we'll give
ourselves new names (identities erased)
the sun will heat the ground under our bare
feet in this brand new colony
everything will change, ooo ooo...

"I'm a Monkey! Meow Meow Meow!"

2005-12-09T16:14:00.000-08:00

^Join our Donkey Kong Guild! hehe. Nico, Andrew, and I have taken a strong liking to the old Nintendo game. Nico came over one night and we played it for a long time. It was a great time! Today I was walking in the halls with some of my friends and they were talking about WOW (a retarted game that everyone in Baraboo is obsessing about). I felt very left out and all the sudden I turn to them and say in my best emo voice, "Last night... I advanced Ditty Kong's abilities up three levels!" They just give me this absolutely blank stare and the one starts pushing the other away from me staring the whole time... It was hilarious!
But seriously... You should join.

We put on the first Madrigal on Monday. It went well, but was quite boring and uneventful and went pretty much as planned. We can't have that! This all changed yesterday which was or second and final performance. So, I was super tired last night for the dinner which was not good cause I'm pretty much head runner arounder. I decided I'm good at being all "Mehhhh..." (tired) and yet acting "YAY!"(not tired) at the same time. My family came to this show and I was more nervous to do my lines because my brother kept threatening to mess me up the entire time by making some funny noises. It is a good thing I have an in with the jesters... I had them take him up in front of the whole crowd to humiliate him/ make him do the crab walk all the way back to his seat. While I was saying my lines I strategicaly placed Anna and Grace right behind him so that if he acted out they would smack him then and there. Speaking of saying my lines... My whole part was being this Maid in the midevil edition of the Bachelor/ the Dating Game... the bachelor (Ned) would ask all three of us a question and we all had some smart of flirty reply...and I was essentialy the one he would choose. The first night the whole skit went pretty well.

There is a moment, ere the morn, as tender as a prayer,

When gentle birds announce the dawn's first glow.

When the promise of a new day hangs upon the misty air,

And the Lord above smiles down on all below.

That is what I had to say. I was doing great and everything, but at the end I just lost it... I was all into the english voice thing and ended up just laughing through the last half of the last line. Then the whole court started laughing at me... Then we had everyone going. It was funny. Last night one of our three maids didn't even show up. Ahhh... We had someone from court stand in. But instead of me completely laughing through my lines last night something even funnier happened. After Ned got down on one knee and everything... while his girlfriend was sitting in the seat closest to me... All the sudden we hear a person clinking their glass at the table next to me... Then more... and more!!! What did they want us to kiss? AHH... His girlfriend.... I could pretty much picture the death stare I gave the person who started it and then my reaction to what I would have to think of to get myself out of it, since they didn't seem to want to stop clinking those darn glasses. I was going to think of something to say, but they didn't STOP! So... I stuck my hand out in the air all proper and everything and had him kiss that. Everyone laughed and cheered. Good cover up I hear... The rest of the night i spent running up and down the main hall with the signs saying "CHEER!" and "LAUGH!" even if it was right after a slow song. I enjoyed it.

I have been tending to get hurt lately... Yes, Becca... We are alike. Yesterday when I was doing my hair for Madrigal I completely bruned my forehead with my curling iron. It hurt. I went to the Kalahari with Liz on Saturday, when it was all snowy and we were walking back to my car and Liz starts running. I turn behing this car and just wipe out. I just fall... It was insane. Then! Yesterday we had band tour which is where we go around to the local elementary schools and play christmas songs. I forgot my stand in one of the schools and ran back to get it, but it wasn't there. I ran back to the bus because I thought the would leave without me. SO here I am running with my heel-type shoes and a skirt on past two busses and I turn the corner to go in to door and glance at the ground fast enough to see the painted bike lane. Too late though, to stop myself from completely pulling the Charlie Brown thing and having my feet slip out from underneath me and me completely sliding into the bus. The driver just sat there in amazement asking if I was ok. It was hilarious, but I did land on my bad leg. I can imagine the people on the bus watching my head go past the bus and all the sudden just not seeing it anymore. Oh wow.

So, as said, last weekend Liz called and wanted to know if I would go to tha Kalahari with her. It was so fun! Then Nico and Andrew Shanks and AJ showed up and we had a party in the elevator on the way down to take me to my car because I had to go home the night. It was sad.

This is pretty much one of my favorite songs of all times and can be found on the burned CD, "The Best EMO Ever Written; Volume 1"

There Is ~ Box Car Racer

this vacation's useless

these white pills aren't kind

i've given a lot of thought on this 13-hour drive

i missed the grinding concrete where we sat past 8 or 9

and slowly finished laughing in the glow of our headlights

i've given a lot of thought to the nights we use to have

the days have come and gone

our lives when but so fast

i faintly remember breathing on your bedroom floor

where i laid and told you but you sweared you loved me more

do you care if i don't know what to say

will you sleep tonight or will you think of me

will i shake this off pretend its all okay

that there someone out there who feels just like me

there is

those notes you wrote me

i've kept them all

i'll give a lot of thought of how to write you back this fall

with every single letter in every single word there

will be a hidden message about a boy that's

loves a girl

do you care if i don't know what to say

will you sleep tonight or will you think of me

will i shake this off

pretend its all okay
that there's someone out there who feels just like me

there is

do you care if i don't know what to say?

will you sleep tonight or will you think of me

will i shake this off

pretend its all okay
that there's someone out there who feels just like me

do you care if i don't know what to say?

will you sleep tonight or will you think of me

will i shake this off

pretend its all okay that there's someone out there who feels just like me

there is

Yay! I hear Tom now reads my blog. Hello Tom! That is Tom (right) and Nico (left).This picture is great!

Let's Start Over

2005-12-09T15:57:00.000-08:00

^ Good line in a great Boxcar song. It is actually one of those screaming 'I hate the world' songs... But sometimes... Those are good. Except for when your mom comes walking into your bathroom when you are getting ready for school and you happen to be blasting that song. Then she start the questioning, "What are you listening to? Since when do you listen to screaming songs? Are you eating lunch (yeah explain that one... random? I like to think so)? You look like you are getting skinnier..." Whatever.
I'm getting better, once again, after that fit of worthlessness. I was just reading Becca's blog and it seems like she is getting better too.
Here's the angry song. Now I am going to post a happy "Sara-like" Blog.

I Feel So ~Box Car Racer
Sometimes
I wish I was brave
I wish I was stronger
I wish I could feel no pain
I wish I was youngI wish
I would try
I wish I was honest
I wish I was you not I
'CauseI feel so mad
I feel so angryI feel so callous
So lost, confused again
I feel so cheap
So used, unfaithful
Let's start over
Let's start over
Sometimes
I wish I was smart
I wish I made cures for
How people are
I wish I had power
I wish I could leave
I wish I could change the world
For you and me
'CauseI feel so mad
I feel so angry
I feel so callous
So lost, confused again
I feel so cheap
So used, unfaithful
Let's start over
Let's start over
'CauseI feel so mad
I feel so angry
I feel so callous
So lost, confused again
I feel so cheap
So used, unfaithful
Let's start over
Let's start over
I feel so mad
I feel so angry
I feel so callous
So lost, confused again
I feel so cheap
So used, unfaithful
Let's start over
Let's start over

"I can't take my pills... Cause my stomach isn't full... And there isn't any milk..."

2005-12-01T19:46:00.000-08:00

What to say... I don't even know. I don't know how to express things. My way of expression is laughing... at everything, but you all ready know that. I don't understand anything. What do I do when things go above and beyond the point of laughter? I feel so alone in the world, and most of you will tell me I'm wrong... But I seriously can't stand it anymore. I'm sick of people not taking me seriously. I'm sick of people making judgements just because of the way I act. I'm sick of people making fun of me, even if I do not care, I just want people to understand... My thoughts just don't come out that way they should in words as they do in my head. No one fully understands what it is like to have people have such high expectations for you, or the ones you have in yourself and not be able to accomplish them, but still having to put on a big smile and act crazy. I don't even understand why I have to do this. I know that my happiness just makes some people more mad. I just want people to see my side of things. I want them to know what I do about things that that can't even comprehend, but still make accusations on. And now, I ask you these questions knowing you will not be able to answer them anyways, but still asking because that is what I do. I feel the need to have others input on my decisions in life. It makes me feel incapable of doing this on my own when I need to. It's crazy isn't it... How you feel the need to take care of your own life and yet need the guidance of others. Do I really need them? Of course... Cause that's why I feel lonely. Now this is all just becoming craziness... What a theme.

Becca! We could be a boy band!

2005-11-26T21:26:00.000-08:00

^ So, I was just over at Becca's house and even though everyone wasn't there it was probably the most fun I have had in a while. We did a lot of just crazy random things. It was kind of slow for a while, but it always tends to be. Then we ate and played some ping pong which is always enjoyable. We sat downstairs for a lonr time... And then the fun started. We just all the sudden just started making this movie... about random things.
Like our first shot was entitled "Lifestyles of the Rich and the Famous" and it envolvoed me standing there in camoflague holding a sign saying the title and Becca, the caffeine crazed rich girl, walking her pet rootbeer can which happened to be full... And then me putting down my signs and running up and tackling her into the snow with all my cousins standing in the way. It was funny.
The second shot we all went to Bec's room and played dress up like hippies and we wore skirts over our jeans with different plaids... Then we made signs saying "Turkey is for Jerkies" and "Yo Foo! Eat Tofu!" and then we sat in the middle of the kitchen and had Bethy, Becca's sister, walk into the room eating a piece of turkey and then we go and shove her out of the scene.
The next shot was Bethy and I dressing up, once again, in a bunch of mixed up dresses over pants and singing and acting out "Sadie Hawkins Dance". We just ran around and Becca got really close to our faces with the camera and it was actually pretty insane to tell you the truth...
The final shot was our interpretive dance... Where Bethy read out of this book about Beavers that don't have any friends. Now that I think of it that is very ironic that Bethy got nominated to read that book cosidering she doesn't have any friends. Haha... That is so funny! Becca sat on the bed and played insane made up guitar chords and our other little cousins, the ones we got lost in the woods, played like rain sticks and mini bongos. It was actually really really hilarious when you think of it because we cut if off before the beaver found any friends.
This definitely would have been the day that you should have come to out family get togethers cause no one could make fun of me today... Chris, Ryan, and Uncle Derek weren't even there. Scott tried to, but with no success...
Then the little ones left and we were finally able to just sit and not have to worry about them being annoying and trying to get into Bec's or Beef's rooms. Then I put in this outrageously great emo cd that I burned last night and we just sat and hung out. Then Becca and I started singing to "I'd Do Anything" the two different parts. After we got done singing I was not even thinking and I just say, "Becca! We could be a boy band."
I decided that the most interesting thing that could ever happen to our school would be for all the people who like country to wage war against everyone who doesn't. I mean, imagine... All the hicks in Hickville against everyone who has been anti-country since the day they started listening to music.
Well, there is my instght on life for today. Now I can't stop laughing and it is funny. I'm going to go now... ~Sara

Back to 1,800mg of Ibuprofen a Day

2005-11-25T15:01:00.000-08:00

^ I went to the doctor. That metobolic one. He didn't really say much other than the stuff I've already been told twenty times and that he hopes that I don't have the stuff that he treats. I, actually saw him saying that he had no idea what was wrong with me so I wasn't in such a bad mood after this one. To give you an example, without the long name he rattled off, one of the things they are testing my blood for is this disease where your blood is cut off from your bone and the bone literally dies. That is the main concern. Happy is it not? Ok, it's not that happy... I lied. But, it was sort of funny cause most of the 6 tests they are doing are from my blood and so I go down to get it taken and it is the same place I was at the first time I got my blood taken and fainted. I walk in there and I get it done and I'm smiling the whole time and everything, but this is the day when I was really sick too... So they had to take 5 viles of blood and after she was done I got like pure white and she had to run and get me some orange juiece so that I didn't pass out right there. It was semi funny. She kept saying she didn't know if I was ok cause I just kept smiling/laughing at my lightheadedness...
Let's see what else is going on in my life that would be worth telling you about... Yesterday was Thanksgiving and I spent the day watching Madagascar with my little cousins and having tickle fights and getting fat. Madagascar actually is really funny. I love random
Funny story, and this is all true...
So, my brother has a friend who has been quite close to the family since we were little. For high school he is going to Luther Prep in Watertown. This is the local high school for our church that teachers and pastors go to, and Justin wants to be a pastor. I guess in their free time him and his friend go to weddings. In otherwords they wedding crash. This one they went to they were like dancing and eating and then Justin goes and was standing on the dance floor while they were throwing the garter. I love random. Imagine he caught it! Haha... Then the groom comes over and asks who he knows from the wedding and Justin, who has a very quick mouth replys that his mom is good friends with the bride. The groom goes over and asks her and while Justin is standing there a guy behind him says, "You better run boy!" Him and his friend start sprinting out of the reception hall, but out the wrong door with the whole wedding party chasing them. They all start running through the parking lot and Justin loses his friend but makes it to the car and is trying to shut it and start the car at the same time. The wedding guys come and open whip open his car door, rip him out of the car, and throw him on the ground about ready to punch him in the face. Then the cops come, but think it is too funny for them to press any charges so now he is grounded everyweekend he is home and has no off campus priviledges.
Nico came over on Wednesday and we watched like 45 minutes of Elf and yet watched the whole thing. It was interesting that we got through it all.
Tomorrow I get to go to Becca's house! Yay I'm so excited. I love randomness...
Now, I must be off... Till the next time...
~Scara

Crazy Model Hair...

2005-11-20T21:22:00.000-08:00

My messy modeling hair- just for you Nico. I was sitting there getting it done and I hear a breakout of laughing in the bathroom down the hall (Liz) laughing at something predictable (Alyssa's hair) but I couldn't tell the lady that's why they were laughing. And I ask her if my hair is crazy. She says, "No, it's georgeous!" And this is it! I am actually in complete love with it... Until I have to wash it... A-Thiede... Who in that picture reminds me of the Statue of Liberty... and No, that is not a bad thing.

Anna looks so adorable! Like a model... She liked this other dress, but really this one fits her perfectly.

This picture reminds me so much of like a Broadway Musical... So I love it!

Thank God for Thanksgiving... I get to see Becca and the rest of the clan in less than a week! I hope all goes well with you. Thank God for you! If you need a place to go, our door/ Aunt Kim's door is always open... But don't take this lightly... Our fmaily is not for the faint at heart. Lov you! ~Sara

Scantily Clad

2005-11-20T21:14:00.000-08:00

^ Better word than slutty. Add that one to your vocabulary and know that Liz and I love to use it. Here is a picture of someone being scantily clad. I LOVE you Marley! Let's go out!Ok... So, it's not bad at all...I'm just jesting... But I did enjoy having fun with that word usage. So, in the news today My friends and I were in a modeling show today showing off somw prom dresses and an outfit of our own. I don't really recall how I got into this whole thing, but I know it was very last minute. This lady just got a hold of my mom and asked if I could help her out and get some friends and be beautiful for a promotional/fundraising fashion show of all the latest fashions around Baraboo, cause Baraboo is so fashion conscious ;-) Well, when asked to get some friends together I don't take this lightly and go and invite 6 friends. We all go to the fitting at the dress shop dowtown and it was a blast. Ahh! I can't wait till my prom. So then today we go to the actual fashion show which was held in the awkward, yet beautiful, casino. Actually it was in the convention center ballroom so don't think we are all going Ho-Chunk on you. We had our hair and makeup done and were in these amazingly beautiful dresses. Here, I will stop telling you now and just show you the pics. Enjoy! Claire
Jackie
Liz's Butt...?
Ahha! Liz's Face!
My big poofy dress which I love...

Loud Noises! ~Brick

2005-11-18T19:50:00.000-08:00

So, since there's nothing really going on in my life other than utter randomness... Ode to Random! Title... from Anchorman. Now a poem by me written last weekend when I was up north with only my parents and my friend who is now DONE with cancer treatments! Congratulations Gina. I'm dedicating this poem to Gina, although it has nothing to do with anything. It gives you a good description of why I would live in my fort in the woods any day.

I don't have a title yet~ Sara Stigen

The stilllness of the woods calmes my troubled soul.
The rustling leaves give way to the wind encroaching them.
But I am shielded from the silent enforcer by thousand foot pines,
Adopting me into their residence like they would welcome the moss.
Above a plane flies over, maybe it is searching for me.
Below, the swamp calls out in anguish awaiting some company.
But the plane fades away...
And no one walks in a swamp.
The overcast sky sends chills through my body.
Where is the sun to enjoy, with me, this solitude?
Gunshots echo in the distance
Signaling the end to an unsuspecting trespasser
The hunting dogs bark, rejoicing in their conquest and bragging of their defeat.
And yet, I am safe.
The only company I have are the onlooking deer.
I look up the path from where I came
And look down to places yet to be discovered
The sun sets fast
And thundering clouds race across the sky
I pick up and walk quickly up the path,
Branches tear at my face begging me not to go.
A pang of longing spreads through my heart,
Wanting to return to my protector,
Wanting to explore the path still undiscovered.
I turn and look back at my refuge
Once soft around the edges,
Now threatening and foreboding.
I tense, hearing the sound of another in the woods,
But it walks away,
As afraid of me as I am of it.
I walk contemplating the mystery of it all,
And emerge onto the road signifying my real belonging.
The wind picks up,
A storm rolls in,
And I walk away,
Far away,
Back to where I belong.
Ode to Randomness! I'm outta here fo rizzle. <3 Scara

TOO MUCH SOCIALIZING!

2005-11-10T19:19:00.000-08:00

^ AHHhhhh...
I haven't really been in the mood to blog of late, and there isn't really much to tell, but since the show must go on... WELCOME to blog #80!
Now that I come to think of it, there is something to tell. Or, amybe I can come up with a few semi-entertaining stories.
Here goes. At the beginning of last quarter the only good thing about math was the group I was working with. We called it the "Love Triangle", made up of Liz, AJ, (who's really cool and is right next to Anna and I's locker) and I. We pretty much goofed off all the time, and that's why it was soo cool... That and the fact that we put our desks in the shape of a triangle ( hence the Love Triangle. I thought you may need some help putting that together) but that is somewhat beside the point... We all talked ALL the time, but I was the only one who got "talks too much in class" on her midterm. Now, today I get my real report card and THERE IT IS AGAIN! And once again... I am the only one. What does he think I talk to myself? No... I don't talk to myself? Do I talk to myself or do I just think I am talking to other people when no one is listening. I could see that happening. Sara... you do not talk to yourself... Hehe.
I did better on my report card than I expected. I'm 34/260 which is not bad considering they don't count anything more if I have hard classes. So, for example, I could be taking pre-algebra, and all these low classes and be getting 1st in the class. Retarted, I know.
Other semi jesterific news... Baraboo puts on this Madrigal dinner which consists of the Chamber Choir and Treble Choir dressing up all midevil and serving people while singing. I went in to talk to Mrs. Gunnell after school today and don't really say anything and she randomly says, "We need to find you a part in this," even though I don't start Treble until next semester. So... now, I am so excited to say that I get to dress up in a midevil costume and sing... or help with something... but still get to dress up. (Becca's jealous)
Now one of my former teachers are here for our annual teachers meeting... Whatever
~Sara

Have I Under Estimated?

2005-11-02T22:12:00.000-08:00

^You know... When I first put this title down I was just going to talk about how unbelieveably extatic I am today because I went in for a try-out for choir this morning and I sang for a while and then got into Treble choir. Trebel choir is the all girls choir that all my friends who have been in choir for along time tried out for last year and then I went in this morning and got into. I am a "low alto". Now I begin to think. Am I an alright singer? Have I used the excuse of "knowing I can sing but chose to hide it" too many times?
Then I decided am I really as bad of a person as I believe I am at times? I know the whole sinner thing, but that's not really where I'm going with this... but do I really need to be jelous of others all the time? Is my life so terrible? Really... Have I under estimated everything? I think I have. Take a look around you.
I noticed lately that I have impulsively been saying things like "I want to go shoot myself" or "My life sucks" semi-joking, of course... But now, I realize I am not only trying to make an excuse, but that these comments are absolutely terrible...utterly ridiculous! What have I been thinking? One of my friends called me suicidal today and said I have all the signs... *Slap* There's reality hitting my in the face. I am NOT suicidal. I want you all to know. Have I under estimated my role in life? Have I completely overlooked why I was put here in the first place and let everything going on in my life cloud my vision of a life full of hope?
I have hope. There has to be hope in everything.
~The one who is happy she wasn't struck down by lightening for the way she has acted. Please forgive me.

AKA

Sara

The Child In Me

2005-11-01T19:35:00.000-08:00

Happy Halloween! Not that I'm all into the whole Halloween scene... But...We were all pirates (Anna, Meg, Alyssa, Marley, Grass, Monica, and I).
Here's my awesomest, most beautifulest, most jesterific costume I have ever thrown together in an hour. Not to mention it is all Andrew's clothes.

What Did We Learn From This?

2005-11-01T19:27:00.000-08:00

^So, Becca and I concluded that losing my little cousin in the woods due to the trick, or lack of, that we were going to play on them was all Bethy's fault. We were planning on Becca and I dropping back and Bethy leading them around in the woods continuing their hike while Becca and I made noises in the woods. Well, apparently Tommy had to go to the bathroom so Bethy pointed to a tree and told him to go. Later we see her walking back towords us... alone. I lthankfully see Matthew running up behind her... But where is Tommy? Becca and I sneak behind Beefy and Matthew and start searching for Tommy who is no where to be found. We call Bethy back and ask her what happened... She doesn't really say much, but I tell her to go back to the cottage and take Matthew with her... Wait... leave Matthew with me, cause otherwise people will wonder where Tommy is without Matthew. So we're walking around for like 15 minutes looking and calling for Tommy. Then Beef comes back and reports that he was not at the cottage. Now I am completely panic stricken and pretty much start crying. I look for a while longer and then leave Matthew with Beefy and run to the road quickly thinking of what I should do. I will get my mom. She would know what to do, even if I have to suffer the consequences. I'm running now... even with my bad leg, when all the sudden I see a little bike in front of my house. My dad is standing outside looking at me run when I ask, "Where is Tommy?" "Down by the water trying to get a bobber out of the tree," he replies. I look down by the lake and there he is with a stick in the air. I say nothing and walk towords him. "Where were you?" I ask. "I had to go to the bathroom," says Tommy. "Why didn't you tell anyone?" I drill him with another question. "I told Bethy, but she left me..." Grrr.... "Let's go, " I say. "Can I take my stick with me?" he asks. I can't even be mad at him now. So I say of course he can and I send out Becca's dog to go find her. I of course run to the top of the hill in the woods and let her know I have Tommy. Then Bethy comes. Ohh was I upset with her. She didn't really have an excuse, so Becca and I simply asked her what she learned from this. She said something really dumb that I don't even remember... "No! Don't leave little children by themselves in the woods!"
This is my lesson for you all...

I Feel So Away From the World... Except For That Whole Vaccuum Thing...

2005-10-31T16:57:00.000-08:00

^We were in the woods up north for a long time this weekend and while we were in the swap with the special moss I was like *cue title* cause right when I said it this leaf blower or something went off.
The weekend was pretty good overall... The second of three weekends in a row I get to enjoy the company of my cousin, Becca. I will not mention the misfortune of having to spend three whole days with my little cousins. Wait, I will mention that. It was pretty much driving my crazy by the end of the weekend.
Wow... I should back up to last week.
I went to Anna's on Wednesday night where we sat around and watched Mtv and ate. Then we decided that we wanted to walk to Culvers. I called Jon Fricke to see if he was home from Prep but he wasn't. Then we walked to the park. Then we were going to go downtown but my leg hurt. Mostly this was just to get me out of the house so I didn't think of my upcoming doctors appointment.
So, I had a doctor's appointment on Thursday where they were actually checking to see if I had cancer some type of sarcoma... of all things. This is the same cancer that one of my good friends has but is just about done with treatments for. I don't have cancer, thankfully... But they still don't have any answers to any questions I have. They did tell me that my pain maay be from the water that is in my bone marrow and that I should have another MRI in 6 months and come back to see them. I wanted to strangle them at this point.
My mom and I went shopping but I wasn't really the happiest person so we didn't really get anything. We came home and Pat, Becca and Jackie came over to make this movie for APUSGOV. It was a fun time. Then we all just hung out and Nico came over and we watched Batman Returns.
As said, we went up north. My little cousins drive my nuts sometimes, but sometimes they are the funniest people I know. There were only two of them up this time but they were the worst of the brood. Tommy, who is 7 and Matthew, who is 5. Ahh... Ok, so we were sitting in pretty much one of my new favorite spots ever and Tommy is standing behind me. All the sudden he says, "I can see your undies... I like seeing girls undies and butt cheeks... It's fun." This is from a 7 year old. Of course, then when we started laughing he said it over and over again so it wasn't quite as funny but it still is. Matthew has a speach problem. Instead of swamp he says fwamp and so on down that line. Tommy was walking in the lake which was full of muck and when he came out he dumped water out of his shoes. Matthew is just like, "That is sick and wong, Tommy... Sick and sick and sick and wong." I laughed.
So, I think I am getting better. I decided that I just have to overcome the fact that my life is not quite as bad as I have come to believe and that I need to overlook the bad things and dwell upon the good, but never dwell too much because then you may just become dissapointed in the end.
^This could be a proverbial phrase. I like it. Speaking of proverbial phrases. We played this game called "Wise and otherwise" whare they give you a piece of an old saying from some far off country and you have to finish it. My personal favorite would be. "Monks do not..." and then i answered, "... Succeed in life without catching a fly in his chopsticks." Funny.
Well, I'm outta here. Here's a song for you. Happy Reformation Day.
~Scara

Artist:
Dashboard Confessional
Album:
The Places You Have Come To Fear The Most
Title:
The Places You Have Come To Fear The Most

Buried deep as you can dig inside yourself,
And covered with a perfect shell,
Such a charming beautiful exterior.
Laced with brilliant smlies and shining eyes.
Perfect posture, but you're barely scraping by,
You're barely scraping by.

This is one time,
This is one time
That you can't fake it hard enough to please everyone or anyone at all,
Or anyone at all
And the grave that you refuse to leave
The refuge that you've built to flee
The places you have come to fear the most,
Is places you have come to fear the most.

Buried deep as you can dig inside yourself,
And hidden in the public eye.
Such a stellar monument to loneliness.
Laced with brilliant smiles and shining eyes
And perfect makeup but you're barely scraping by,
But you're barely scraping by.

This is one time,
This is one time that
You can't fake it hard enough to please everyone, or anyone at all,
Or anyone at all.
And the grave that you refuse to leave,
The refuge that you built to flee,
The places that you come to fear the most.
Is the places that you have come to fear the most.

When Life Doesn't Make Sense... But Emo Does...

2005-10-23T14:15:00.000-07:00

^ Have you ever been like this, where every song seems to pertain to exactly what you are going through? Well, if you have not... it is insane! Ok, so yes, right now I am just trying to make anything that brings slight happiness to my life sound a little better than it actually is.

Here is one. It reminds me of camp, which even my parents admitted I need badly. On our way down to Racine, Sy put in this like techno-Russian music and I knew one of the songs for some rason but didn't know from what... and then John Anderson showed me this again last night... http://www.albinoblacksheep.com/flash/numa.php click on this sight... It is the best! It turns out this is the song from Sy's cd... Oh wow... I want to dance like that.

Last night John and Nico came over and John and I continued our ping pong rivalry while Nico watched the Sox game. It was so fun, kinda what I needed to get my mind off other trying things.

You want to see something of sweet conincidence? Ok... the day after everything went wrong and I had a break down this was the passage of the day on my calendar
{Romans 15:13}
May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit.
The next day...
{Psalm 22:5}
They cried to you and were saved; in you they trusted and were not disappointed.
And even the next day!...
{1 Thessalonians 5:18}
...give thanks in all circumstances, for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus.

Conincidental? I think not. He did that for me.

On Friday I went over to Becca's for this campfire thing they had at their curch. It was nice. At first my Aunt Kim was playing guitar, but that didn't work out so well, so then we just sang any song we knew without guitars... Then, luckily, Matt and Reuben came. I was so happy.
We were almost late to Aunt Kim's house/ we were late... But like 5 minutes before we left our house, my Doctor from Madison called and talked to me for a while, but didn't tell me everything... Then he talked to my mom. After she got off the phone she told me that I had to go see a new doctor at UW-Madison who specializes in abnormal bone funky things. My femur bone is swollen... and they don't want to take any chances... and what they are testing me for now is making me even more unhappy. I will not tell you, cause I hope that it is not true. I will tell you that instead of putting me on the end of the list to see this doctor, they are getting me in this Thursday. Hey... At least I'm moving up in Doctors... Maybe they will run out soon.

Artist:
New Found Glory
Album:
Catalyst
Title:
All Downhill From Here

You're hiding something cuz it's burning through your eyes
I try to get it out but all I hear from you are lies
And I can tell you're going through the motions
I figured you were acting out your part
Once again we're playin off emotion
Which one of us will burn until the end?

Catalyst, you insist to pull me down
You contradict the fact that you still want me around
And it's all downhill from here
And it's all downhill from here

Your good intentions slowly turned to bitterness
Reoccurring episodes with each and every kiss
And I can tell you're going through the motions
I figured you were acting out your part
Once again we're playin off emotion
Which one of us will burn until the end?

Catalyst, you insist to pull me down
You contradict the fact that you still want me around
It's all downhill from here
And it's all downhill from here

And I cant believe you pulled it off again
Im running, still it all sets in
You'll deny it till you're at your bitter end
And I can tell you're going through the motions
I figured you were acting out your part
Once again we're playing off emotion
Which one of us will burn until the end?

Catalyst, you insist to pull me down
You contradict the fact that you still want me around
And it's all downhill from here
And it's all downhill from here

And you keep pulling me..
Down, pulling me down, pulling me down
You contradict the fact that you still want me around
And it's all downhill from here
And it's all downhill from here

~Sara

"So... What happens if they step off with their left?"

My Very Bad Day

2005-10-20T18:10:00.000-07:00

^ Sounds like a childs story don't you think? Well, this was the assignment I was given to write a paper on in second grade... so, yes... that may be considered a child's story. As all of you know, I am always a happy person. So, this was the absolute hardest assignment I have ever been given. I have enjoyed saying over the past years that I have "Never had a bad day." Well, all good things must come to an end. Thus, the theme of this post.
Yesterday was bad.
I had my drivers test in the morning. I am a good driver...but... I failed. All because there was a car coming up a hill too fast and when I pulled out it came up behind me really fast. I didn't full out cry at this point in the day.
I didn't want to be in school anymore that day. My classes are so hard. So, I walked around in a daze feeling pretty terrible, but always pretending to be happy. I have learned I can fool people into thinking I am happy.
After school I went to an art club meeting. Maybe I can be good at that, but then... never as good as my brother. Then, after the meeting I didn't want to go home and face my parents so I stayed at school and did homework with Meg, Freel, Fenske, Nico, and JJ. Sometimes the things they talk about make me want to be sick. At times I don't even know why I am friends with them. They swear all the time... even in sentences made of up only profanity.
Then at 5:30 I went to go do uniforms. I forgot my black schoes so I had to have Andrew go and get them. Good news... this was our last marching of the year! Before the whole thing started I was talking to one fo my friends and talking about how confusing some things are. He proceeded to tell me some not so happy things about someone. So I came very close to crying there too.
My leg is making me so mad I don't know what to do with myself. I feel so out of shape, and can't do anything about it. I had another MRI today, by the way.
I feel like I am not up to my parents standards. I feel like my brother has set a precedent that I can't reach.
I went home last night and cried... for a long time. I cried for myself, I cried for Anna whose boyfriend of 6 months broke up with her, but mostly I cried because I had my frist bad day, that I would actually classify as bad. Crying helps. And yelling... but you can't so that everywhere.
While I'm writing this I once again feel like the most selfish person in the world, to be so down on such things. People NEED me to be happy. So I will hide my thoughts and feelings and am happy. Then no one can ever tell when I am really hurting.
I don't have any answers to anything anymore.
I hope this post didn't ruin your day. It was not my intent.
~Sara

Artist:
All American Rejects
Album:
All American Rejects
Title:
Happy Endings

Time does tell
That even if they say so
She'd be the one that would know
That I did do what I've done
And I, I wouldn't call it cheating
I'd just say I was leading her on
Why walk while I run a-way

You- you ask me what went wrong
Me- i'll write you this last song
Please- just tell me one way we can win
One- more thing before I go
Two- the one who loves me so
Three- don't make me count to three again

Happy endings
Just what did you do,
If you're a dream then come true
Stop pretending
what you mean isn't what you say
Hopeful dreaming,
Of times before the pain, wishing it was still the same
Loving, leavingRound and round and round we go again

Walks a-lone, have often lead to thinking
My love for you is sinking to what seems an all time low
or high, the limits' never ending,
And don't you know I'm sending
There's no venture I won't go
For you
She walks away, she talks away
She walks away
She walks away, she talks away
Away, away...

Artist:
Relient K
Album:
MmHmm
Title:
Let It All Out

Let it all out
get it all out
rip it out remove it
don't be alarmedwhen the wound begins to bleed

cause we're so scared to find out
what this life's all about
so scared we're going to lose it
not knowing all along
that's exactly what we need

and today I will trust you with confidence
of a man who's never known defeat
but tomorrow, upon hearing what I did
I will stare at you in disbelief
oh, inconsistent me
crying out for consistency

and you said I know that this will hurt
but if I don't break your heart then things will just get worse
If the burden seems too much to bear
Rememberthe end will justify the pain it took to get us there

and I'll let it be known
at times I have shown
signs of all my weakness
but somewhere in me
there is strength

and you promise me
that you believe
in time I will defeat this
cause somewhere in me
there is strength

and today I will trust you with the confidence
of a man who's never known defeat
and I'll try my best to just forget
that that man isn't me

reach out to me
make my heart brand new
every beat will be for you
for you

and I know you know
you touched my life
when you touched my heavy heart and made it light

Homecoming Dance!

2005-10-13T22:07:00.000-07:00

So, here we are. This is the first group of my friends to flow into my house. When I look at the picture it looks kinda like we planned the height thing and everything. Weird. This is when Anna and Meg and everyone evlse weren't there yet. We had like 5 waves of pictures going. Can you say, "Cameras of Death"? This is Brady and I.

My closest amigos. Back Row: Chris Ingles, Nico, Kris Kruse, I think David Reisch is back there, Dan Pfaff, Matt Weinke, Brady, and Riley

Front Row: Anna, Jillian, Meg, Grace, Jackie, Claire, and myself

Anna and I
The best friends I will ever have.

Boys... Boys... Boys...

This concludes my pictures for the time being. I hope you enjoyed them all.

Homecoming Pictures

2005-10-13T21:37:00.000-07:00

Baraboo Marching Band!

This is Mr. Lang's angry face. These are the times you want to stay as far away from him as possible. As you can see... he can be very intimidating.
This is Tom Bird. T-Bird... get it? Thunderbirds? T-Birds??? I hope you understand. He is a good friend of mine, and is also a drum major.
This is JJ. He is also a friend of mine/ drum major. I obviously have the athoritative in.
Yes, Becca, that is Kyle... my personal Napolean Dynamite.This is our awesome drum line. I am such a wannabe that I practiced with them... actually I held their music...

This is me, being a dork in the front row. I am not supposed to be in the front row... that is usually for the clarinets, but I have an in, as mentioned before.

This concludes my band section of Homecoming, since that did take up quite a bit of my time.

Cripple Update

2005-10-12T16:33:00.000-07:00

This blog may turn out to be me venting... so, bear with me. Oh, and, the little "x" button on the top of the screen comes in handy it it turns out to be in fact unbearable. I will not be offended cause I would have no idea you did it. If you feel the need, do it.
Monday I get to school and find out I have four tests and or quizes the next day. Bummer, since I have a doctor's appointment for my leg in Madison at 11:20. I still had to go in Tuesday morning cause we had a study session for APUSGOV at 7:15 and then I had to take that test first hour. I also had to go to my second hour cause I can't get behind too much on my "excel woorbook". Sometimes I hate that class, who needs computers in society? Then I get out of class, walk the halls for a few minutes, get in the car and turn on the christian radio station cause it 1) puts me in a better mood for my coming bad news appointment, and 2) I really just wanted to hear "Here I am to Worship". Of course that song didn't come on the whole way down there. It hasn't even though I have been listening to that station everytime I go down there. I get to the office and sit there waiting in complete anxiety for a lot longer than I should have been. I get in there, tell the doctor that the pain is spreading and sit there... and wait... and then his p.t. comes in and we all sit there... and think... Then my mom goes on and on about how dumb my p.t. was and how dissapointing it has been at the hospital in town. Then we ask about the dent in my leg where I had my cortizone shot. I guess that there is actually a side effect to that. Your leg tissue may weaken, and that's what happened. So now I have a permenent dent in my quad. I stumped the doctors. Both of them. They have resulted to do more testing. I have a bone scan set up for the 18th and another MRI in the not so distant future. I actually broke downa and cried about it yesterday, in the doctors office.
Anna pretty much broke her back and has to go to the chiropractor like 3 times a week. She has joined our cripple group.
Brady's tests came back and he sprained his vertebrae. He is out of sports for six weeks now. I guess you just shouldn't be friends with me. You may jion my cripple list.
Now I have to go do homework... Imagine... I always seem to be doing homework! Then I have pioneers tonight and handbells. Talk to you later!

My Way or the Highway~Relient K
Should I start this song off with a question?
Or should I say what's on my mind.
(Add a cello here to add a sad impression).
Cause I'm not looking forward to leaving my friends all behind.
I didn't vote (though I'm not proud), cause I'm Canadian, and I'm not allowed.
Give it a go or throw in the towel.
Stand all alone or swim through the crowd.
No one around to help you decide.

It's time to make up your mind.
It's time to make up your mind.

By the wayside we fell.
He said, "It's my way or the highway to hell."
It's your decision, choose it well.
He said, "It's my way or the highway to hell."

Decisions we make; life's an election.
Precision we take, seeking direction.
But there's so many lies.
Unsure where we can look.
But we've got a guide- a really thick handbook.
No one around to help you decide.

It's time to make up your mind.
It's time to make up your mind.

Are you with me or against me?
Noticed you're sitting on the fence.
We wondered why you're not cut and dry.
You got to choose our side and live, or their side and die.
Which hand holds your soul?
Do you want to guess one?
If it scares you to death, may that be your lesson.
It's your decision, make it the best one.
And should I end this song off with a question?

~Sara

Homecoming 2005

2005-10-09T20:50:00.000-07:00

Wow... So much to cover!
We can start with Thursday. I had a physical therapy and once again they have nothing to say about my leg/ they have no idea what is wrong with it. It's really depressing, but not as bad as what happened that night. I went to the powderpuff game and was going to be their "manager" but that turned out to be really gay. I stood there in the cold and was even more deprssed cause I couldn't play. So I went over and stood with Anna and Meg. Juniors won, I believe... in case anyone really has the urge to know. That night I went teepeeing with Claire and Jackie and that group. It was hilarious cause Andrew drove us, and we got stopped by the cops two times. That was funny, but I just used my social skills and talked us out of getting in trouble. I was going to call Brady to see how their football game went, but thought it was too late. Little did I know, it wouldn't have been.
The next morning I woke up really early cause we had to go assemble the band float, which got second place... by the way. That day my brother was our driver once again. He brought us back to the school for the assembly. I was like running to get my piccolo and get to the bleachers to play pep band. I look over in the sophomore section and see Jillian and Anna and Meg. I wish I was sitting by them. Then I look across the gym and scan the football players and see Brady... wearing a neck brace?!?! I panicked... freaked out, but couldn't do anything cause it was in the middle of the assembly. After the whole thing I was doing uniforms and Anna comes up to me and said that Brady bruised his spinal cord. Ahh!!! After we were done with uniforms Andrew and I went to Pizze Venicia with Meg, Anna, Grass, and Kate. Tha was fun cause Nico and JJ and a whole bunch of my friends came in after a while and it was like a party. Then Nico and Kyle and Chris played pep band songs on the corner of the square and we threw money in their trombone case.
The parade went horrible, or at least our marching. I gave the analogy that it was like a sport... We got beat and we didn't want to talk about it. It felt that crappy.
After the parade Brady's mom found me and told me what happened in detail. I guess that at the game he took a head on with another guy and had to be carted off the field on a stretcher. Then they took him to the hospital in Madison and found that he either bruised or fractured his vertebrae. It was sad. So... I talked to him that night and he said he still was going to the dance... Ok!
We won the football game against Mount Horeb. It was awesome. Oh, and the marching band was sweet at halfime. All good stuff.
The party went well before the dance. We held it at my place. Pool and pingpong and movies and a whole hord of food cannot be beaten. That was overall pretty uneventful. Meg kinda hit Riley in the head with a chair, which if funny cause Riley is like 6'8" and meg is shorter than me. The dance was awesome. Everyone looked so great. Brady found that he was pretty good at the robot... Imagine! After the dance we went to Anna's and watched Garden State and ate some more. It was fun.
Well, that's pretty much the recap of everything. I hope everything is going well with all of you readers. Love ya!
~Sara
Great homecoming.

Actually, You Don't Want Anything More Critical To Happen At Your School.

2005-10-03T21:53:00.000-07:00

^I don't remember who's blog it was, but they said they wished something more critical would happen at their school, like it was bad/ boring or something. Well, to prove you wrong...

Today the craziest happening in my little town's history that has happened in a while, went down today. I wrote this hard-core paper on how evolution can't be real. This topic had been controversial for a while, but now I went to present it and it is awesome. Anyways, when I sat down after reading it, the principal came on the loudspeaker and said, "Everyone, I have a very important announcement to make..." right thenI started laughing cause it started to sound like a line from Anchorman but she goes on to say, "... There is a standoff between the police and an armed mad outside of school. There will be no open campus for lunch. Staff should go to their assembly poststions," (Those are the places they take by the doors during an assembly so no one walks out). So no one could go in or out of the building. Lunch was so crowded cause everyone always goes out to lunch to like Culvers, which is like a block away from school. The line went like to the back of the caffeteria and into the hall, and I don't believe they had enough food for 2nd lunch. I guess he even had hostages at one point. Yikes...Of course we were all on pins and needles the whole day thinking some guy would come through our doors and start shooting at us. We were wondering what we would do if this kept going on to the end of the day... Could they keep us at school? Well, by the end of the day, he was contained in some building near one of my friends houses, but then... How could she get home? My mom ended up giving her a ride, let me re-enphasize this... my friend's house is literally like a block away from the place and her neighbor was not even allowed to get out of her driveway. We drive up and her mom is sitting on a swing outside with her neighbor so we stop for a second and we are talking about how she didn't even know this was going on, when all the sudden we hear this huge blast like *boom* thing. Oh great. Well, it turns out that that was tear gas, and he was taken away a little while later... to a mental hospital.
In other news, my band teacher yelled at me today cause I made a mistake and then Anna started laughing. He caught me later and said he felt really bad and that he felt like he just kicked a puppy when he yelled at me. I laughed.
Why did the chicken cross the road? To prove to the turkey that he wasn't chicken.
I'm sure you loved my great story. I did. Love ya!

Confusion Anyone?

2005-09-30T20:10:00.000-07:00

^ Sometimes Andrew and I do this thing when we are talking to people on the internet where we block and unblock them really fast so it says we sign in a lot of times and way back when, when people didn't know how we did that, we would say,"Confusion anyone?"
Sometimes I wonder why some things are so confusing. It's like God intended us not to know what was going on.
Sometimes I wonder why I am made to forget things that are crucial to other people and everyone elses well being. Such as the project that I forgot about. The one that was supposed to be so good and I was going to go all out, but some things didn't come through and now I have to wing it... All cause I forgot it was due on MONDAY!
Sometimes I wonder why people have emotions. They just get in the way.
Sometimes I wonder why some people are so unbeileveably hard to read and you just want to know one thing they are thinking, but can't figure it out for the life of you.
Sometimes I wonder why worldy things cloud your vision of what is truly supposed to happen in your life. You get so sidetracked about everything else going on in your world and can't enjoy what really matters.
Sometimes I wonder why things can't go my way. I wonder why my leg can't get better and why I am going through so much pain.
Sometimes I wonder why there is jealousy,I mean... WHY?!
Sometimes I think of why I only think of myself at times(refer to all the "I"'s in this post). Everything would be so much smoother if I just forgot about my feelings and thoughts, and would just want more than anything to help others and, think not only of myself.
Sometimes I almost start crying because I am such a procastinator and I can't seem to think of any way of getting better at that. But then I think that now I am making up excuses.
Sometimes I wonder why people don't have the answers to questions that I view as so simple and yet the most complex things in life.
Sometimes I seem to forget that we are all just people. We are ALL just sinners. There's my excuse. I sin. You sin. There's not much else to it.
Sometimes I wonder why I am here, but then I remember that when I wonder that I am questioning God.
Sometimes I need to stop stressing out and just take a breath and know that everything will work out and I will be alright.
Sometimes I forget that I have the comfort of having people that have my back. And more comforting, I have a God that has my back. I mean, is there a better feeling?
Sometime I should try and not think about things so much... or worry... or even wonder about why. Maybe it would help.
Sometime I should write down what I am feeling. Wait... Aren't I doing that now? Ha...
Thanks for listening. ~ Sara

Why Worry~ The All-American Rejects

I worry, I wonder all the time why worry
It's killing me, forget about it

I whisper, remember what she did
Don't miss her
Set me free, she won't allow it

Angry and gone, and the list goes on and on
Now I'm letting up, I should be the one who's letting go
She's lonely, she's scared, I'm relationship impaired
If it's love, I will differ, I'm being lost being with her

I can't move on, I can't take it
She, she says we won't ma-a-ake it now

I can't move on, I can't take it
She, she says we won't ma-a-ake it now

Be-lieving, the things i did were wrong
I'm leaving
It fades a-way, forget about it
She's binding, can't do a thing alone
Rewinding
Times before, can't live without it

I don't know
But you did but you did it yo-ou did
Please don't go
Now my feelings for you they're now lost
'cause we're through anymore
I'll write you , I'll call youNow

Welcome To My Life

2005-09-27T21:21:00.000-07:00

^ I don't know why I have this title. You don't know what it is like to be in my life, and I don't really want to put you through that. Not that it is all bad... but I kinda had a bad night last night. I had physical therapy... which kinda always crushes my hopes cause it hurts so bad and there is never any improvement. But then to make that situation worse, I went to powderpuff practice and am now dubbed "manager" for that too cause I couldn't run and if I was on the line I would risk hitting my leg and I would be down for good. I just want to put it in a cast and be over with it. Then people would know I am hurt. I got home and Aunt Kim called (Bec's mom) and I almost started crying when I talked to Becca cause at that time I was working on the project that I was doing with a friend of mine, but I thought she didn't do her parts cause I didn't have them, so I did them too.... It was due today.Then I studied for two tests in my two worst classes, AP US GOV and Acc. Algebra 2. Ahhh... I hope you don't think that this is not all that bad cause this is really the worst day I've had in a long tim. I mean, I got a 10... out of 10 on my AP US GOV test, but I just hate going through that kind of stuff. But last night my mom was all calling my grumpy and pretty much yelling at me for it. Don't you hate that when your parents call you grumpy and there is absolutely NO WAY OUT OF IT? If you say yes, then they believe you. If you say no, they say you are because you replied no to their question. Oh my... Well, Grass got her liscense today. Caitlin Holterman failed. Sad. Three of my friends took their tests today. Ahh!
Well, in honor of Grass, my driving friend.

I Woke Up In A Car~Something Corporate
I woke up in new york city
from my sleep behind the wheel
caught a train to Poughkeepsie
and time stood still
she wrote me a letter from san diego
to qualify her luck
these flights connect through arizona
but i think i'll stay stuck
so here i amhere i amwell i woke up in a car
i traced away the fog
so i could see the mississippi on her knees
i've never been so lost
i've never felt so much at home
please write my folks and throw away my keys
i woke up in a car
i woke up in a car
i met a girl who kept tattoos for homes
that she had loved
if i were her i'd paint my body
until all my skin was gone
she wrote me a letter as we passed through rockford
she said she won't forget
maybe i do maybe i don't
but i know i haven't yet
so here i am
here i am
well i woke up in a car
i traced a way to fall
so i could see the mississippi on her knees
i've never been so lost
i've never felt so much at home
please write my folks and throw away my keys
i woke up in a car
i woke up in a car
and maybe i could live forever
if that ever i had known
that you'd be waiting there whenever i'm alone
but here i am
well i woke up in a car
i traced a way to fall
so i could see the mississippi on her knees
i've never been so lost
i've never felt so much at home
please write my folks and throw away my keys
well i woke up in a car
i traced a way to fall
so i could see the mississippi on her knees
i've never been so lost
i've never felt so much at home
please write my folks and throw away my keys
i woke up in a car
i woke up in a car
i woke up in a car

Ok, so it really had nothing to do with anything, but it has the word car in it A LOT!
~Sara

Funny

2005-09-24T11:35:00.000-07:00

^I have three funny stories to tell you
Story #1:
This school year alone I have worn the same thing as someone else four times. All this and we didn't plan any of them. Hmm... Ok, that wasn't that unbelievably funny, but it was kinda coincidental don't you agree?
Story #2:
My mom and I went down to Madison on Thursday for a homecoming dress and she just had to go into Goodwill cause she could pretty much do all her shopping there... in a tangent universe. Anyways, she bought this pair of shoes and we were walking to a different store and she said, "Now I can be cool cause I bought myself a pair of Skeetchers!" I got really confused then,"What?!?! What are Skeetchers?" "You know, those shoes everyone is wearing?" "Oh, mom... those are Sketchers." It was so bad. Now Andrew and I are making fun of her hardcore.
Story #3:
Yesterday in marching band I was talking to Sarah Green (our row has 3 Saras alone!) but she said something to the extent of "Sara, you are so white!" I quickly came back with "You sexist!" Hmm... Wrong context.... Doh!!!
I bought a homecoming dress. It is sweet. I know no one will have one like it. I love buying things that no one else would think of getting. Yeah, lime green with brown tooling stuff over the top... You'd have to see it, and I hear I suck at explaining how it looks, so I don't try anymore. Brady called me while I was down there and was telling me all about the base that his brother is at. He said it was soo cool that he might think of going in the army. But then we agreed that his mom would slap him and I would slap him... and he would slap himself? Yeah...
Last night I went over to Claire's for her suprise b-day party. It was super fun. I love hanging out with them even though I don't do it as much anymore. Right now I am home alone cause Andrew went to ref a paintball game *?* in the Dells. Hmm... That and my parents are up north. PARTY!!! Haha, right. Well, I'm going to go watch a movie or something cool like that. Love ya!
~Scigen

By the way here's something that went down at the lunch table yesterday. Grace:" Why does my milk smell like a milk farm?" Everyone else there:" Probably cause it's milk, Grace!"

I got a 100% on my vocab test for my junior english class and one of the kids next to me saw it and was like "100? You nerd!" I laughed cause he got a 62. For some reason that kinda made me feel like I fit in with them. Why? I have no idea...

I'm Just So Confused

2005-09-23T18:19:00.000-07:00

Why can't people just accept things the way they are? Why can't they admit what is really bothering them and let others help? Better question... Why can't we just let our lives go and take things the way God would want them to be?
Last year was a rough one for me. Overall, I would say that it was a great freshman year, of course I would, but I was pretty stressed out about some things at points in time. I mean math was aweful. I always felt like I was letting my parents down. None of the sports I was in worked out. My basketball coach pretty much called me the worst person on the team numerous times. Track, the sport I was really looking forward to didn't end up happening since I tore my quad like the second week of practice. Now my leg still isn't better. I ended up liking one of my good friends and he liked me back, and we would have been going out, but he kinda dumped me for an 8th grader and I had to get over him in what seemed a matter of minutes. A lot of things seemed to be going wrong, not just with me, but with the whole world around me. I ended up bottling all this emotions up inside of me cause I didn't think anyone could help. This AND I tried to help other people with their problems too. Wow. Now that I look at it I did some pretty stupid stuff. The main thing is that I kept this all inside. I kinda think I almost became depressed and everyone knew it and tried to help, but I shunned them all away.
How did I come out of this you may ask? I actually don't know. Only God does. I came to about a bazillion resolutions about a bunch of stuff and finally came out of it. All this stuff is so worldy! I worry about everything. Now all I know is that I don't anymore. I decided that is it God's decision and that I do what he tells me to. Now was that last sentence was a little on the hypocritical side. Haha.
What is with all this talk? I now see that more people are in the position I was in. They are all freaking out about everything and they may not even know what is wrong with them. I can tell them to pray about it, but it hasn't gotten to them that it really works. If you are the one having a problem, ptake it to the Lord. Or call me, I could give you some advice. Now, I will not leave you with a song, but with some bible passages. Hey, if you're clever enough make them into a song. Love ya!
Jonah 2:2-9
Jonah's song
2 He said:"In my distress I called to the LORD, and he answered me. From the depths of the grave I called for help, and you listened to my cry. 3 You hurled me into the deep, into the very heart of the seas, and the currents swirled about me;all your waves and breakers swept over me. 4 I said, 'I have been banished from your sight; yet I will look again toward your holy temple.' 5 The engulfing waters threatened me, the deep surrounded me; seaweed was wrapped around my head. 6 To the roots of the mountains I sank down; the earth beneath barred me in forever. But you brought my life up from the pit, O LORD my God. 7 "When my life was ebbing away, I remembered you, LORD, and my prayer rose to you, to your holy temple. 8 "Those who cling to worthless idols forfeit the grace that could be theirs. 9 But I, with a song of thanksgiving, will sacrifice to you. What I have vowed I will make good. Salvation comes from the LORD."

James 1:2&3
Trials
2Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, 3because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance.

Romans 12:12
12Be joyful in hope, patient in affliction, faithful in prayer.

Fuzzy Men With Fire Hats

2005-09-19T19:44:00.000-07:00

^ Yeah, this is pretty much the sweetest title I have had in a while. This is a funny story, kinda... but it IS a funny phrase. So, my brother is an "artist" and I use that term loosely, but anyways, I had him draw on my Standard Written Engilsh Folder and he made, of course, this crazy picture of people falling up and into tornadoes and weird stuff like that. In the picture he made this tree in the corner with a tire swing hanging from it's branches and it has fire coming out of the top. In the leaves of the tree he kinda made a face, and the tree had full leaves... soo... it looks kinda like a fuzzy man with a fire hat. It's great.
That reminded me of this shirt that Andrew wants to get that has a guy standing there saying "Haha, movie quote..." and a guy next to him syaing "Haha, another movie quote!" Why this reminds me of it? Cause I was thinking "Haha, random story... Haha, another random story!"
That is actually all I'm going to post now other than a song because Nico really wanted a song. Here goes.

Best Of Me ~The Starting Line
tell me what you thought about
when you were gone and so alone
the worst is over
you can have the best of me
we got older but we're still young
we never grew out of this feeling that we wont give up

here we lay again
on two separate beds
riding phone lines
to meet a familiar voice
and pictures drawn from memory
we reflect on miscommunication
and misunderstandings
and missing each other too
much to have had to let go

we turn our music down
and we whisper
say what your thinking right now
tell me what you thought about
when you were gone and so alone
the worst is over
you can have the best of me
we got older but we're still young
we never grew out of this feeling that we wont give up

jumping to conclusions
made me fall away from you
i'm so glad that the truth
has brought back together me and you

we're sitting on the ground
and we whisper
say what your thinking outloud
tell me what you thought about
when you were gone and so alone
the worst is over
you can have the best of me
we got older but we're still young
we never grew out of this feeling that we wont give up

we turn our music down
and we whisper
we're sitting on the ground
and we whisper
we turn our music down
we're sitting on the ground
and next time i'm in town
we will kiss girl
we will kiss girl

tell me what you thought about
when you were gone and so alone
the worst is over
you can have the best of me
we got older but we're still young
we never grew out of this feeling that we wont
feeling that we cant
we're not ready to give up

we got older but we're still young
we never grew out of this feeling that we wont give up

I'm out-
Scara

Titles Are Over-Rated

2005-09-18T21:35:00.000-07:00

^There is no explanation for this. I just can't think of anything to write.
How's it going everyone? It's pretty good here. I had this unbelieveably hard AP OS GOV test on Friday that we didn't actually get done, but that was pretty much the worst downfall of the week. Sarah Olsen is on homecoming court. We were all really excited, I mean, it was Sarah McGann for homecoming last year, me Sara for blue and gold last year, and now Sarah olson for homecoming this year. That is about all the Sara's though, so we'll just have to start going through the line again. Haha.
Yesterday Kristen Allen got married. She was a girl in my brother's class. A little young? Yes, we all think so. I just hope I have enough sense to not get married in 2 years.
One of my friends just told me there were like no dresses left in Madison. Not good... I don't have one yet! I'm not happy.
Today the marching band was in the parade in the Dells. It has some weird name and I don't like spelling it, so I refer to it as the Dells parade on the internet. It was long and hot. We had no water, and usually that wouldn't be that bad, but today we were just standing around for about forever. I had my mom go and buy my row some water. During the parade! It was funny. And I told my row that I would not yell at them for not being in a straight row because they were all freshmen and I hated being yelled at when I was a frosh. The bus ride back was kinda fun. Claire, Sarah, and I broke out singing Build Me Up Buttercup. It was fun. And there was this frosh sitting in front of me that I always call amigo but never even knew who he was, and now I know him and he's a pretty cool kid. Well, that's my random story for tonight. This is my random picture for tonight of Anna sitting on the slide at the park by my house.

Alright... Now I'm going to wrap it up, and since my enter key is being dumb and entering twice every time I press it, I'm not going to post a song. I'm sorry, if you really are upset with me for not putting one in here let me know. Love you!

~S^2 (Mathmatically correct way os saying "s squared")

I Heart You

2005-09-15T20:43:00.000-07:00

^Today Anna made a sign saying I <3 You! and hung it up in my locker. That "<3" is a heart by the way. And I had it in there all day and when she came to her locker after school I waited for her to open her locker so I could put it in there... but she took forever and I was like fine, then I dis-heart you. When she opened her locker I put the sign in there and then ripped it in half. That was me dis-hearting her. But then Brady pointed out that the heart could be fixable so I put a piece of tape on her, and Brady, and John Anderson's shirts signifying that I still heart them.
Speaking of dis-hearting people, I beat up a guy today. Well, not really physically, but it was funny. Here's the deal. There's this kid that's kind of annoying and last year I was always at the top of his most hated people list. Today he was being really dumb and throwing combos at me, so I took the combo and chucked it back at him. Then he threw some more, but I waited for my chance. I found that when the janitor, Speedy, was walking past and I was just finishing my milk and when Speedy couldn't see me anymore I just took the milk and hit him with it really hard and walked away. This upset him, so he got Scott, this really tall friend of mine and was threatening to beat me up, so I ran to the middle of my good freinds, the whole JV football team. So I was just standing there and all the sudden he comes like through our circle and is walking twords me. I didn't really see this as a threat, but I did the first thing that came to my mind. Embarrass him, so I reached up and slapped him across the face. Not HARD per se... but enough to shock him. Then all the guys thought I was really great for putting him in his place.
This junior at my school, Chris Smith, and I have this competition going where whenever we see eachother from the first time we see eachother at the beginning of the day, to the end of the day we say each other's names really fast and the first person to get it out wins. I'm beating him really bad. Right now the score is 2-1... in days. Just to let you know, I will keep you posted on who's winning.
So, for biology we have to do this abstract project where we find a topic related to biology in a way and kind of argue the points of your topic, like the pros and cons. I was thinking of doing evolutionism for a while, but remembering that my teacher believes in this stuff didn't really pursue it... until today. We had to have what we are doing, so I waited until everyone else got theirs and went over to her table and was like "Can I do evolutionism?" and she said no. She said that someone in her 3rd hour was going to do that, but found she didn't have enough tangible facts that God exists... compared to their theory??? Whatever... so then I say that I have a cousin (Becca) who goes to a school that has a teacher who has tangible facts on like animcals that could not have ever evolved. This made her think for a while, but then she wanted to know if I would put in my opinion. I said "No, this isn't a opinion paper! Even though I don't believe in evolution... by the way I heard you are going to teach a lot about evolution and crap like that." Yeah, I did say that. I do kinda regret it right now, but it made her think. Seeing that this might be a while I took the chair in front of her and showed I was not going to give up. I sat and said "So, what's up?" and we just sat there... for a long time. Then all the sudden she said "I'll let you do it." She said I may get in trouble some how, but she was looking forward to reading this. So, now I have to write a really really good paper. I'm setting a precedent. It will be interesting cause Meg believes in evolution. At least Caitlin is there for me all the way.
Well, I just figured that today I was kind of outgoing and was not going to stand anything from anyone. I don't know why, but reading this, I just figured. My finger hurts. I'm out. Love you!
~Sara

We're playing this song for pep-band! Yay! Game tomorrow vs the Beavers... 7:00... I have to march.
Build Me Up Buttercup~Busted

Chorus
Why do you build me up (build me up)
Buttercup baby just 2 let me down (let me down)
And mess me around
and worst of all (worst of all)
you never call baby when you say you will (say you will)
but i love you still
i need you (i need you)
more than anyone darlin'you know that i have from the start
so build me up (build me up) buttercup
dont brake my heart

I'll be over at 10 you told me time and again
but your late, I'll wait around and then
I run to the door, i cant take anymore
its not you, you let me down again

(hey hey hey) baby baby just try to find
hey hey hey) a little time and I'll make you mine
(hey hey hey) i'll be home, i'll be beside the phone
waiting 4 you
oooh, oooh

Chorus

if you were the toy, i could still be the boy you adore
if you just let me know
although your untrue im atracted to you all the more
why do i need you so?

(hey hey hey) baby baby just try to find
(hey hey hey) a little time and i'll make you mine
(hey hey hey) i'll be home, i'll be beside the phone
waiting for you
oooh,oooh

Chorus
(instrumental)
Chorus

Oh, Hectic Life, You Take Away Some of the Good Things

2005-09-14T21:57:00.000-07:00

^Today the Camp Phillip people came to St. John's for pioneers but I didn't know they were going to be there, so I went to handbells at 8:00 and found out and was super mad that I didn't get to see them. Especially considering Sy was there, and I guess "two other guys". I almost cried cause I couldn't go and I had to stay and play stupid handbells even though I was only a BLOCK away! That and I have a bunch of homework all the time and that I have like and hour to just sit around and be tired and then I do homework until dinner, then I go back to doing homework again. It kinda takes time away from doing other things. Hard classes during school, then come home and do hard homework. It's not the life I like to live in. And this, just a few weeks into school.
Last night I was up reading the Federalist papers for like 2 hours, which is not the easiest reading. I am always so tired the next morning and this morning I went to band first hour and sat in a chair and slept. Then Mr. Lang threw a marker cap at me. I woke up, make some excuse, he laughed at me, and I put up some stands in front of my face to not let him see me sleep . After this stuff we had to go outside and then I woke up fast cause it was cold this morning, in case you didn't know.
Ok, I have algebra 2 test tomorrow. I'm not excited. I will go to bed now. Night, and much love to everyone.
~Sara

Good Riddance (Time of Your Life)~ Green Day

Another turning point, a fork stuck in the road
Time grabs you by the wrist, directs you where to go
So make the best of this test, and don't ask why
It's not a question, but a lesson learned in time
It's something unpredictable, but in the end is right
I hope you had the time of your life

So take the photographs, and still frames in your mind
Hang it on a shelf in good health and good time
Tattoos of memories and dead skin on trial
For what it´s worth, it was worth all the while
It´s something unpredictable, but in the end is right
I hope you had the time of your life.
It´s something unpredictable, but in the end is right
I hope you had the time of your life.
It´s something unpredictable, but in the end is right
I hope you had the time of your life

Lucky Duck!

2005-09-13T17:58:00.000-07:00

^So, Becca and I have a bunch of words and phrases I guess that we find absolutely hilarious. I didn't confirm this with her, but I'm sure that she would agree that the phrase "lucky duck" is funny. I mean, when you think of it... how lucky is a duck? Really. Other ones consist of like the word cake for example. Say it out loud right now and just figure that it really is funny, and you weren't crazy when you thought so too.The names Steve and Dirk are just hilarious. While we're on the word subject, I just have to tell you how great the word ridiculouse is. You can say it all the time and it just seems to fit.
Hey! There's a rainbow outside right now! I love those.
Today Grace, Meg, Anna, and I went to Culver's for lunch and I swear that I was the last person to get my lunch out of all the high schoolers. This and the conbination of the half hour lunch we have is not a good thing when you are me... the slowest eater on the face of the earth. I ate in what I would say record timing. Meg has always wanted to take one of those Culver's numbers that you get and finally got her opportunity. They were really busy and the lady that brought us our food gave it to her and walked by to give another person their order and Meg snatched that number. The lady came back and wa so confused! she kept walking back and forth thinking if she had it or not. I had to try so hard to stop myself from laughing. On the way out we were in such a hurry that when Grace was holding the tray in the garbage to get all the food off I came by and didn't realize that the tray was in their so I just stuck my bag in over her and she dropped the tray in the garbage. We started cracking up, and considering we only had like 3 minutes before the bell rang, just left the tray and ran. It was a funny time.
Today in Standard Written English (one of my classes with a bunch of juniors) we were going over these sentences that we wrote really fast and correcting all the ghramatical errors on the over head. The only people who knew what was wrong with them was this one other sophomore and myself. It was kinda a rally between us, she would correct the spelling, andI would take care of the other stuff. It was great. Well, not that I want to just leave you, but I have to go eat. Love y'all!
~Cuban

This is Your Birthday Song ~ Camp Phillip
This is your birthday song.
It isn't very long.

I'm Posting From My Computers Class

2005-09-13T09:20:00.000-07:00

Yeah, I just wanted to see if it worked to post something from my school. Apparently it does. Yeah, I just got back from marching and it is 9:15 and I am now in the air conditioning. It makes me happy. Right now Riley and Adam are talking about football. It's funny cause they do that all the time! Imagine. Well, I have to march in a parade in the Dells this weekend and we supposedly have only one practice left before we go. Well, I'm off. Love ya!
~Scara
Oh! Anna gets to have lunch with me today cause she has a meet tonight. I'm excited.

Conformist

2005-09-10T18:52:00.000-07:00

^I painted my nails all one color today. It's the first time I've done that in a long time. I did let myself paint my toes pink and my fingers red though. Don't take it all away at once.

What else is new... hmm... I watched like 3 hours of CSI last night while eating pizza we got for free cause the people at pizza hut "love" my brother. That or his friend Josh just gave us a pizza they made for someone else. Haha. Then one of my dad's machines at his work wasn't working, so he had to go in and get that fixed... at 12:00 at night. Then I woke up last night cause I heard myself breathing...?... And it was 3:45 and they weren't back yet, so I started to worry cause that is what I seem to do best. But then I heard the door open, so I went back to bed.

Both the JV and Varsity lost to Monona Grove in football. But, the Badgers beat Temple 65-0... That was crazy.

I kinda really want to have a movie night tonight cause I'm actually home for a weekend. That and I need to get a homecoming dress at some point. I'm pretty excited about that. I love dress shopping. Hey! I have a picture os my blue and gold dress last year I think... hold on... * cheesy elevator music*

Wow.... my hair was really short there.
What other pictures can I put up today?
This is Brady and Nico trying to be Charlie's Angels??? It's a nice try though.

Nico likes aviators. John... apparently doesn't. I simply refer to this as Brady Thug... and his possy of Kody Blake.... wearing a pink shirt???

OK... now for a song.... hmm....

Here I Am To Worship~ Israel
Light of the world
You stepped down into darkness
Opened my eyes let me see
Beauty that made this heart adore You
Hope of a life spent with You

Here I am to worship
Here I am to bow down
Here I am to say that
You're my God
You're altogether lovely
Altogether worthy
Altogether wonderful to me

King of all days
O so highly exalted
Humbly you came to the earth you created.
All for love's sale became poor.

[chorus]here I am to worship,
here I am to bow down,
here I am to say that you're my God,
you're altogether lovely,
all together worthy
all together wonderful to me

I'll never know how much it cost to see my sin upon that cross.
I'll never know how much it cost to see mt sin upon that cross.
And i'll never know how much it cost to see my sin upon that cross.
No i'll never know how much it cost to se my sin upon that cross.

[chorus]Here i am to worship,
Here i am to bow down,
Here i am to say that you're my God,
You're altogether lovly,
Altogether worthy,
Altogether wonderful to me.
So Here i am to worship,
Here i am to bow down,
Here i am to say that you're my God,
you're all together lovely,
all together worthy,
all together wonderful to me...

Don't Wanna Be An American Idiot

2005-09-08T17:03:00.000-07:00

So when I see the word idiosyncrasy I think of the word idiot. Maybe people think I am an idiot cause of things I do. Anyways...

List five of your idiosyncrasies and then tag five friends to do the same.

1) Random things trigger thoughts and memories in my mind and when I hear them in my head I laugh out loud.

2) I am THE SLOWEST eater I know.

3) I hate the cold, but I love wearing jeans.

4) When I hear the word "proof" used mathmetically, I seriously cringe.

5) I set my watch and clocks 8 (yes... 8, not 5 or 10) minutes fast so I go faster, and get to the place I'm supposed to be on time, but I'm still late.

Alright, so I was tagged... now I have to tag people... Who hasn't been tagged? I tag...
Adam Igl, Brad, Owen Mergen, and Evan. Blake, you never post, so I can't tag you.

Alright, this is it for now... the rest of today is below this blog. But, I will post another song. This band is really gay, but I like this song... it was stuck in my head literally all day... and the video is kinda different. Love ya!
~Cuban

Helena ~ My Chemical Romance
(This song is really sad...)

long ago
just like the hearse you die to get in again
we are so far from youburning on just like the match you strike to incinerate
the lives of everyone you know
and what's the worst you take
from every heart you break
and like the blade you stain

well i've been holding on tonight
what's the worst that i can say?
things are better if i stay
so long and goodnight
so long and goodnight

came a time when every star falls
brought you to tears again
we are the very hurt you sold
and what's the worst you take
from every heart you break
and like the blade you stain

well i've been holding on tonightlong ago
just like the hearse you die to get in again
we are so far from you
burning on just like the match you strike to incinerate
the lives of everyone you know
and what's the worst you take
from every heart you break
and like the blade you stain

well i've been holding on tonight
what's the worst that i can say?
things are better if i stay
so long and goodnight
so long and goodnight

came a time when every star falls
brought you to tears again
we are the very hurt you sold
and what's the worst you take
from every heart you break
and like the blade you stain
well i've been holding on tonight

UW-Baraboo Wins First Soccer Game Ever!

2005-09-08T16:16:00.000-07:00

^ My brother's soccer team won their first game of the season, and hence the title, their first game in history.
I'm still sick, and have been contemplating staying home everyday this week, but then I start getting ready and decide I don't really want to have to redo all the stuff I had already done today, so I go anyways. Today I'm better though.
There's nothing really interesting that's going on in my life right now. Mr. Lang switched my study hall into regular band, so not I have two hours of band a day. Does this consider me a band geek? I don't know.
I decided that people gather around my locker just to eat. I always have animal crackers in my locker, (which come in handy on days like today when I forgot to eat breakfast) but people just come up to me, grab some crackers and walk away. It's sad.
I only have 2 subjects of homework tonight! I am so happy. Brady has like all his locker in his backpack... That is heavy. But for me, I'm happy, and I probably get to go to the jv football game tonight. I'm excited cause that would be the first game I have been to all year. I'm worried I will be the only one there and sit by myself... Depressing. Don't you hate that thought? Of thinking you would be the only one at something? I do... I do... (Sixth Sense... Beefy...) hehe.
So, I've kinda gotten into the habit of posting songs at the end of my posts. I don't know if anyone reads them or not, but it makes me feel good to let you know all these good songs. So, today I think I will do this one...

Only One ~ Yellowcard

Broken this fragile thing now
And I can't, I can't pick up the pieces
And I've thrown my words all around
But I can't, I can't give you a reason

I feel so broken up (so broken up)
And I give up (I give up)
I just want to tell you so you know

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, there's just no one that gets me like you do
You are my only, my only one

Made my mistakes, let you down
And I can't, I can't hold on for too long
Ran my whole life in the ground
And I can't, I can't get up when you're gone

And something's breaking up (breaking up)
I feel like giving up (like giving up)
I won't walk out until you know

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only oneI let go, there's just no one who gets me like you do
You are my only my only one

Here I go so dishonestly
Leave a note for you my only one
And I know you can see right through me
So let me go and you will find someone

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, there's just no one, no one like you
You are my only, my only one
My only one
My only one
My only one
You are my only, my only one

Most of the songs I put on here also have a music video too, so just go to Yahoo, music, scroll the "all" box down to videos, and type in what you're looking for. They are good. Well, that's pretty much it for now. Good luck to the boys tonight! Love ya!
~Cuban

In Dedication to Gonzo Clarence Frankfurter, and Penelope Agusta Barbaloot

2005-09-06T17:29:00.000-07:00

^Yeah, you thought those names were dumb too didn't you? So I called Becca on Thursday night and said something about how I wished she could come up north and it turns out she was planning on coming anyways, so I was really excited. But when we were up there we did something we haven't done in a while, and something most people never get to experience. Catch turtles. The ones we caught last weekend were probably the dumbest turtles ever, maybe cause it's almost fall and they are slowing down, but they deserved dumb names too. Hence, the whole title of this blog. As always when we catch turtles we keep them for the weekend, let them "run" in out yard, and then let them go.

So, nothing really out of the ordinary happened when we were up this time. We had a campfire one night and I had told my cousin I would teach her some of the camp songs to get her a boost on all the other kids, so Bethy and Becca (kind of... hehe) sang pretty much all the best camp songs ever sung. It was really fun, and interesting trying to get "Someday" going with only three people. So, Bethy sang saprano, Becca sang alto, and I sang... tenor. It sounded good though, and my Nana loved it. Becca's a party pooper. Yes, that was random. Anyways, we had a pot-luck for our association, and us, being WELS, couldn't pass that up. The food was so good. I wish I could go back and eat more.

I was looking at Becca one morning and she was doing some weird thing with her tongue and I asked her what she was doing and she said "I'm scratching my throat." Yeah, with her tongue. It was funny, but maybe you had to be there. We also had this 2 day game of Monopoly going, and when we ran out of money in the bank we decided we had been playing it the wrong way this whole time. My brother was finally beaten... by me. Ha. He usually wins every time.

Becca gave me a cold, and I was sitting in my car last night thinking we had this 25 page college level chapter of AP US GOV due today, but it wasn't, so I read it all for nothing. Now I'm misserable, for reading it all, and the cold.

So, I'm going to go out on a limb, but since I have a cold and am completely out of it, it's alright, but... I don't think I have ever talked about my religion. And, seeing I talked about all my veiws on current events a couple posts ago, I decided it was only fair to say who I really am, and why I act the way I do. Really, I'm blessed that my parents went and checked out this religion cause it's the best thing in my life. I belong to the Wisconsin Evangelical Lutheran Synod. This teaches that there is a Father, Son, and Holy Spirit. I would go into a whole bunch more detail, but if you are really interested, post something about it, or look into the Apostles, Nicene, or Athenasian Creeds. They pretty much tell all about everything I base my life on. When I went into staff at Camp Phillip I was aspiring to be a vet, and have been pretty much my whole life, but being with kids made me think of being a teacher and now I think I may go into teaching for the WELS. In fact, later tonight I'm going to go sign up to volunteer to help with girl pioneers. It will be great, and it's a good way to serve my Lord.

Today we got all the uniforms put together for marching band. I guess Mr. Lang wants me to march too, as long as I'm down there all the time. So, I guess that's the way it will be. Another piccolo? I guess...We will start handing out uniforms tomorrow. I'm not looking forward to a bunch of people complaining to me that there uniform doesn't fit. As the good saying goes, "It will fit... and you will like it" that and some other thing about not crossing the line into the uniform room or you will die... but we won't go into that. Haha.

Today the other girl, that got into symphony band only for her playing piccolo, sucks. She had this whole piccolo solo that I had to end up playing half of it with her cause she kept screwing up so unbelieveably bad. No one knew i was playing though, they just thought it was her. It can be that way, I just don't want that to happen again. I don't care if I get credit or not. Yeah, then I asked her if she wanted me to play it with her or not and she made up some excuse that she was playing bad today and doesn't need me. Too bad, if that happenes again, it will no longer be a solo. Yes, this whole paragraph is completely downright mean, but I hate it when music should sound good, but doesn't because of something I can help. And, if you know me at all, and/or are still reading this you will just know I'm venting.

Now, I feel like there is no other way to go in this post other than to close. Love ya!
~Scara

I Have Found My Favorite Place (Or At Least In Baraboo)

2005-09-01T18:52:00.000-07:00

^ So Anna came over on Tuesday for a last fling before school started. She came over at like 12 and we sat in my kitchen and ate for a while. Then we went to my room to draw on my white board...? Sorry, Becca.. the camp picture is no more. After that we went to my basement and watched "A Knight's Tale" which is a sweet movie. Heath Ledger is hott. That was random... We were sitting there for a while watching Arthur... what Arthur? No, I meant MTV! Haha. All the sudden we just get up and go back upstairs and find these bubbles and go running out to my backyard with just our socks on and blow bubbles...? We run to the front of my yard where i take off the socks and go ride all over my driveway on my scooter while Anna pogo sticks. Then she picks up a bike and we go around my neighborhood without any shoes. Anna gets this great idea to go to this swing and just takes off her socks and leaves them in the middle of a road, then we head to my new found favorite place. This place is just a swing attached to a tree on the biggest hill in Baraboo overlooking the bluffs. It has a great view and it is very thrilling to be swinging like 10 feet over a road.

So today I started my sophomore year of high school. I decided I like the social aspect of school A LOT! I saw a bunch of my friends that I haven't seen in what seems like forever, and it was great! Yes, I am in a whole bunch of hard classes, but I say I should just get them out of the way. I mean, I have a few classes geared to be almost at, or at college level which should be... interesting...? But here's the schedule:
1st Hour- Studyhall/ Mr. Labeots
2nd Hour- Comps in Society/ Mr. Bergs
3rd Hour- Accelerated Algebra 2- Mr. Labeots { It's funny cause my first three classes I walk like 100 ft to get between them all}
4th Hour- Biology/ Ms. Lucas
5th Hour- AP US Government/ Mr. Argo
6th Hour- Symphony Band/ Mr. Lang
7th Hour- Standard Written English/ Mrs. Bockenhauer
Ahh... such is life. I pretty much hate math..."The why are you in an accelerated program?" Cause I want to GET IT OVER WITH!
After school Anna and I hung out at the lockers until Kris came-her boyfriend- and then she went to change her schedule/ go to cc. But I talked to Brady for a while. That made me happy. By the way, I'm going to homecoming with him, I don't think I mentioned that to anyone. Yay. I'm excited.
I went to Madison after school for a doctor's appointment for my leg. Yeah, it's still not better. My doctor is great though. He said now we are resolving to just beating the heck out of it to get it better...? And he shot me with this numbing stuff 6 times in about a 3 inch area today. Pretty much derectly in my knee a few times. I hate needles.
Well, tomorrow I go back to school... I already have a math assignment... and then there's a football game. But I can't go! I have to go up north. At least Gina will be there. Well, I'm outta here.
~Scara

By the way (p.s. is so over-rated) Thank you to all of you who wrote such encouraging things about the last post I wrote. That is the most comments I have ever gotten. Very appreciated.
Love ya!

Another one of my "Pretty much favorite songs"

Hear You Me~ Jimmy Eat World
There's no one in town I know
You gave us some place to go
I never said thank you for that
I thought I might get
One more chance
What would youThink of me now
So lucky, so strong, so proud?
I never said thank you for that
now I'll never have a chance
May angels lead you in
Hear you me my friends
On sleepless roads
The sleepless go
May angels lead you in
So what would youThink of me now
So lucky, so strong, so proud?
I never said thank you for that
now I'll never have a chance
May angels lead you in
Hear you me my friends
On sleepless roads
The sleepless go
May angels lead you in
May angels lead you in
May angels lead you in
And if you were
With me tonight
I'd sing to you just
One more time
A song for a heart so big
God wouldn't let it live
May angels lead you in
Hear you me my friends
On sleepless roads
The sleepless go
May angels lead you in
May angels lead you in
Hear you me my friends
On sleepless roads
The sleepless go
May angels lead you in
May angels lead you in

Reality

2005-08-26T03:03:00.000-07:00

I will now post probably the most controversial post I will ever write in my lifetime. Just to let you know.

You know how in movies you can watch bad things happen and it won't really faze you, that's just the way people have become. Immune to anything and everything this worldly- hell like place-this earth can put out. I personnaly have walked away from countless movies cause I just couldn't stand to see such bad things happen to people, even if it is just a movie, you're right, that is NOT reality. But, today I had to watch the worst thing that I have had to sit and witness in my life. My gradeschool best friend's father commited suicide on Tuesday, the 23rd. Her father was definitely not the best person, her family life was terrible, she came to school crying too many times to remember, but one in particular was when he had drunk too much. I had always known what to say, even if I had not been in the situation she was going through, I still made her stop crying and try to go on with her life. She had been on depression pills forever, and finally left my school cause she just couldn't stand MacKenze anymore. And now, today, I sat in the back of the funeral home and had to watch her being forcefully taken away from her father's casket. She loved her dad, even though, it seems, he didn't love her. How selfish can someone be to just end their own life? True, he had made some bad choices in the past, but nothing, NOTHING, can give you a right to leave this terrible earth without the Lord's consent. And today? Standing room only at the funeral home. He must have had some people to live for. True, I did not go for him, even though he did co-coach my basketball team one year, but I went for Jasmine, the girl I had conforted so many times in the bathroom of our school, while also trying to keep her from being late for class. And now, I wept uncontrolably, there is nothing that I, nor anyone else can say to her right now, for few have been in that situation. I couldn't stand to hear my friend yell and scream over something she couldn't control, and I hope to never hear, or see anything like that again in my life.

To all of you reading this who are against the war, I have meant to write this for a while. Recent events have just now prompted me to write what's really on my mind politicaly. How can people want to take our troops out of Iraq, the place we destroyed? Our human minds think that we should just go in there, do enough damage for a while, and automatically take our loved ones out of there just because we fear for them and want them safe. Well, you know what? The Iraqi people need them right now. Even though you may not have anything to say to the troops because you have never been in that situation, they KNOW what they are doing is right! The Lord called them to be there, and that is how they are serving their country. If they didn't want to serve their country in that way, then they wouldn't have gone into the armed forces. Do NOT blame this on President Bush. You can't say anthing to him because I know for a fact you have not been in the position of president recently. How hard do you think it would be to see people die because you put them there, even though it wasn't your intention? Did you know that it's congress that actually declares war? Yeah. If you're blaming the president for bad things that have come into your life, why don't you go ahead and blame all of congress too? The president needs your support now more then ever. He doesn't need these anti-war movements and crap like that. He's only human, like you, and me, and even my friends dad, who took his life in his own hands, which is probably the most cowardly thing one can do in a bad situation. Do not be cowards and blame people for things that had to happen. There is no one to blame here. Support our troops. Pray for them, send them care packages, write them a letter, it doesn't matter. What they need to know is that we support them because then maybe they will do their job with more intensity and get home sooner.

Value life, you never know when it will end.

Now, in theme of this whole post...

Maybe It's Maybeline~ Relient K
People make mistakeswe find that everything breaks
and it always is the same, gotta find someone to blame
and these errors that we make (cause we're all human earthquakes)
yeah, we made the hurricane, yet we're not the one's to blame?
we point the finger even though it's not polite
we condemn the son of God (we're hoping two wrongs make a right)
maybe it is them
or, maybe it is me
or, maybe it's maybeline

people make mistakes
we took the apple from the snake
and it always is the same:
gotta find someone to blame
our reputations were at stake,
but the guilt we could not take
America's gone done the drain
the president's fault again?
we point the finger even though it's not polite
we condemn the son of God (we're hoping two wrongs make a right)
maybe it is them
or, maybe it is me
or, maybe it's maybeline
the truth is, excuses are lame
accept consequence
accept the blame
we're all sinners
we're all unclean
maybe we're born with it
or maybe it's maybeline

See, excuses are the craziest things a person could say. For anything. I hope this post finds you all well. Please pray for Jasmine that she stays strong in her faith. She needs your prayers now more than ever. We love you and are here for you Jasmine.
~Your's truly

Pretty much my favorite song-

For the Moments I Feel Faint~ Relient K
Am I at the point of no improvement?
What of the death I still dwell in?
I try to excel, but I feel no movement.
Can I be free of this unreleasable sin?

[Chorus:]Never underestimate my Jesus.
You're telling me that there's no hope.
I'm telling you your wrong.
Never underestimate my Jesus
When the world around you crumbles
He will be strong, He will be strong.

I throw up my hands"Oh, the impossibilities"
Frustrated and tired
Where do I go from here?
Now I'm searching for the confidence
I've lost so willingly
Overcoming these obstacles is overcoming my fear

[Chorus]

I think I can't, I think I can't
But I think you can, I think you can
I think I can't, I think I can't
But I think you can, I think you can
Gather my insufficiencies and
place them in your hands, place them in your hands, place them in your hands

For Jasmine

# 52

2005-08-22T16:10:00.000-07:00

^ I was wanting to write this grand post when I reached my 50th post, but I wasn't paying any attention (imagine... me?not paying attention?). I wish I could throw a party with words... but that's crazy.

By the way, Andrew and I decided that the reason why he remembers a lot of things from his childhood that the rest of my family doesn't is because he is crazy. We think that is also the reason why he sits downstairs and laughs to himself while watching Seinfeld... by himself. The thing is that he thinks about things so much that in his head they are funny. He also thinks about things in his past that would get him sympathy now so much that they just become reality. Funny theory isn't it? He's going to his first soccer practice for college today.

This is something we found on a website today, that will also go in my locker:
"sometimes i take a carton of eggs out of the fridge and look at it and think that maybe one day i'll crack an egg and a little baby chicken will fall out, and i'll wash him off and raise him indoors

and then... then i'll have a friend"

That is just so funny I had to make you read it.
Ok, now that you think that I, too, am crazy, and you may be strongly comtimplating why you keep being friends with me, I will leave again. I will be back, don't worry. Love ya!
~Myself

Windows

2005-08-21T21:18:00.000-07:00

So, as some may know, I write poems. You, or I will ever know why I write them or what my reasoing is, but they are always there. I sit in my bed when I can't go to sleep, which is often, and I write poems. Mostly it's when I'm stressed, and this one, I see as the same. But this one you can take as you wish, people see my writing how they want to, even if it's not how I at first intended it to mean. Now that I did that whole Shakesperean intro thing, on with the poem (On Becca's recomendation)

Windows

Run through the woods
Cause thta's what you love to do.
Trees reach up to places
You wish you could go.
You do what you want
Because this is where you go,
When you want to be yourself.
It lurks in the air-
Something isn't the same.
You walk to the edge of the woods,
To places you haven't come to know.
There it is.
The glass wall.
Never seeing anything like this before,
You run with all your might,
And hit the wall hard.
Lying on the ground of your woods
You come to the realization
That even though you have been yourself
You don't even know who you are...
You are unsure of everything in
The woods you knew so well.
Sitting up abruptly because of the feeling someones watching you,
You gaze around,
And standing up, you stumble, feeling your way along this wall.
Looking for a way out.
You come to a corner... a corner?
Two glass walls meet.
You follow the adjacent wall,
Still looking for a way
To get out of this world
You know so well.
The last window of glass
runs perpendicular
to the ones already explored.
Panicing, you run to the place
From where you came.
There is no way out, or so it seems.
You sit in the middle of your woods
The woods you know so well.
What do you do about this painful realization?
How do you find the way out of this
Woods you have quickly come to hate?
Break the glass?
Explore the wall you did not follow?
Call for help?
Is there anyone there?
A rustle in the trees above
Yes, there is. There all along, in the woods you know.

Ehhh... It was probably really late when I wrote this, but if you have anything to say, let me hear it. I like criticism. Once again, Love ya!
~Scara

Bethy! WHERE ARE YOUR PANTS?!?

2005-08-21T20:36:00.000-07:00

^Hilarious story, and you will learn a lesson too. Kinda like fairy tales or whatever, like Little Bunny Foo-Foo. The one who hit the mice on the head even when the fairy god-mother told him not too and then when he did it again she turned him into a newt. Well, Bethy (I will now call her Beefy cause that's what she goes by around me. Oh, and by the way, this is Beefy, Becca's little sister). Ok, so we were tubing on my lake up north a couple years ago, and they had a friend up , Allie. When we tube it gets kinda rough, and Beefy just kinda fell off once, but held on for a while cause we thought she could get back on. It turns out she couldn't. So when we stop the boat and she gets on Allie, who was on the tube with her yells "Bethy! Where are your pants!" Becca and I were sitting in the boat spotting so we didn't quite cath the whole conversation, but sure enough, Beefy got on the tube and she lost he swim shorts. I guess when she was hanging off and we thought she could get back on and she didn't, in the process lost her pants. But it was very funny. Now the lesson of the story children, is to wear shorts over your swimsuit bottoms, or tie your shorts really tight, therefore ensuring yourself of not having this brought up every time we go tubing or have a family get together. Not saying we pick on her at all.
Ok, not that I want to have a Beefy themed post today or anything, but I have another very funny story I would like to tell. So we were sitting in our bunkbeds one night and Becca and I were doing a whole confessional thing of how we were always jelous of eachother (Oh, I forgot to tell you that Beefy "has no friends" and that that is another thing we pick on her for). Well, all the sudden Beefy just says "Guys... I'm jelous of you two's friendship cause I don't have any friends" Haha... She admits it. It was great and we laughed for a very long time.
Well, the rest of the week was fun. Becca and I made up a new word we will call eachother. Fellow. Yeah, I called her that once and she though that only guys were fellows, I can't really tell her differently, but I said well, "fellowships" include girls. So, now we are fellows.
Brad came on Friday. That whole weekend went by too fast. We went tubing like every day. It was so fun yesteday cause we had two big tubes going with Gina, my neighbor, and her friend, Jimmie, and brad and I. It was insane. We were falling all the time. It was sweet this week cause I got really close to Gina. She even wants me to come to her little sibs week at Marquette. It's awesome though cause she has cancer and she isn't supposed to go in the water, but she went anyways. It made me week how she can be soo sick and be so strong at the same time. I admire her a lot. God news though, she only has like 4 treatments left. I'm so happy for her.
I came on tonight and I read my comments and This is what Evan wrote "I love Uncle Derek". It made my day cause the comments got funnier and funnier. Wow. Alright, well that just proves that my freinds are the fo shizzle. Love ya!
~Cuban

The Chickens Are Restless

2005-08-11T17:04:00.000-07:00

^ Sometimes I feel so foolish just posting random posts. I feel like I am torturing all of my friends by making them read all the crap I write. This posts title comes from a "Far Side" book, written by Gary Larson. He a guy who writes a bunch of funny random comics and is the inspiration for a lot of things I do. Well, not really, but it seems like we have a brain wave.

Question: If a tree falls in the forest and no one's around, and it hits a mime, does anyone care?

So, this weekend I'm going up north, and all next week, and probably the weekend after that. Sometimes I just want to stay home, and hang out with my friends that I don't get to see much of in the summer. I can only ski so much on my leg before it completely goes out. You can only pretend to get lost with your cousins in the woods so many times before it's not too fun anymore. But a ray of hope shines through,. and that is that Becca is going to be up this weekend, and Uncle Derek. Everyone loves Uncle Derek. Maybe we'll get a huge game of pit going or something. Family games like that can get rough, even violent. It is funny. I guess my aunt even broke a window playing spoons when they were little, and pit keeps up the whole neighborhood for endless hours. I'm looking forward to the major cut-throat tubing action, and some Whacker of course. If you don't know what cut-throat tubing is... it's pretty self explainitory. It's my brother, and I, and anyone else who is up there, getting on those tubes and trying to knock eachother off with all out might into the water. It's sweet. And Whacker is this insanely fun game Andrew, Becca, Beefy and I made up one year. It should be patented. Well, I'm not sure if i'm going to write again before I leave, so have a great week and what-not. Love ya!
~Cuban

Baraboo (A Post About Baraboo)

2005-08-10T22:03:00.000-07:00

^ I see I have mislead some of you, who have not been to Baraboo, that it is bigger than it is in reality. I guess that Schleef wants to know if we have our own mall. I wish, but no. The closest mall we have is in Madison. I make frequent trips there, since that is the closest shopping vacinity other than Kohls. I'm not saying that I don't enjoy Kohls, or the trips there, but the style is always the same and you and to get sick of it.
The rest of Baraboo... Well, we have a mini mall, if that counts for anything. The stores that are in the mini mall are like the "Sleep Loft" and "Wild Bird Barn" and crazy little whimsy stores like that.
Baraboo is only about 10,711 people big. I don't know if that is the right grammer. We have a Wal-Mart, but everyone here thinks Wal-Mart is trying to take over the world, possibly starting with our little own town. True, kids used to just got hang out at Wal-Mart, but that is over-rated.
We have a Theater, which is very old... They show some good movies, I went to see Charlie and the Chocolate Factory there. Good news though, it only costs like $4 for day time shows.
Why do I go on like this about Baraboo? I have no idea. Possibly because I am in a jungle of marshmallows and am about to be eaten by those crazy monkey people that torment my dreams day and night. Mayhaps there is a guy standing in the corner of my room ordering my every movement. I could be really hiped up on ibprofen. NAH... The actually reason could be that I am at Hartwigs and there is nothing really else to do, unless I want to go play video games with the boys, which I haven't ever really been into. This one time I was over here and no one was over except Andrea, my brother, and I. We sat there drinking Kool-Aid, and eating popcorn. Since our lack of conversations always turn into something about Mr. Flugge(a teacher at my old school), this one also took that turn. He was talking about how "Salt brings out the flavor in things" I decide to put a little in my Kool-Aid, just to see what would happen. I pretend that it is this miracle stuff and talk about how good it was. Andrea decides to try for herself, since she never believes me. But when she puts salt in something she goes a bit over board. She definitely dumped the whole bowl of popcorn slat in her drink. It was funny.
I didn't answer myself many times this time. I'm happy. Well... I havefilled my boring times. I will not bore you like this again, but thank you for reading. Love ya!
!Stigen

Noah's Ark!

2005-08-10T18:05:00.000-07:00

^ Today I went with Becca, Beefy, and their friend M.O. (Amber) to Noah's Ark. I call her M.O. because, as I used to be called that, she said some dumb things that didn't need to be mentioned cause they were obvious. Hence, M.O., Master of the Obvious. Noah's Ark was great, as usual. Becca and I reminisced about camp the whole time. The new ride is sweet, not over-rated as I thought it would be.
Tomorrow Jillian is going to take me out to lunch then we're going to go see a movie, I'm quite excited.
Oh, did I tell you that I go for my lisence on Aug. 16th? Yeah, in Rhinelander. I'm really really nervous, and growing more nervous every day.
Later tonight I'm going to Hartwigs. Do you like how I'm putting in all this random information? I don't
So, I just noticed how good it feels when you don't have to make an excuse to not go somewhere you don't really want to go, cause you really do have plans. It makes me feel so much better knowing I didn't lie to them to get out of something. Not saying I do this much, eh... you're right... that did sounds bad.
Well, to wrap up this post, and to get through my whole slew (slew... I like that word) anyways, slew of pictures, I will grace you with yet another picture taken by your's truly.
Yes, I actually did take that picture... I was proud. That is my lake up north, and yes, it is a blessing to half-way live up there.

Yay! Pictures!!!

2005-08-08T17:22:00.000-07:00

This is when Becca, Andrew, and I went to Culver's before Andrew's graduation party and filled out a bunch of comment cards for Devon and Alyssa.
And that guy by himself... That is Devon. He used to never let Andrew take pictures of him, and yet, I have a bunch!

That picture of a flag, is actually a pirate flag behind a huge icecream cone. Ironic? I thought so.

Ahh... I Figured Out How To Download Pictures!

2005-08-08T17:08:00.000-07:00

So, this is Becca and I at my brother's graduation party wearing our new Chuck the Chicken Shirts.

Something Clever and Witty

2005-08-05T17:31:00.000-07:00

^ This is what Jake-A-Roo wrote on my shirt at camp when he had nothing better to write. I don't have a title. It's a dissapointment, I know.
So, I just had to let you all know the great news about my leg. I know you were worried... maybe not. Most likely not. Well, I DO NOT have to have surgery. More therapy type things for like 3 months and a brace should do it, I guess. But that does make me happy cause I'm very bad with needles and I know they would have to use some if I would have had surgery.
I went to the mall today. It's kinda not as fun shopping with your mom as you thought it was when you were little. I mean, I don't dislike it at all, but I just with some other people would come with so my mom would be convinced that these clothes DO fit right, and yes... they are in style. These guys were going up an escalator in JCPenny and were trying to talk to me, they were like 25, and then they said something about me being with my mom. Good thing I'm only 16 and it IS acceptable. So, I laughed. Pretty much in their faces.
I like laughing at guys when they mess up when trying to look impressive. This guy up north was showing off on his jet ski in front of my house and he almost fell off. I had all I could handle trying not to laugh too loud and stay on my tube at the same time. In conclusion, girls don't really like it when guys show off, other than to make fun of them. Just keep that in mind. I personally like people for who they are.
I'm going up north again this weekend. I guess I can ski all I want with this brace. It makes me super happy. The only sad thing is that I don't think anyone is going to be up, and all my friends from here work. Hey, if you really want to surprise me and be my best friend forever, you should just show up up north. Call my phone, I'll give you directions. That's it for now I think. Love ya!
~Sara
Oh, yeah! I had McDonald's again today at the mall and it reminded me of when we stopped there at like 11:00 going from camp to Racine last week. Crazy times.

There's A Part Of Me That's Blessed, And That's The Part That's Going To Stay.

2005-08-03T22:14:00.000-07:00

^ I really like that song, and in a way it could have to do with my day, or any of my days for that matter. I take my life in my own hands so many times without even realizing it, but I seem to forget that God could do anything to me that he wants. Good, or bad.
So, I was on the internet at like 9:00 talking to Devon, when Anna comes on and asks if I want to come over to spend the night. Heck yes! So, I get over there and we watch some TV. I tell her all the important stuff that is too crazy to be put into this blog and then we go to her room to color on purses with permenant marker. Hmm... Max Henning, (I don't even know him) calls ANna and says he and Nick Quinn are driving around Wynsong and it's like 12:00 so they of course stop at Anna's to say hi. Whatever is with Baraboo kids just being out around town at all times of the night is over my head.
SO if you don't get the Wisconsin State Journal, and the Skinny... you are missing out. The funniest thing since "Nubby" last night, was in there today. So, a Brooklyn grand jury indicted a Brighton Beah, NY., man on hate-crime charges for singing, "Hi-ho, hi-ho, it's off to work we go" at his neighbors, 3'8" Debra Shea and her 3'6" daughter. Great story. I laughed for a long time.
VBS was boring, but i left the room i was working with... yeah, just left... and went to help Jon's class with crafts again.
Then I went to Lake Red-Stone with Jo. It was so fun. I haven't been there in forever! I spent a lot of time jumping off rocks into the waterfall. It was thrilling. I'm super tired right now though.
When I'm tired I talk really dumb. Like I actually tried a different comeback other than, "No, you're dumb!" to my brother. We were talking about the picture he drew yesterday and how my dad was going to date it and put it in his office at work. I was like, "Yeah, date it 8-3-05" And I thought this was the funniest thing ever! It turns out it was completely ridiculous cause it was actually the date he drew it on. Then I laughed uncontrollably again.
I took a nap. Yeah, I was THAT tired. Then I took a bath, and now I'm writing this. My room is a disaster and it's kinda bumming me out. I have no bed at the time, so I sleep in the computer room. It's sad, I finally am home for a while and my room isn't put together. Such is life, I don't try to figure it out anymore. Well, when you have it figured out.. let me know, I would love to hear your insight. Love ya!
~Sara

"You Should Just Be Amish!"

2005-08-02T20:44:00.000-07:00

^So I was tlaking to my friend who owns like one of the biggest farms in Baraboo and he was complaining about how tired he was from hauling bales of hay or whatever. I just thought about how bad it would be to be amish and have to do all that by hand/horse. SO i told him to be amish. I personlly would like to be amish. They are so cool. He didn't like that idea though.
Today I've been really lazy and I decided I'm completely thankful that I wasn't home all summer cause today would be a good example of what a waste of time it would be. I mean, sitting watching tv and then going on the comp back and forth is not my favortie thing to do. I think I have chronic boredom sickness.
After dinner Andrew was supposed to be writing some thank-you for something or another, but he decided to draw one of his "famous" pictures of this guy who only has one arm and he wore a shirt that said "Nubby" on it. It was funny. Andrew draws these random pictures all the time of like people falling into cracks in the earth and what-not. And everyone thinks they are the best because he drew them. That and his writing. I can write too. But I don't show it to everyone. Only the exceptionally priviledged. Anyways the picture had a duck on it so I commenced singing "The Duck Song". By the way, I found the lyrics to "Here I Am to Worship" and was really excited.
Now I'm having a conversation with my "ex". The one who came to Andrew's graduation and we thought it would be funny if we pretended he was my boyfriend. It was funny cause my family was actually dissapointed I wasn't going out with him. It was also really funny when they kept mistaking him for my brother. Maybe that's why Andrew dyed his hair brown. I finally had to break it to Devon that he was too good for me. And now I'm confusing myself yet again. I'll stop being annoying now. Love Ya!
~Cuban

" In Comparison To My Pet Bumble Bee"

2005-08-02T15:58:00.000-07:00

^ Last night Nico just showed up at my house at like 9:45 to bring me some cd's he burned and we just hung out talking to people on my computer the whole night. We started talking to Kyle O. and I was saying something about how cool something was in comparison to my pet bumble bee. Then I went and typed something about a pet bumble bee on Nico's messenger (cause we were both signed in) and Kyle is not the most intelligent guy so he was really confused. Then we both started talking about dogs and he accused us of conspiracy. Then it was 11:00 and Nico left.
So now I'm contemplating if I want to go to camp tomorrow just to help in the kitchen and stay for a while cause VBS isn't very fun at all and I feel useless. Today, for example, I walked around pretty much the whole time and did nothing constructive except have fun with Jon's art class. All the lady who I work with has me do is like clean up things she doesn't really want to, or take the kids to wash their hands. It feels like a waste of my child handling-Bob Ditter watching- staff training- ability. Jake wanted me to come to camp this week cause Christy and Renee were going to be there and it would be a big Igl reunion. Now I'm sad I stayed here. The only thing keeping me here right now is how hot it would be in the kitchen, telling my friends I would be home this week and them wanting to do something with me, and I don't really know what to say if I called camp. I'd figure that last one out, but yeah...
I wish I could live at camp.
I went to the chiropracter today. He is going to reffer me to some sports doctor in Madison so I can maybe avoid surgery. I think I will take the opportunity.
Did I tell you I called Becca on Sunday? Yeah, that's the second time I've talked to her on the phone in one month as compared to me not talking to her on the phone before that... EVER! We had some in depth conversations. Kinda... How in depth could she and I get? I mean... It's Becca and I we're talking about, we share a brain to begin with.
So I had some other funny stories to tell you, but they have all slipped my mind.
Now I'm excited cause I found the lyrics to Here I am to Worship, which is a camp song. ANd I'm going to go cause I've been writing this post for like an hour now and as you can see, I've only gotten this far. I'm crazy! Love you all!
~Sara

"Caleb, how big were you when you were born?"" I was an inch away from the world record"

2005-08-01T16:31:00.000-07:00

^Ha, so this whole last week I have been in Racine for Camp Phillipp day camp. The people that were there with me were Christina Weilland, Ryan Zicke... I don't know if I spelled that right, forgive me if I'm wrong... and M. Caleb. We were sitting in the partor's basement one night all just talking and eating and having a great time. It's kinda fun to pick on Caleb at times. Well... if you don't know Caleb... I should let you know that he is a giant. Ryan is hilarious... He doesn't really seem like it at times, but it's funny. Well, we're just sitting there and all the sudden Ryan asks, "Caleb... How big were you when you were born?" Caleb,"I was one inch away from the world record" It was so funny!
Anyways, as I was saying... We were in Racine which is like this ghetto town just outside of Milwaukee. It's like 2 hours from camp at least and being in the backseat with Caleb and Christina does not make the time pass any faster. Not that it wasn't fun, it was just really tight quarters. Yeah. Stpooing at McDonalds and singing to Sy's camp cd was really fun. But then Caleb started complaining about all the good bands and saying how whiny they were. He loves Weezer. Ryan and Sy are crazy drivers. It was so funny. But they were't like crazy bad... they were crazy while being good. Hard to explain, I know. We went back and forth to camp twice in the week. Elliott described it as hardcore... which I think is an understatement. But it was great hanging out with the staff for a couple hours.
My "campers" were insane. Even Sy said they were the worst "cabin" there. Which made me feel better cause I just thought I was the suckiest counselor ever. The kids were just so defiant of everything I said. It made me really mad/sad.
*my leg just completely spazed*
Yeah, on the way home Sy got really tired and I asked him if he wanted me to drive, thinking he would say no, but he said yes and we pulled off the interstate right away. So then I freaked out, but ended up not driving anways cause we had a trailer. It was scary, cause then I had to keep him awake till we got to Portage. I could have pulled the trailer. My parents just underestimate my driving ability.
Anyways...Well, if little kids weren't enough that week, I got to go up north and spend oddles of time with my little cousins that we "got lost" in the woods that one time. Good news though, well kinda, I went slalom skiing last Saturday. It made me really happy, until my leg hurt again. I forgot to mention that I had to get injected with Cortizone to make it heal, but if that doesn't work... which it seems it's not, I have to have surgery. Bummer.
So, I got into town last night and saw this name for some company on the door of this building (How vague was that) But, that's not tha point of the story. The guy's name was Dirk Topham. Becca and I used to think Steve was the funniest name, well, I'm sorry... But Dirk beats out Steve in the funny name contest any day.
Now I'm home, and helping out with VBS at my church although it is run so poorly and not very fun compared to camp. Call me, we'll hang out. Love Ya!
~Scara Scigen

Sweet 16...

2005-07-19T18:40:00.000-07:00

^ I hope you all understand that one. Bec, if you don't I'm going to slaughter you. I'm kidding... but seriously. Haha. Well, yesterday was my sixteenth birthday. It was pretty sweet all in all. I took a whole bunch of pictures on my digital camera. I just wish I knew how to download some of them on here. Hmm... if any of you know, which I know you do, I would also like to know. Could you poast a comment and tell me? That would be sweet!
Alright on with the show. I live in Baraboo, I have to say things like "On with the show," it's a must. But speaking of things people say... Why do people always ask you if you feel older on your birthday. We all know it's not true, and the person asking you knows it's not true, so why do they continue to ask you that annoying question in which people always give the same answer. Wow. There's your next Seinfeld episode when that show comes back and they get out of jail.
ANYWAYS... So, I threw together this birthday party for myself in the like three days before my b-day. There's where I wish I was home more. I had no time to do anything in preperation. I woke up at like 9:30 yesterday morning, cause I didn't want to sleep the day away. When you sleep late it feels like the day is useless. Then my mom walked into my room and said to come look outside. She also said don't expect a car... I just wanted an elephant! Well, truns out there was no elephant, but one of my friends came over at like 4:30 in the morning and put up a whole bunch of signs and balloons and colored my driveway. It was cool. Almost made up for there not being any elephant. Then I ate some yogurt for breakfast and took my time getting ready, and went on the computer cause I have no life. Haha. Mary called me and said they were having a "Movie Day" so I went over there at like 1:00 and watched "The Day Before Tomorrow" (which is an alright novie, but I don't not like any movie... so) Then I came home to find that my good friend Robert who moved to Chicago wanted help moving his stuff back into his house nextdoor. I was happy. He's like a brother of mine, since he's lived close to me like all my life.
Then like Anna, Jillian, an Brady came over and we watched Seinfeld for a while, and then we ate pizza. All the sudden we just started climbing that big tree in the front of our house, then we saw Anna O., so we went to say hi. I also met her little brother. In Brian's words..."He's so hott... you could fry an egg on him!" Haha... Brian, you jokester. It was crazy... Becca called me! I was so excited, you may think we would talk on the phone all the time. No, I was never into talking on the phone and neither was she, this was the first time we actually had a conversation on the phone. It was great, and I was happy.
We were sitting in my front yard after talking to Anna O. when all the sudden the middle child of the neighbors across the street just starts staring at us. I saw it and started waving like a crazy person since I don't know these people and they probably think that about me anyways
(But I do feel good when I always look nice and the parents are sitting out there smoking in their bathrobes when I leave for school. Poeple who don't take care of themselves and are so confident to wear a bathrobe and smoke outside are crazy. They are actually making themselves look like fools... Only they are the ones who don't see it.) Then the littlest boy saw me waving and just starts sprinting across their front yard and starts talking about how he can cross the street by himself and how his brother just got a new paintball gun. Then he just fell over... In the middle of the driveway, he just FALLS over! I feel bad, but I laughed. It was hilarious. Almost as funny as his brother spitting like three times in five seconds (so we concluded.) He thinks he's so cool cause he knows how to spit. What a dork. Speaking of dorks... My mom is trying to convince me that "Dorks are 'in'" She saw this add written in the paper that they are... but this article was written by an OLD person, so how do they know what they are talking about anyways?!?! She just called me into the dining room and said that my dad looked like Kip when he was younger. How she thinks this is a good thing... I don't know, but hey, Anner and I figure she thinks what she wants. Yes, mom, dorks are "in".
After we were sick of watching the little boys make fools of themselves across the street Anna decides she wants to go swinging on the swings at the park a couple blocks away from my house. Hey, that sounds like fun... Yeah, it was. We took a whole bunch of pics there. It was so funny. I went down this slid and hit my head on the top. Then I laughed cause it was my 16th birthday and I climbed trees and went to the park... and had a great time!
We came home and decided to play badminton in the dark which is always a pleasent challenge. Anna and Jillian kept leaving me and Brady outside. Hmm... what were they planning. Long story, don't want to bore you. Then I climbed another tree where no one can find me and scared my dad and Brady. Then Meg came. She ate a lot then was cold, so we made a fire and I opened my presents. I got the Best of Will Farrel Saturday Night Live. I'm happy. Oh yeah, and a Napolean Dynamite poster, and many other countless gifts. It was a great day. We dropped everyone off and on the way past my house to take somone home Jillian say, "Hey, there's a whole bunch of people on your porch!" So I get home at like 10:30 and Robert, Drew, Mary, Sara Edwards, Feena, and Brandon were all at my house eating cake. They were there for a long time.
Today I had to wake up "early" to go to Sauk for a doctors appointment. I get there and sit down and the doctor sees that my leg is not getting any better, so she suggests injecting some Cortozone into my leg, hopefully braking up the scar tissue. Ewww... I hate needles. I tired to talk my mom out of doing it today, but with no luck. It hurt. They said if it doesn't get better they have to fix it surgically. Bummer.
Then I went to Mary's and watched 50 First Dates... which is a good movie. Now I'm going to clean my room and go to Meg's. Love ya!
~Scara

Pizza For Breakfast? (Not That I Wouldn't Like It... Just Let Me Tell You The Story)

2005-07-17T01:58:00.000-07:00

^Haha. So I got back from Florida yesterday. The night before last night, I pulled an all nighter cause we had to be on the bus at 3:25... A.M. I was completely exhausted from the whole 3 days or so before, so when I came home I called some of my friends ate lunch and then I went to bed at like 1:45.I woke up at 7:00, and walked into the living room where my dad was sitting. I asked where my mom was and he said she was shopping and then picking up some pizza. *grind, grind, grind* (Those are the wheels in my head) "Pizza for breakfast?" Yeah, I thought it was Sunday when it was really only 7:00 at night. Then I laughed.
So Florida was great. I got to hang out with all my friends from camp cause I wanted to get away from my youth group at all costs. MacKenze was hanging around me a lot. That made me mad cause I shut her out of my life a long time ago. But she did tell me exactly what happened the night she had her stomach pumped because she got too drunk. I still am shutting her out. She will only bring me down.
So, I got to church at 3:15 in the morning as planned. I got stuck in a car with MacKenze. Then she sat by me in the plane. I got kinda bummed cause everyone wanted to go to MGM instead of Magic Kingdom, which is the best park. So, I said I would go to MGM cause that's where everyone wanted to go. Turns out a bunch of people changed their mind on the bus and wanted to go to Magic Kingdom instead, so I was happy. Then everyone chnaged back excpet Mack and I, So I went there with her, Brian, and Christi. It was great fun though. Only 4 people and no little cousins. It was heavenly! The only bad thing that happened was when it rained and everything shut down for a while. Brian and I started singing in one of the lines and Mack thought we were freaks. That's another thing that bugs me about her. She thinks singing is dumb. Idiot, if you ask me.
One of the best things happened after the Heidiboxer concert. Everyone from camp all got together and sang. It was awesome. It was like training week, but better... in a way. It was so fun just haning out with Brian, Christi, and Renee. The first night we walked around and sat in a hammok... ALL of us. It was great. Then Brady called me and that was cool cause I haven't talked to him in a long time. We decided for my b-day tomorrow a bunch of us are going to get together. I'm excited. Then we saw and aligator in the water. It was sweet. How many aligators do you actually see in the wild? I guess there are like as many of aligators in Florida as there are deer in Wisconsin. Crazy. Haha, we were riding to Magic Kingdom and I saw a deer and started freaking out. It was funny and eveyone on the bus laughed at me.
My brother burned Anatomy of the Tongue and Cheek for me. I decided I love that cd. And I decided that "For the Moments I Feel Faint" is the best song to describe my life ever written. Heidiboxer is a great band too. They are like Coldplay, but christian. I bought a shirt of theirs and it's super cool. haha... "super cool" I'm a dork. This whole youth rally thing has got to be a great publicity thing for them.
Well, now I have a whole week off of my busy life. I'll probably get bored, knowing me. Alright, I'm outta here. Love ya!
~Sara

This Is Me Seriously Mad.

2005-07-12T20:34:00.000-07:00

^ If you don't know me as well as you think... I'm not one who gets mad easily. If I do... I smile and say," This is me mad!" Right now, I am saying it seriously. I am mad. I'm in one of those listen to Linkin Park, scream, and wonder why there are such incompetent people in this world. Yes, I am building this situation up a little... but I am mad.
The Florida thing. You know how I didn't have much hope for it happening. The reason being was because we had a "chartered flight" which meant we would have a plane to ourselves. We just got a call saying that there is NO chartered flight because there was no pilot. Well, the people who were supposed to buy the tickets then bought tickets on regular planes, but for different flights. I just don't know why we didn't have all this setteled MONTHS ago. now... there are some major downsides here. First bad thing... my brother and I are not on the same flight. Second bad thing... there are obviously two flights... 6:00a.m. and 10:00a.m. Now guess who is on what flight. Yeah, I'm on the 6:00A.M. one! I have to be at church at 3:30. Bummer!Now... I know God must have a reason for this happening. I mean... He must have had a reason for making all those people late getting to work on the day of 9/11. But I just don't understand right now. I'm happythe whole thing may happen. But, I'm scared right now to tell you the truth. I'm scared to not be on a plane with anyone in my family. I don't know what to do. The whole plan will probably change again in the next two hours for all I know. Now I have to go pack and go to bed I guess. Waking up that early is not my cup of tea.
Well, now that I wrote down all my frustrations... please pray for me... I will tell you what I did the rest of today. I wanted to go to the fair with a bunch of my friends so bad. I called like all of them but no one was home. I felt friendless. I finally ended up going to go watch to dog show there with Johanna and Emmalee. It was boring so we walked around for a while. Now I'm sitting here feeling like I should be doing something productive... but I don't know what. I don't even know if my mom would be willing to let me go on that flight by myself... so once again I do not have the motivation to pack. Well, as I said pray for me. Call me. I just need to hear from my friends. I just wish everything would work out, and soon. Love you all!
~Cuban

Does Anyone Want To Go To The Fair With Me Tonight?

2005-07-12T18:04:00.000-07:00

^I'm kidding... but seriously... Does anyone want to go? I'm leaving tomorrow for Florida so I can't go the rest of this week. I don't want to go with my brother... that's all I know. So if you can come, just call me.
I went shopping today! It was only at Kohl's, but hey... I love that store. I got some new shoes. They are grey and pink Vans. I am really excited about them. It was also like 70% off my obssesion. Earings. I got all of them for between like $3-$6. Four pairs! They are all dangly ones too, so I am happy.
No ones home! I've been calling like everyone to see if they want to go to the fair. No one's answering their phones! Garrrr... "There was someone on our team who thought he was a pirate?"- Dodgeball
So, tomorrow I leave my house once again. This time out of state... hopefully. Why do I say that? Because these people were supposed to buy plane tickets to get us to Orlando Fl., for the youth rally. They put it off again and again... and they have some creditability problems. Now we don't know if they REALLY chartered us a private plane to fly our youth group down there. Sounds a bit fishy... I know.
Well, I have to go eat. Call my phone when I'm gone. I'd love to hear from you! Love ya!
~Scara
p.s. Anna Stro got her permit... Stay off the roads! I love ya Anna!

" I Wasn't Talking To You!"

2005-07-10T21:15:00.000-07:00

^ Another great quote we started in the kitchen. Kitchen is actually only as fun as you make it. Luckily we had Schleef, Jake, Renee, Christi, and I all working in one day. Back to my crazy life... But it's been a great one so far. We left off on last Saturday. What I forgot to tell you about there was that we played Pit which always creates a fiascal. Then we were talking about how I spell my name "Sara" without an "H" and everything. They decided to pronounce my name "SarAHhh..." and you have to have jazz hands while saying this. Then we talked about all the things you could do with a chicken. Like eat it or chuck it or ride it... Yeah that would be a big chicken. Anyways.... Sunday!

Sunday (One Week Ago Today)
I woke up somewhat early and got in the car to drive to camp. Remember we were still up north, and we kinda underestimated the time. We stopped at Culvers for a smoothie and then we were off schedule so my dad had to speed to get me there on time. I got there and had the meeting and found out I was in Chelsey's cabin with 6- 9year olds. We did the whole name tag thing and one of the little girls little brothers came and started pulling my ponytail and winking at me... Kinda weird... But I laughed. Then that night one of my girls told me she was super afraid of storms. I thought 'Good thing it doesn't look like it's going to storm!' Well... It did. I was still awake when she called the first time, but Chelsey wasn't. All the sudden I hear, "Sara... I'm scared!" coming from across the room. I breath the whole Napolean breath type thing quietly and get down from my bunk, walk all the way across the room, and climb up her ladder. I tried to tell her everything was fine, but she kept being scared the whole night long. I didn't get to sleep til like 2:30. Then Chelsey took over. I had a rough first night.

Monday (Last Monday!)
I worked in the kitchen. It was so fun! Seriously a lot of people don't like the kitchen, but it was fine. I mean... The dishwasher didn't work half the time and I had to wash all 100 or so trays by hand before they went through the dishwasher... But Christi and Renee and Schleef and Jake were a blast. Esa was there that day too and it started when I didn't understand a word that she said and the girls told her that no one understand what she says and she told the "I wasn't talking to you!" Then she asked me why I smile all the time so I tried not to. Jake didn't like this so he's just like" Smile... You look ridiculous!" Now if you know him... this is really funny. The way he talks is great. Then on one of my breaks after washing dishes Schleef and I went to talk to Evan and I walk into the kitchen and hear Renee saying something about me making out with Schleef. Then we laughed cause I was confused and it wouldn't happen. Then we were eating lunch and we were having pudding that day. The same week the 3-5 graders were there there were campers called Jesus Cares there also. They are the mentally dissabled people. You have to know that you get a way of talking to them like they are 2 years old. Well this one lady comes over to us while we were eating and Schleef starts going on about how we're having pudding and how much of a treat it will be for her. He thought she was one of the dissabled people, but it turns out it was one of the directors. He was sitting there talking to her like she was two and she was thinking he was an idiot. I laugh. Then Christi and I were cutting apples I think and I was amazed about how sharp the knives were and I just randomly say "I like sharp knives!" It was funny. By the end of the day I was so tired and actually slpet that night.

Tuesday (I Don't Think I Need To Keep Putting This Stuff In Parenthesees)
I went swimming for the first time last week. I was "buddies" with Chelsey and we found that our girls weren't quite capable of swimming in the deep end even though they passed the eval, so we had to tread water with them for like 15 minutes. It didn't hurt at the time, but the next day was a killer. So I have this girl, Sam. She had like a boyfriend! I was amazed! I haven't even had a boyfriend and I'm almost 16... in 8 days to be exact. We did have to break that thing off. No relationships at camp, even though there are like 5 staff couples.

Wednesday (Half-Way Through Last Week)
I worked kitchen again this day. As I said my legs were killing me. Renee and Christi, who are cousins, decided that I was 1/8 Igl. That means I'm related to them and Adam! It made me happy. They even made me a kitchen shrit that we are going to wear to Florida that says I'm "1/8 Igl". Today went really bad in a way. The dishwasher completely shut down, so I was left to hand wash all the dishes again. Then the hot water went out. We forgot to put in the chicken and got it done just in time. I felt bad for Angie cause Isa got really sick and Angie had to run the kitchen. It was a lot of stress. Then we convinced April to let all the Jr. Staff in the kitchen to get the dishes done in time for me to help with the Jr. Staff game. We made up this game kinda like a hunt type thing where they had to find stuff to turn us from being crazy. Then we went to the cabin and I... yes I... sang the girls to sleep.

Thursday (I Don't Know What To Tell You)
We drank this juice during our meeting that I describe as "Hardcore Artifical". It was so bad! A whole galloin of this junk. Then I wonder if people actually buy this stuff and keep it in the fridge and just drink it for the heck of it. That would be gross! I was twins with Chelsey for "Twin day". We had our talent show and all the Jesus cares people were awesome. I thought we should do a skit about the circus... but it would be too long, so we made one about our made up cabin pet "Sham-moo-moo". Then it was Chelsey's night off and I lead reflections.

Friday (I'm Almost Done... Bear With Me)
I woke up late and didn't get to take a shower until cabin clean up. The toliet overflowed while I was there. That was crazy! Then I was late for bible study where we watched a new Veggie Tales. My allergies were super bad so I took these really drowsy pills and I was like floating the rest of the day. I meant to sleep on my hour off... but that didn't work, I read my Bible then made bracelets fpr my campers. Then I decided I would call my mom since she left me like 4 out of my 7 voicemails on my phone. Then we had staff meeting where we ate Big Boppers which are ice cream cookies that are so good! Then we went swimming and I was "buddies" with the Sam girl. We jump in and start swimming and like 2 minutes later she's like "Sara, I pooped in my swimsuit". I was in shock and was like... "What?!?!?... Are you serious???" So I had to take her to the porta-potty and clean her off which was the gorssest thing. I guess that puts me in the Igl family too since Adam had to do that the day before for one of his campers. I just don't understand why a fourth grader couldn't tell me she had to go to the bathroom! I was a bit angry. Then she couldn't go swimming cause her suit was a mess so I had to take her by myself in the row boat. I saw a sailboat and had a major sailing craving. Then we went back and got ready for the Cowboy Cafe. I really looked like a cowboy. I was excited... and I have a pic. I was sitting in the gazzebo with Schleef eating my dinner when this lady who was a little over weight and was wearing darck wide rim glasses came over. I had all I could do to stop from laughing, but she asked us to put up her tent. Why she needed a tent? I don't know, since she was staying in the cabins. We got it up alright and it was somewhat fun. I enjoyed the feeling of accomplishing putting a tent up. Then I helped demonstrate Chuck the Chicken and we had a blast. Then we were walking back and someone said something about me being not needed so I looked around for a place to run and found the best would be to frolic down that hill prarie thing nect to the WISCO's. It was fun... and I did come back, but it got the point across. Then I sang the girls to sleep, finished my bracelets and went to bed.

Yesterday (Yep... Yesterday)
I went home. Yes, I did buy Chris a chuck the chicken shirt. It was funny. I hugged Bethany and Jenna, and Schleef and Andrew... who is hilarious... and went home. Justr in time for Brandon's graduation party.

Today! (No Explaination Needed... I hope...)
I went to church and then Anner and I went to see Star Wars at the Al for $4. It was a good movie. Today is my parents 23 wedding anniversay, so we got some KFC and went to Devil's Lake. It was a good time.

I'm glad I got this all caught up! It's taken me forever! I'm going to stop writing for now. Love Ya!!!

~Sara

"Smile... You Look Ridiculous!"

2005-07-09T23:10:00.000-07:00

^Becca! You completely stole my post name! I was definitely going to go on about how Alex threw a rock at your head and you cried because you had no friends!. But that's alright, I will just use the best quote of Jake Larsh that I can think of. So, I was gone for the past two weeks if you didn't know. Right now I will recap what happened without trying to skip around a lot. But please forgive me if I do. I apologize in advance.

Saturday (Two Saturdays Ago)
After the parade I kinda sat home not in a big rush to get up north. Then I remembered that Becca and Beef were going to be there, so I packed my things for the two weeks and left. We got up there at around 9:00 and went straight to Nana's. I got there just in time to see the part of "National Treasure" that I haven't seen, so I was happy. Then we sat up and talked about how traumatizing Bec's childhood was. She had no friends and cried about it a lot. Haha... if you couldn't catch on to that. Then we set the starting time for the next day at 11:00 and went home.

Sunday (Also Two Sundays Ago)
So, our room is super dark and there is no clock. Anner and I didn't wake up until 10:45. Bummer. Then it was cloudy and somewhat cold... so we got out the Monopoly board, but one of the parents caught us and told us we have to go tubing anyways. Aw man! Well, it was great fun. Then we just hung out until Aunt Kim and Uncle Al took them away from me. Then I cried cause I have no friends. Kidding! but it was funny. Then I made a bracelet for Anner and we went canoing and tried to catch bullfrogs with no success. We got home and watched "The Terminal" which is also a coincidence cause Becca just watched that! Frequency?

Monday (Definitely Still Two Mondays Ago)
My cousin Ryan came up north. That made me happy. Anner tried to barefoot but wasn't too successful. He was quite good at getting me soaked though! We all tried to slalom but were no more successful there. Andrew was really sore from barefooting. I found that I actually need my quad to ski. And Ryan just wasn't capable. Then we watched "Coach Carter"

Tuesday (Yep, Two Tuesdays Ago)
I learned how to sail! It was great fun. Andrew and I wacthed "Ocean's 12". Then we drove to Eagle River to eat at this really good restraunt. Yeah, there was a Pirate Ship there! It was great. I even got to go on it! Becca, I know you're jealous. I took a whole bunch of pics. Then we got in the car to take Ryan to the Paulding light cause he'd never seen it. We drove through the north woods and listened to oldies it was a grad old time. We got there and Ryan wasn't to excited, but we did decide to walk down there to find out where it was. We got down that first dip thing and founf out there was this little river thing at the bottom. We have the great idea to just wade through it! Smart huh? Well, yes, we did get through it safely and we are all here to tell about it. We got to the other side and there was this snake crawling across the path and Andrew picked it up. Seeing we were getting nowhere we turned back. It was a valiant effort to no prevail. We never got to the light.

Wednesday (Two Tuesdays Ago... Imagine That! Do You See A Pattern?)
I watched "A Walk To Remember". It was so cute. I love that movie now. Sadly... I read all day... A whole book. Freak? I don't know... you tell me.

Thursday (Remember the Pattern Thing We Went Over... Here's Where It Comes In)
I read more. Started to get bored. I did see a raccoon up really cloes which was cool. Also got some good pics of that. Then I sat in my boat on the hoist and called people/ Brad... No one else was home. Then at like 2:00 in the morning I got up to get a tissue and as said before it is really dark up there. I crawl back onto my top bunk of my bed and begin to think, which is never a good thing. I thought there was a mexican in the corner of my room and I got in one of those states where you feel scared to even breath. I sat there and thought he was going to come and slit Anner's throught and then come for me. Luckily my mom came in and put a night light in. Good thing I'm almost 16 and still need a night light! I can't believe I told you that. Now you are going to make fun of me like the rest of my family.

Friday (Pattern... That's All I'm Going To Say)
My relatives came and I was really happy. Sure, they made fun of me... But my life revolves around being picked on. I went canoing with Chris and wanted to catch turtles. He said there wouldn't be any so we didn't bring a net or bucket. There were at least three turtles there. Hhh... Freakin Idiot! Kidding, I love my brother and my cousin even though they would never admit I was right to have brought a bucket and net.

I have to go to bed... what my parents don't know is that I have been sleep deprived for a while and am very used to it so I could get up really well tomorrow even if I went to bed at like 12:00. I'll finish tomorrow! I promise! Love Ya!!!
~Sara

The Great Circus Pirade

2005-06-25T18:00:00.000-07:00

^ Yes, I spelled that wrong on purpose. The story behind that is when we were painting the windows at McGann's, Anna was writing "The Great Circus Parade" on thier window. All the rest of us we just kinda standing their saying how funny it would be if she spelled something wrong. She was writing kinda in cursive cause that's how she always writes and I'm reading it as she's witing thinking, "Wow, that 'a' looks a lot like an 'i'." Turns out it was. She did spell it wrong, but it was really funny.
Today was the parade itself. Luckily it wasn't as hot as like yesterday or the day before, but it still was very uncomfortable in the clown outfits and wigs. Nothing really cool happened, I kind of wonder why so manny people come to this parade anyways. I mean it can't be worth all the trouble of getting stuck in about 2 hour traffic just to get out of little old Baraboo. Road construction might not have helped at all, but as Anner and I were walking home we were definitely going faster than the cars on HWY 33. I guess the only thing worth mentioning are the camels that got out of control and almost ran over my parents, and the horses that were rearing in the direction of my mother. She's very pareniod about large animals though. The only really FUN thing was throwing water on eachother. My brother even had a squirtgun.
Last night we had a youth group meeting, just my family, cause we have to miss the one next week. I found out that we are pretty much for sure going to Florida for the rally. I was really excited.
Thursday I went to Anna's for a sleepover. It was really fun. We went walking through Wynsong at like 11:00. I don't even want to tell you all the stuff we did, even if I wasn't sworn to secrecy. Then we came home and made movies with a digital camera until like 1:30. I was so tired the next day, I even fell asleep watching a movie! I never fall asleep during movies, and it was one I love too. Ocean's Eleven... good movie.
I have to go up north right now and see Becca once again. Yay! Then next week I'm going to be at camp... So don't freak out if I don't write for a while. Leave me a message here or on my phone! Love ya!!!
~Sara

I Love Your Eyes... Nice Pupes!

2005-06-23T15:37:00.000-07:00

^ So last night after circus practice I went to the college with T-Bird, Becky Olsen, Nico, John, and Anner with the intention of playing DG (Disc-Golf). We never ended up playing... but instead walked around the campus and soccer fields and in this drain thing. That was weird... there were these squares you had to squeeze through to get into the tunnel, and it would seem that no one would fit in... but everyone did! These squares seemed so small! Yeah... we played baseball with a golfball and a stick... I'm better than Nico... and I wondered why they would trade a bad kid on their team for me... hmm... Then we knocked down or actually picked up this sign and started slipping all over it... don't ask. Then we layed in the soccer field and I got covered with ants and it was gross. We had this conversation though. I don't even know how it started... but Tom was like," Becky... Nice pupes!" We were pretty confused at first but now we know "Pupes" are an abbreviation for pupils as in your eyes. haha. I laughed.
Yesterday I get a call from Anna at like 9:30 in the morning asking if I want to go paint elephants on the windows downtown. I had to go to physical therapy at the moment... but I went down there at like 11:00. It was so fun, and downtown look awesome! We found that instead of tracing the elephants on the windows... we would free-hand everything! It was so fun! I have to go.. my friends are here. Love ya!!!

I Find I Live On Power!

2005-06-21T17:44:00.000-07:00

^ So today when I was talking to some of my friends on messenger all the sudden everything goes black! No, I didn't pass out, though that has happened. The power went out in my house for like 3 hours! You do not want to see me when I get bored like that. I sat around and ate for a while cause that's just what I do... Then I sat outside on my porch and painted every one of my nails a different color. Needless to say I get bored very easliy.
This week we have a bazillion Circus Parade practices, well more like 3. But good news, I think I'm going to Anna's house on Thursday and spend the night. It will be great fun. On Saturday the Great Circus Parade will commence at like 12:00 or something for all those who want to come watch. Highly doubt that though. After the parade I get to go up north and see Becca again. It's sweet I've been seeing her a lot this summer. I hope to attempt to ski, but my physical therapist says I can't if it hurts too bad. This makes me very sad. So I pretty much just wanted to tell you how boring my day was. I think I might go to a movie or something tonight.

..."They let you bring an air guitar into school?"...

Love ya!
~Sara

I Think the Summer Of Boredom Has Begun Now.

2005-06-19T18:22:00.000-07:00

So camp is over for a while. Today is the first day where I'm not completely bogged down by my busy summer life. To tell you the absolute truth. I'm hating it... already. If you don't know me as well as you thought, I have a huge problem with getting bored really easily during the summer. Today I sit, thinking about camp and how I was so busy and tired all the time and now I'm waiting for the day when I get to go back and be busy and tired all the time. I kinda wonder how like Adam Igl does it. He can put his all into every week there and keep going! That reminds me of the day when the AC's had to lead things and Adam was our conselor. That was so fun. He's a good guy.
So yesterday was Anner's graduation party. Blake didn't come, and I was really dissapointed. But it's alright Blake, I forgive you. Anna didn't come either though! It made me really sad and I called her like 3 times. I haven't seen her in forever and I'm becoming kinda friend deprived. Good thing Nick Quinn showed up though. He came like during the middle of the party and then left and then came back at like 8:00 and then stayed and watched Seinfeld with me 'til like 12:00 or something. It was super fun. I felt really bad cause this one day at Jesse's party Devon "asked me out" through Anner and Brandon. Well, we were just having a good time with it, like not seriously or anything, but my little cousin heard it and told me uncles and older cousins, so they all came and like completely grilled him with questions. It was funny cause it was all a lie, but I felt bad he has to go through it. I now know how bad it will be when I seriously bring a boyfriend to a family gathering. Then my uncle said that it would be ok, almost good, if I went on a date with him. So it was weird cause we are not actually going out.
So I'm home for this week, I go up north on Saturday after the Circus Parade (which you should all go to) then I stay there for a while. On July 3-9 I go back to camp then come home for a couple days. Then on the 14-16, still in July, I hopefully go to Florida for the youth rally. I am luckily home for my b-day on the 18th. Then on the 25-29 (July...haha) I go to Racine for day camp. It's crazy insane how busy I'm planning on it being.
So when we had a lot of time to do service work at camp this one new counselor took us to Esa's house to chop wood. Evan Samanas was there and Borck and Tyler and Dawn. So we stayed and split wood and I thought, "Hey! Let's make a line where we pass the wood!" It was pretty slow work. Borck had to have all the pieces just the right size. But in the meantime I had a great time watching Evan play "air drums" and sing. I fell kinda bad cause I was just sitting there watching him go all out. I didn't have much else to do though cause Becca was being pretty much being hit on hardcore and I couldn't have an actual conversation with Steve because of the loud machine.Evan's a really funny guy though. It's kinda weird cause I kinda met him when we were playing cellblock 7 and dragging him along the dirt and Blake (his brother) is just like, "Evan, this is Sara". Then we talked on the internet and I met him again at a retreat this year and now we're pretty much friends. Crazy. So right now he's going out to eat for the second time today and is convinced that he will die at the age of 30.
I found out that I missed Blake more than I knew. If that makes sense. He's just a funny guy! Like we were sitting in the back of campfire this one night on the "Outcast Blanket" which is a Mexican blanket from Canada, and we were just being complete dorks and it was great! I love just being a dork and no one cares.
I also found that I would never be able to carry out the whole build a fort in the woods at camp and live in it. I would miss my friends here way too much. So in other words I've come to some very dumb, yet helpful (?) conclusions today while being bored.
My parents think some of their friends are coming over for leftovers from the party, but no ones here. I kinda feel like going and seeing what's going on with that whole situation. Love Ya!
~Sara

I Threw the Turkey, But I Did Not Chuck the Chicken

2005-06-17T17:29:00.000-07:00

^ So, Becca... since you are sitting right next to me at the moment, and you definitely know what the title is about... I will explain it to the rest of the non-priviledged people out there. So! I'm back from camp! It was definitely one of the best times I've had in a while. I don't really know how to explain all the was fun about the week. It would take way too long. I guess just being there is great...oh so high... like a kite...(Anner just broke out and said that). The first day I got there and was really intimidated by all the upperclassmen in my cabin. I know... me... intimidated? But it turns out they were all really great girls. Then we got out these markers to make signs for our beds, and one of them starts drawing on themselves. Then eachother. Then me. Steph told me to write, "I'm Irish" on her leg... then she asked what nationality I am. Not satisfied with the answer, she made me Cuban, and wrote, "I'm Cuban... 4 real" on my leg. That became my name at camp. "Cuban". It was funny how I ended up answering to it all the time anyways. The rest of the week was pretty much a blur. A bunch of sessions for training, you know the deal. Becca finally pretty much hooked up with David which made me really happy. Now she's giving me this evil look cause she's sitting right here right now. So I typed that whole thing about her giving me an evil look without even looking at here. Turns out she was. The low point of the week was when I saw someone get mandarine oranges in the lunch line and when I got there there werent any left. I was very depressed. See how not low the low point of the week really was. It was great seeing all my friends that I only get to see every year, or in some cases longer than that. And now I just noticed that I never got on to explaining the title to this blog... for those who don't know.We play these games every night and last night... it seems like longer than that... but we played this game that was called "Chuck the Chicken" and it was where we pretty much had to run around and throw this rubber chicken then run around like chickens with our heads cut off. It fit the name very well. Anyways, we had to have a chant while passing the rubber chicken and it went at the title goes. It was so fun.
It's weird cause whenever I get back from camp I get into this love life mood and I know everything is going to be alright and I will always have people there for me... other than God. Like my counselor this week was great. She told us things that she would never tell campers. We even had this reflections last night where we told eachother our worst ongoing sin. It was so emotional, but we were that way only because we know we screw up a lot and there's nothing we can do about it except know that God will be alright with us any way we are.
On a much funnier note... we had this campfire where it got so out of hand! Like some of the staff were doing a skit and it got so funny, but it was stuff that would never be said in front of campers or parents. All the sexist stuff and unintentional... how should I say this... phrases,I guess... that people said were so funny. It was all in good fun though. Ok well, I have to go unpack/ clean my room. It's Anner's graduation party tomorrow. Stop by if you have the chance! Love ya!!!
~Sara

Rain

2005-06-06T15:46:00.000-07:00

So my cousin, Becca, just rote this post about how it started raining like right after she got insde. Well, we were going to Lavalle and my brother was driving his convertible with the top off and all the sudden it starts like pouring out of no where. We pull off to the side of the road and put the top on. Right after we get back on the road the sun comes out. This same deal has happened with like everyone I know lately. I have to go to Physical Therapy now, maybe I'll continue later, but I'm going to church softball for sure, so I don't know if I'll have time. Love ya!
~Sara

Class of 2005

2005-06-04T17:17:00.000-07:00

So this is it. The last few days of school are finally here. I don't like how you have been waiting for this day for the whole year, yet when it comes it feels like your life is about to end. I'm going to miss all the people that I see in the halls immensly. Even the ones I don't know. It seems like forever ago when I felt so left out of everything cause I didn't know anyone. Now look at me... I have the best friends in the world, and so many more than I would have ever guessed I would. I have come to the conclusion that this year has probably been the best year of my life.
Last night was graduation. I'm surprised I got through it like I did. I thought it was going to be bad when I stepped out of my house and stood in my driveway before we even left and started getting choked up. Turns out that I had a better time showing my grandparents all the people I knew than taking the time to get emotional. I'm going to miss the seniors. Who will protect me when I'm being stalked now? Oh wait, I still have Brandon's brother, Matt, who is like 6'6" or something tall and big like that.
This really hit me when I took my geometry exam yesterday. I came to the conclusion that I will never have to take 9th grade geometry again! Sitting in the math room, comtemplating a peoblem, AJ walks out of the door and whispers,"Yess..." and then leaves. Joel proceeded in doing this too... So to follow in my "dumb buddies" (I only say this because we were the ones who always got like 84%-90%, pretty much never 100%'s or anything like all the rest of them did) footsteps, I walk out and express my joy in being done with that class.
Two days ago when all of us got done with our band exam super early, we just were sitting in the caffeteria. I decide to go get a piece of grass to bring in and blow annoying noises though my thumbs. While out there I see this massive moth. I hold it up to the window by my group of friends, yell something at one of them to get their attention, and hold the moth up to the window. They yell for me to bring it in, and being reluctant at first, the kid who said he would eat it brought me around. I take it in and throw it on the table, all the girls start freaking out, and this kid... rips one of the wings off this moth and starts eating it. It was so gross. After about 5 minutes of chewing and finding that this is going nowhere, he swallows it, and I throw the rest outside.
Yesterday... Kate Baxter and I had first hour study hall, but still had to go to school for fourth hour review which was before first hour stuff. We decide that we would go to Culvers for an ice cream for the review, but I had to be back for the exam time because I tried to test out of Comp 10. I stop short walking out the doors, suddenly remembering that Culver's doesn't open until 10:00 and it was only 9. Bummer. So we proceed to walk out the doors, because we still want to get away from school for the hour. We go to the edge of the parking lot and stand watching the first hour gym class play this really cool version of softball, but with a tennis racket and ball. So, out of sheer interest, and seeing people we knew, we went and sat down to watch. Little did we know we would be picked to be on the teams, and end up playing. It was super fun though.
At lunch I couldn't find Anna anywhere! So I went to talk to Liz and Meg, who thought we were going to my house to eat... There was only an hour left, so it wasn't going to work to walk 15 minutes to get to my house, find something to eat, and walk back in time for our exam. So Liz calls her mom and says we're going to go eat there. We put in a frozen pizza and sit and do nothing for a long time while Meg reads a magazine. When the pizza gets out of the oven, we weren't that hungry cause we were eating chips before, but Meg ate 3 peices to Liz and I's 2. Liz was really hyper that day and comes running into the kitchen and starts shaking her legs and hands and saying, "Look at my hands, look at my feet... Now look at them together." I thought this looked like a lot of fun, so I do it too. All the sudden Meg, who hadnt' said anything the whole time just says, " Guys, stop calling me a fat cow!" However she got that out of us shaking our hands and feet, I have no idea... So liz and I thought this was funny, and started saying "Fat cow" not trying to make fun of Meg... but it was so funny. This brings up another story, but I doubt some of you want to hear it. It's kinda of obscene.
Now I have to go to some more graduation parties. Have a good one! Love ya!
~Sara
p.s. This wasn't supposed to be this long of a post.

Grapes and Chocolate Frosting

2005-06-02T17:17:00.000-07:00

So I have come to the terrible conclusion that although chocolate frosting is good, and grapes are good, chocolate frosting and grapes are not good together. I was looking for something to eat in the fridge when all the sudden I see this can of store bought chocolate frosting. After eating a grape the brilliant idea of putting the two together came into my mind. BAD IDEA!!! It was probably one of the grossest things I have ever done. I went throughout the kitchen looking for anything better to go with this chocolate I had found. Unfortunately all we had was saltines, but that's better than grapes, let me tell ya. I had the saltines out and then, thinking Andrew was done with them too, I put them away... cause he sure wouldn't have. It turned out he did want more, so he found the chocolate, but I have come to find that males actually have no idea how to look for things! He saw the box... looked right at the box... and turned to me and asked, "Where are the crackers?" Turns out he thought the box was a "box of soup" cause the box of crackers had a bowl of soup on the side. Oh wow. I laughed and just walked away.
Speaking of guys not being able to find anything. When we were in bells, there were 3 guys and the rest of us were girls. Josh Hartwig, Andrew, and James Otto were all in a line at the end of the section. One day Josh got sick and wanted to go home, so in the middle of a song, without even telling anyone, he just leaves. Well, concerned for his well being, we sent Andrew down to look for him, cause we didn't want him to drive home like that. After about 15 minutes later we find Andrew and Josh are still not back, so we send James. Why James? I have no idea... But after about 10 more minutes of that James comes back and says he didn't find them anywhere. It turns out Andrew drove Josh home, and didn't tell anyone. But the point of the story was that no matter how hard they looked, we lost faith in guys finding anything, including people.
Well, it's come down to 3.5 days left of school, and all of those are exams. I remember now how much a really do like exams. I know that sounds completely dumb, but I really like not having 7 classes a day and having 20 minutes between the classes we do have. The 1.5 or so hour lunch is a plus too. I feel really loved cause I have NO room left in my year book. Nick Quinn had to use a new piece of paper. Well, I'm going to go eat or something dumb. Love ya!!!
~Sara
p.s. I was about to write both my first and last names cause that's what I do in year books.
p.s.s. My nana called last night to "yell" at me for tormenting my cousins (see previous post). It turns out se was laughing as hard as I. The funny thing is that the whole story is probably about at least half way through the family by now. Word spreads like wild fire when you are in this family.

Andrew... Are You Lost Too?

2005-06-01T19:17:00.000-07:00

So, Becca, as for the title, I'm sure you will get this one as I go on with my story. So don't panic yet. I'm not in one of those frustrated, mad at the whole world, listen and sing along to Linkin Park kind of moods, so there will be no poetry from me today. Maybe you will be graced by that some other time. Right... I actually have no confidence in any of my writing in case you haven't heard. But anyways, why am I in a good mood? The better question would be when weren't you. I found out I was kinda in this depression again. But am very good at not showing it. I went up north this weekend and was once again reminded of how great God is, so I am very happy right now.
This is not the thing that makes me very pruod, but it is very funny. My family is ruthless. We have all gotten the same evil treatment from one of the older members of the family. That's just the way it is, kinda part of growing up for people of the Grady clan. But anyways, as I said I was up north this weekend. My little cousins were there too. This wasn't all bad, but having 4 overly emotional chlidren who always need to be right the ages of 8 and younger are not the first people I would have chosen to be up there. cough *Becca/Beef* cough. Well, let me say it plain, they are kinda annoying. I'm definitely not saying that i wasn't at all annoying when I was little, but the "Does this hurt?" and "I'm telling" just would not end! So, after a lot of planning, or kinda like my brother and I running around in the woods a bit to try and escape from some of it, we came up with a little of a plan. Andrew (my brother) and I have always gone into the woods and just ran around and made forts/ played Ewoks (but we won't need to get into that). hehe. ANYHOW...the little ones have gotten away from that. They have gotten out of so much harassment from the uncles it isn't even funny, but it's because they are kinda over-scared, I guess you could say, about everything. Well, my first plan was to do the classic 'when they went to bed tell them some scary story and go scratch on their windows that night'. Andrew, thankfully, stopped me from even thinking about seriously carrying that one out, but we did come up with one that would not only 1) get them aquainted with the woods, but 2)give them some of the Grady toughness. Well, I go and get the younsters and get them all excited about "Going into the Woods". After waiting a long time for them to get their bug spray on, we took off and met Andrew out there by the swamp. Now since you most likely don't know my woods, there is this somewhat large patch of forest surrounded by 4 roads. There is NO way one could get lost. But they don't know they now do they? So we head out. After a while they get kinda confused about when we're going to head back. Then we had this sort of conversation... Tommy (the middle child)-" Andrew where are we?" Andrew- "I'm not too sure, weren't you paying attention to where we came from?" Tommy- "No...". Then Margaret (the oldest) asks"Sara, do you know where we even are?" I dutifly reply "No, I thought that was your job." Matthew might have mumbled something in there, but no one ever know a word he's saying.
Panic strikes, and of course Andrew and I enjoying the whole thing, not in a mean way.
Tommy-"You have no idea where we are Andrew?" Now you kinda need to know that Tommy is utterly attached to my brother. Andrew-" I think we might be out of state by now!" Yup, that set it off. All the sudden I stop, seeing cars on one side and houses on another, but they are too worried to notice. I turn to see Tommy crying. Then feeling badly, we take like 5 minutes of Margaret yelling that we should go back and this completely pandamoneum... we convinced them we were not close to being lost. It was definitely a crazy trip.
So today was the seniors last day. It was really kinda sad! I will have no one to completely protect me next year, and I'm losing some good friends to college. This could only mean we have 4.5 days of school left. And all those days are exams and yearbook signing. All this really bubbles down to is that we have camp training on the 12th! I'm so excited to see all my friends from everywhere I cannot go. Maybe when I get my lisence this summer! Cause I turn 16! Hopefully I can ski. I had my first therapy session today. I just want to get better! Well, even though I could sit and type forever... I must go study for my Area Studies final tomorrow. Love Ya!!!
~Sara

Expressed

2005-05-27T17:07:00.000-07:00

So I've decided the best thing to do about my recent stress building up inside of me has been best expressed in songs or poems. Here's the most recent one.

Lost Anynomous (You Know Who You Are)

I pass you in the hall,
and can't figure out what went wrong.
I remember when we were kids.
I put up with you, cause that's who I was.
I didn't realize it started back then.
We became friends, you and I.
My low-tolerence of things you did and said
That would have made me cry before faded away.
I didn't see it coming, but as the tears faded,
So did our freindship.
Expecting me to follow you in things we both know I don't do.
I'm NOT a follower.
That's when I saw it.
I had lost you again.
My first question was
How could you do that to me?
I gave up on you for what seemed the billionth time.
For the final time of this on-going cycle.
You may think I'll come back to you, that I need you.
That's not the case, you're gone from my life.
Could I have done something to change you?
They tell me I tried.
Obvioulsy not hard enough,
To have impacted your life in a way
That would have brought you to the real world.
My world.
I have lost you,
Kinda like you lost your Lord.
When we were kids I thought
You were better than me.
You said I was wrong,
But look at you now.
You think you're better.
Now I know you're the one who is wrong.
The low-tolerence of you is back.
I pass you in the hall and say nothing,
But neither do you.
It seems this is the way it's going to be.
You have your friends,
I have mine
I'm not the one lost in this world.
I just want you to know,
I think of you still...
Pray for you still...
You know who you are, my friend.
I hope you know someone will be there
When you fall.
But as for me...

I am Lost.

Please let me know what you think. Love you all!
~Sara

" Well You Got American!"

2005-05-22T17:06:00.000-07:00

^ So, since it bugs Becca that I always have really random titles and never end up getting around to explaining them... I will now! Just for you Bec. This one you probably get though. There's this song on the radio and I'm not sure who it's by, but it says "I hope you stay beautiful baby... I hope you stay American girl" or something to that extent. Well I laugh at that every time I hear it because my grandpa can't stand people who are overweight and he says they are very "American" if they are fat. This makes sense only becuase, did you notice there are really a lot of fat people only in America and America only? Yeah, well one time my oldest cousin had put on some weight and the next time my grandpa saw him the fist thing out of his mouth was, " Well you got American!" Hence the title. Wow that took longer than expected.
I definitely had a really good weekend. On Friday we held JV conference at Baraboo. I kind of left the pole vaulters because they are dumb and I can't stand them sometimes. So I went to hang out with the throwers who actually need me, and are very appreciative. I stole one of the football water cooler things and broght water for them on Friday, cause I'm such a "good manager". Then I felt bad cause my family wanted to go to Pedro's for dinner and I left and the coach was kinda mad. I got this sweet track t-shirt though. On the back it says, "We're not just pretty fast... We're pretty & fast." Yes, very cheesy i know, but I like it all the same, it makes me still feel like part of the team. Then at like 10:00 Nico calls me when I'm about to go to bed and says he right outside my house. So I go talk to him in my garage for like an hour.
Saturday I went with Meg to Fair on the Square where we bought these really good steak sandwhiches made by Mr. Stro. My parents were in Madison finishing the deal with my brothers new car. Now the Geo is pretty much officially mine. I just contradicted myself. But that's alright. I was standing outside and heard this really corny music playing and I thought, "Hmm... The circus is really loud this year" cause usually I can hear it from my house, but no all the sudden from up the street comes this Ice Cream Truck! Oh My Gosh, an ice cream truck? It was sweet. I bought myself a Snoopy Ice Cream and it was so much better cause it was from an ice cream truck. By the way, yes the Grady camera of death did come out for this experience. I was standing there eating my Snoopy when this really hott guy from my school drives past and he waved. I was really happy. I know, too much info. To continue my weekend...then we went to youth group, or should I now call it B.O.M.B? I guess that's the new name of our youth group. It stands for Bunch Of Mighty Believers. Pretty sweet right? That was really fun, and I got to see my friend Jon who I only get to see on weekends and mainly youth group cause he goes to prep. It's his B-day on Wednesday. Happy b-day Jon! Then we went to Donahue's house and watched this really really confusing movie. It was called "Darkness". None of us could figure it out, but it was mainly about these kids who get killed by this cult and there were supposed to be 7 that died and one of the 7 got away. So 40 years later on the next lunar eclipes when the whole world is dark, hence the name "Darkness" on of the old people of the cult takes it upon himself to kill the kid who is now living in the house and is the dad of 2 kids. They all end up dying I think we concluded. But there was this part where the "good guy" if you could call him that, was walking through a subway hall and it starts getting darker and darker an then right when he gets swallowed up by the darkness Tyson Kruse pounds really hard on the window of their basement. I screamed so loud. It was bad.
Today I went to church then went to the boys soccer game in Verona. That's how uneventful today is going. I'll let you know if anything else exciting happens. Love ya!!!
~Sara

"We Like to Call Her...' Snaggle-Tooth'"

2005-05-16T21:26:00.000-07:00

Hey Everyone!
I, once again, have not written for a while. Very sorry. So I had a pretty busy weekend though, that's why I didn't write before. You know, I wanted to get it all in on one big shebang!

We'll start with Friday I think. We had the last informal dance at our school for the year. Meg came over before it started and I was so excited. When we were sitting there watching TV all the sudden my mom says, "Doesn't that sounds like Nico?" I didn't hear anything, but I never have any idea when any of my crazy friends are going to show up, that comes in once again later. But, Meg and I get up and go outside to see JJ and Caleb stomping on the lampshade in out gutter because of spring pick-up. They were of course acting really crazy, but it's always fun. We went to the dance and it turned out to be probably the worst one ever. Not one really danced at all. I even left early, that was a first. I went home and it was like 12:00 or whatever and I was going to play apintball at like 10:00 the next morning, so I went to bed. Little did I know that at 3:00a.m. My goof-ball friends would come knocking at my window. Then I see the blue light of a cell phone. So I turn on my light and sit there contemplating if I should get out of bed, or pretend they would go away. I get out of bed and they have the light shining in my face. I most likely mumbled something, closed my window, and waited for them to leave. I was half asleep, and felt kinda bad I just left them, but they should know it's for their good. If my parents would have cought them, they would have been in trouble... not to mention what they would do to me.

Saturday was a blast! We went and picked up Anna at 9:30 and went out to Buckhorn and waited for Brandon to get there. Like 2 hours later we started to play paintball. Anna was a wreck, she was so scared to get hit... so Brandon got out this bullet-proof vest. Just to try it out, Jush Hartwig hit her in the back like 5 times. She was kinda confused cause it didn't hurt at all. We played a while and took it to the backfield, where my brother decided to wrestle the 6'5" guy. If you don't know Andrew, he's only like 5'8" and very skinny. The big guy took him down with a little fight, but Anna and I being the only girls thought it looked a little fun, so we start fake punching eachother. Them some more of the guys start up, and feeling a little left out, Anna and I start like tackling eachother and soon enough we're baing taped, and she pulls my hair thing out and we're on the ground just pinning eachother. It was great, until Travis sayed something about me that Andrew didn't like so he hands off the camera and starts chasing Travis. He, being so much bigger than my brother, just picks him up. When he sets him down the only thing Andrew says is... "yes!" and then he takes Travis down. It was funny.

Sunday I went to the confirmation at our church. It was a really nice service. By the way, Congrats to all of you who were confirmed this weekend. Then I went to Dousman for my baby cousin Daniel's Dediation party. I got to see all my relatives so it was a great time. My grandparents were there too. I haven't seent them since Thanksgiving. They were supposed to stay down here and go to my band concert in which I have a duet with another girl, and I play my piccolo a lot, but my grandpa got sick, so they went home. I was really sad. My Nana's the one who really told me to pursue my music. I wanted her to hear me now. Well, I think I'm going to stop rambling on and on now. Goodnight, Goodnight... Parting is such sweet sorrow!
Love ya! ~Sara

"Is It Morning???"

2005-05-08T18:35:00.000-07:00

I think summer is finally here, well kinda... The trees are finally blooming and it makes me happy. Today it was really warm out. It was super!
Nothing really eventful happened today. I'm not even sure what I was going to write about today...
OH! I was looking at the front of this paper my mom was reading this morning, and the headline said "Little Leaguers Happy to Be Home", I think that was is. But anyways, the picture going along with it was a picture of these little kids in front of those Brewer weiner things, you know the sausages. That job in itself would suck, but I was thinking of a story. The picture and the title together made me laugh. What if these little kids were like lost and they were so distraught and then all the sudden in the middle of a rain storm when they feel there's not hope at all, since they've been gone for almost a week, those funky sausages come running up like they are heroes. Of course the little leaguers would be 'happy when they got home'! But then not only would they finally be in a civilized place again, they would then have the thought of being rescued from a certain death by weiners! Wow weird imagination right?
Anyways, summer is almost here, and I don't have to see winter again for like.... a long time... let's just put it like that. I really hope this summer is a great one. Skiing like every weekend. And I'm going to Florida, and my 16th b-day is like 2 days after I get home from that. It's going to be great! Wow, I'm excited! Stay classy America! Love ya!
~Sara

Hott Hair

2005-05-06T22:37:00.000-07:00

Hey.
So Nico, Scott, and John came over tonight when I was sitting talking on the phone to someone outside. Don't ask me why outside... well you can. It was because it is really nice out and I was happy then.
But anyways... I just wanted to write some funny things that happened to me today, or that I just thought about again. So I was just thinking... Last year Chace spilled milk on the ground and then drank it off the school floor. ha!
Nico found out that my heater downstairs... has a remote!!! What heater has a remote??? It is so cool... I bet you all are brimming with jeloulsy because of it. lol. Highly doubtfull.
I had a pretty horrible day today compared to the great one yesterday. I'm also not going to go into that. I feel distant from all of you, and yet most of you know what it is about anyways. So therefore I will not go into detail.
My mom comes home tomorrow. She was bringing my grandparents home from Arizona, where they live in the winter. Now all I have to do is get her a Mother's Day present... hmmm... well, I'm gonna stop talking now. Love ya!
~Sara

Kick You In The FACE!!!

2005-05-05T22:04:00.000-07:00

This quote started by my brother, Andrew, is probably one of the funniest threats i could have to tell you.
I was thinking about calling this post "Happy Sinco Demio"... but not only do I not know how to spell that, but I'm not Mexican, and therefore don't quite appreciate it.
Today does happen to be Ascension day. As most of you know, I am WELS Lutheran. I will not argue, we are not very open to new things, but we have taken to clapping on accasoin for things. It actually started when a little kid made a noise and her mom made a clapping noise to try and stop her. This started the whole church clapping. Now if you don't know, we usually don't express things in a clapping motion. But recently there has been MORE clapping for songs. I think it's great, but then there's what happened tonight. Probably one of the funniest imaginable church experiences.
My brother and I were being kinda dumb during church and the kids that sang completely screwed up a song that I happen to love. Do I was like, in Anna's words, "They are slaughtering this song!" and Andrew was like, "I feel a clap in the air". And we went on saying that for a while. Then there was this song that he liked... a lot. He was like "Sara, I'm going to clap. Clap with me." I was like NO!!! At the end of the song he starts clapping. He's the only one. Then my Dad starts with him, and I sit there laughing, or trying not to. But it was so bad. They were the only ones! I laughed so hard when we got out of there.
Well, my day went really well, especially tonight. Someone told me something I really wanted to hear. I'm not going to tell you what it was yet, so don't even ask. I'm going to go to bed. Love ya!!! Please feel free to write something about how dumb Anner is.
~Skara

Look what you've done. You've made a fool of everyone!

2005-05-04T16:50:00.000-07:00

That song in my title is really good. I like it. Today I was somewhat smart in geometry class. Thata's where the making a fool of everyone comes in. My stupidness at times puts others off guard, so when I do make a really intelligent comment they are blown back, but can't help but admit I'm right. It's so fun! I'm in a really happy mood right now. I can't tell you why cause I have no idea myself. But I'm happy.
So I'm beginning to think I'm a band freak in a way. We have to do lessons in small groups for Mr. Lang and we're only made to do one, but I have gone in for three for the same song now. The reason being is that not only do I have nothing better to do, but I just love that song. We're playing a whole thing from Les Mis. It makes me really happy.
I got my hair cut yesterday. It's not unbelieveably short, just something new. I personally think I look like a flight attendant from the 60's, but I'm lovin it!
My fav show is on... I'll try to write more later! Love ya!

Growing up?

2005-05-01T20:30:00.000-07:00

I'm in one of my reflective moods today. Well, in a way I guess.
Did I tell you I got my MRI results back? I don't think I did. Well, the whole injury thing wasn't just in my head. I tore my quad muscle and can't run for at least a month. Good news is that I don't have to have surgery, just rehab 2-3 times a week for a month or so.
So the growing up thing. A whole bunch of people are mad at me... or so it seems. Rumors are horrible little devils. That may sound funny, but I'm being quite serious. I'm not going to go into much detail about that cause I might hurt someone even more, which I can't afford to do.
I will say Chris is seriously like mad at me right now, for what? I don't know... maybe it's because he never talks to me anymore and he loves all the popular girls... I don't know.
Decisions. Some know how to make them, some don't. That's part of growing up. Some of my former friends have made some bad ones. Mack got kicked off the track team because she was caught drinking... not just drinking a little... she was like stone drunk. That started this summer, and I saw it coming. I just wish I would/ could have done something more to stop it.
When do you stop being friends with a person? Is it when they tell something to a friend, something bad, just to see if he will tell people or not?That's what one of my friends just did. Is it when they start to hang around with a different crowd, and in time change their attitude? You know, it might even start if they start swearing. Maybe it's when they make you cry about something you had nothin to do with in the first place. I went to a whole camp weekend for this, and yet I don't know the time to let go.
My weekend went alright. I threw a surprise party for Jillian. She liked it, but it wasn't as good as I wanted it to be. Saturday we went to go look for used cars for my brother. I will soon be the new owner of the old Geo Prism. We went out to eat at Peking Buffet, which is Chinese if you couldn't tell from the name. Then Claire, Nico, and John came over for a while. I kicked John's butt in pool and ping-pong. Then we went to go watch to Grand March at the prom. Yeah, it may not seem like the best use of our time, but I like to see the dresses. I can't wait till I go to prom. I told David that if he had no one to go with next year, I'd be there for him. lol. But you never know. Today I went to Illinois for Mr. Cort's memorial service. The service was really nice, and I talked to Brad for quite a while which I love to do. He's a funny guy. Well, I'm going to get going. Thanks for letting me go on and on about my problems yet again. Love ya!
~Sara
Oh yeah! Great news! My grandparents are coming home this weekend! Yay!

Sara... You're Incredibly Insane!

2005-04-21T21:52:00.000-07:00

Ha!
In case you didn't have the same reaction to my last post as Nico, I think this pretty much sums up the whole post. Incredibly insane. lol. I haven't posted in a long time because nothing much has been going on. I went to Les Mis last week and it was sooo awesome. Wow. At first I thought the music was a recording cause i coulsn't see the pit, but it was real... and it was spectacular. Then todayI watched the movie. It was good too.
It's somewhat good being a manager for track cause I can skip and just go do stuff like yesterday I had behind the wheel and nobody missed me. Monday i went out early and watched the frosh baseball game. Today I missed all of practice cause I had a science project to work on.

Speaking of my science project... We did this spoof off of Anchorman and I think it's really funny, but it's probably really dumb. That's probably the most random I've been in a while. lol.

So this was pretty much the most useless blog on the face of the earth. But it gives you all something to read right? Love ya!
~Sara

Random Funny Stories

2005-04-12T21:51:00.000-07:00

Since I seem to have been in the random mood... Here are some funny stories to brighten your day!
Andrew's Story:
"This one day I saw Jake Kucta walking on the side of the road, and I was going to pick him up, but I didn't."
That's gotta be a record for either the dumbest thing ever seriously said... or the shortest story that almost makes sense.
Sara's "Squirrel" Story:
"One day I was standing outside after 2nd lunch, and a car drove past and threw a dead squirrel out the window."
This story has to be neck and neck with the previous one for record keeping pursposes.
Camp Story:
"We had to play a game where we fit about five people into the inside rim of a tire, a small tire."
Now, I know that is not really a story... But think about it!!!
Up North Story:
"My cousins, my brother and I used to play 'Ewoks' in the woods."
Sad thing is we made a song and had our own language and everything! Becca also found out in her time being sick that we have tired ourselves of Ewoks and she won't even watch that part of Star Wars anymore. Which also shows you that Becca goes crazy when she's home sick. haha.
Well... there is my life in a nutshell... get it? Squirrel Story??? HAHA! And to end my night a great quote from Signs:
"I think I'm losing my mind!!!" Coincidental don't you think? Love ya!
~Sara

Cryin Out For Consistency

2005-04-12T17:26:00.000-07:00

What's normal?
I'm deticating this blog to Anna, who finally got asked out by her long time love. I definitely think they are one of the cutest couples on the face of the planet, but I noticed Meg and Preston are really cute too.
So there isn't much big news to tell. So don't mind me if I kinda jump around a bit.
Anna's mom bought us the ever-waited, long-expected, most awesome ANIMAL CRACKERS last night. We both have a big bag in our lockers. It's so fun, and very nice to have a little snack between classes. The reason for this madness, in case any of you haven't heard, is that we cleaned Mr. B's science room one day and for a reward he gave us a little bag of animal crackers. That started the madness. We were hooked. Anna and I have this "combined locker" for lack of a better word/ words. Her's is right next to mine, and since we can't remove the metal wall between them, we resorted to getting 2 bags in case we get the urge for crackers if the other is sick. See... we thought this out.
Other really exciting news... Les Miserables is in Chicago tomorrow and our band is going. I'm so excited. It's the first broadway type thing I've been to. I hope it doesn't rain though. It rained today (Becca, I really hope you didn't wish this one on the world. lol). Becca and I found that we, or more like God has more power than we think, and He really likes to make the tings we want happen . Becca wishes for rain all the time and it happens. She wanted to get hurt for her bball season and it happened. I wanted to be hurt in the bball season too, but God made me have that happen during track instead. It's kinda crazy.
That friend of mine that was having g/f problems broke up with her. I don't know what he's thinking, but I don't think he's liking the whole situation that much. Reality hit him hard today.
My brother was being really stupid today. He got up at like 7:00, took a shower for 20 minutes, then came up for clean clothes at like 15 minutes till we had to be to school. I was ready at like 7:30. I was mad and asked him what he was doing. Then my mom yelled at him, and this morning he informed me that he's not coming home tonight. He's going to stay at Hartwigs. Well, I just told my mom that since it's 5: 20 and he's not home. He's in trouble. I don't want to be here tonight! Can someone get me away???
Evan said I should come to Lake Mills today. Some of the people from camp are going to go sing at his church. The bad thing is he lives like 1 hour and 15 minutes away and my mom isn't in the happiest mood to drive me there. Bummer!!! It looks as if I'm stuck he today. I'll have to stay out of the way. Sometimes I wish I could hide, better than I can now. haha. Any suggestions?
Love ya!
~Sara